第 5 节
作者:九十八度      更新:2022-04-27 10:16      字数:9322
  pretty; I looked a lovelier woman for you than that beautiful
  German princess whom you gave me for an example; whom I have
  studied at the Opera。 And yetyou might have thought that I had
  overstepped the limits of my nature。 You have left me no
  confidence in myself; perhaps I am plain after all。 Oh! I loathe
  myself; I dream of my radiant Charles Edward; and my brain turns。
  I shall go mad; I know I shall。 Do not laugh; do not talk to me of
  the fickleness of women。 If we are inconstant; /you/ are strangely
  capricious。 You take away the hours of love that made a poor
  creature's happiness for ten whole days; the hours on which she
  drew to be charming and kind to all that came to see her! After
  all; you were the source of my kindness to /him/; you do not know
  what pain you give him。 I wonder what I must do to keep you; or
  simply to keep the right to be yours sometimes。 。 。 。 When I think
  that you never would come here to me! 。 。 。 With what delicious
  emotion I would wait upon you!There are other women more favored
  than I。 There are women to whom you say; 'I love you。' To me you
  have never said more than 'You are a good girl。' Certain speeches
  of yours; though you do not know it; gnaw at my heart。 Clever men
  sometimes ask me what I am thinking。 。 。 。 I am thinking of my
  self…abasementthe prostration of the poorest outcast in the
  presence of the Saviour。
  〃There are still three more pages; you see。 La Palferine allowed me to
  take the letter; with the traces of tears that still seemed hot upon
  it! Here was proof of the truth of his story。 Marcas; a shy man enough
  with women; was in ecstacies over a second which he read in his corner
  before lighting his pipe with it。
  〃 'Why; any woman in love will write that sort of thing!' cried La
  Palferine。 'Love gives all women intelligence and style; which proves
  that here in France style proceeds from the matter and not from the
  words。 See now how well this is thought out; how clear…headed
  sentiment is'and with that he reads us another letter; far superior
  to the artificial and labored productions which we novelists write。
  〃One day poor Claudine heard that La Palferine was in a critical
  position; it was a question of meeting a bill of exchange。 An unlucky
  idea occurred to her; she put a tolerably large sum in gold into an
  exquisitely embroidered purse and went to him。
  〃 'Who has taught you as to be so bold as to meddle with my household
  affairs?' La Palferine cried angrily。 'Mend my socks and work slippers
  for me; if it amuses you。 So!you will play the duchess; and you turn
  the story of Danae against the aristocracy。'
  〃He emptied the purse into his hand as he spoke; and made as though he
  would fling the money in her face。 Claudine; in her terror; did not
  guess that he was joking; she shrank back; stumbled over a chair; and
  fell with her head against the corner of the marble chimney…piece。 She
  thought she should have died。 When she could speak; poor woman; as she
  lay on the bed; all that she said was; 'I deserved it; Charles!'
  〃For a moment La Palferine was in despair; his anguish revived
  Claudine。 She rejoiced in the mishap; she took advantage of her
  suffering to compel La Palferine to take the money and release him
  from an awkward position。 Then followed a variation on La Fontaine's
  fable; in which a man blesses the thieves that brought him a sudden
  impulse of tenderness from his wife。 And while we are upon this
  subject; another saying will paint the man for you。
  〃Claudine went home again; made up some kind of tale as best she could
  to account for her bruised forehead; and fell dangerously ill。 An
  abscess formed in the head。 The doctorBianchon; I believeyes; it
  was Bianchonwanted to cut off her hair。 The Duchesse de Berri's hair
  is not more beautiful than Claudine's; she would not hear of it; she
  told Bianchon in confidence that she could not allow it to be cut
  without leave from the Comte de Palferine。 Bianchon went to Charles
  Edward。 Charles Edward heard him with much seriousness。 The doctor had
  explained the case at length; and showed that it was absolutely
  necessary to sacrifice the hair to insure the success of the
  operation。
  〃 'Cut off Claudine's hair!' cried he in peremptory tones。 'No。 I
  would sooner lose her。'
  〃Even now; after a lapse of four years; Bianchon still quotes that
  speech; we have laughed over it for half an hour together。 Claudine;
  informed of the verdict; saw in it a proof of affections; she felt
  sure that she was loved。 In the face of her weeping family; with her
  husband on his knees; she was inexorable。 She kept the hair。 The
  strength that came with the belief that she was loved came to her aid;
  the operation succeeded perfectly。 There are stirrings of the inner
  life which throw all the calculations of surgery into disorder and
  baffle the laws of medical science。
  〃Claudine wrote a delicious letter to La Palferine; a letter in which
  the orthography was doubtful and the punctuation all to seek; to tell
  him of the happy result of the operation; and to add that Love was
  wiser than all the sciences。
  〃 'Now;' said La Palferine one day; 'what am I to do to get rid of
  Claudine?'
  〃 'Why; she is not at all troublesome; she leaves you master of your
  actions;' objected we。
  〃 'That is true;' returned La Palferine; 'but I do not choose that
  anything shall slip into my life without my consent。'
  〃From that day he set himself to torment Claudine。 It seemed that he
  held the bourgeoise; the nobody; in utter horror; nothing would
  satisfy him but a woman with a title。 Claudine; it was true; had made
  progress; she had learned to dress as well as the best…dressed woman
  of the Faubourg Saint…Germain; she had freed her bearing of the
  unhallowed traces; she walked with a chastened; inimitable grace; but
  this was not enough。 This praise of her enabled Claudine to swallow
  down the rest。
  〃But one day La Palferine said; 'If you wish to be the mistress of one
  La Palferine; poor; penniless; and without prospects as he is; you
  ought at least to represent him worthily。 You should have a carriage
  and liveried servants and a title。 Give me all the gratifications of
  vanity that will never be mine in my own person。 The woman whom I
  honor with my regard ought never to go on foot; if she is bespattered
  with mud; I suffer。 That is how I am made。 If she is mine; she must be
  admired of all Paris。 All Paris shall envy me my good fortune。 If some
  little whipper…snapper seeing a brilliant countess pass in her
  brilliant carriage shall say to himself; 〃Who can call such a divinity
  his?〃 and grow thoughtfulwhy; it will double my pleasure。'
  〃La Palferine owned to us that he flung this programme at Claudine's
  head simply to rid himself of her。 As a result he was stupefied with
  astonishment for the first and probably the only time in his life。
  〃 'Dear;' she said; and there was a ring in her voice that betrayed
  the great agitation which shook her whole being; 'it is well。 All this
  shall be done; or I will die。'
  〃She let fall a few happy tears on his hand as she kissed it。
  〃 'You have told me what I must do to be your mistress still;' she
  added; 'I am glad。'
  〃 'And then' (La Palferine told us) 'she went out with a little
  coquettish gesture like a woman that has had her way。 As she stood in
  my garrett doorway; tall and proud; she seemed to reach the stature of
  an antique sibyl。'
  〃All this should sufficiently explain the manners and customs of the
  Bohemia in which the young /condottiere/ is one of the most brilliant
  figures;〃 Nathan continued after a pause。 〃Now it so happened that I
  discovered Claudine's identity; and could understand the appalling
  truth of one line which you perhaps overlooked in that letter of hers。
  It was on this wise。〃
  The Marquise; too thoughtful now for laughter; bade Nathan 〃Go on;〃 in
  a tone that told him plainly how deeply she had been impressed by
  these strange things; and even more plainly how much she was
  interested in La Palferine。
  〃In 1829; one of the most influential; steady; and clever of dramatic
  writers was du Bruel。 His real name is unknown to the public; on the
  play…bills he is de Cursy。 Under the Restoration he had a place in the
  Civil Service; and being really attached to the elder branch; he sent
  in his resignation bravely in 1830; and ever since has written twice
  as many plays to fill the deficit in his budget made by his noble
  conduct。 At that time du Bruel was forty years old; you know the story
  of his life。 Like many of his brethren; he bore a stage dancer an
  affection hard to explain; but well known in the whole world of
  letters。 The woman; as you know; was Tullia; one of the /premiers
  sujets/ of the Academie Royale de Musique。 Tullia is merely a
  pseudonym like du Bruel's name of de Cursy。
  〃For the ten years between 1817 and 1827 Tullia was in her glory on
  the heights of the stage of the Opera。 With more beauty than
  education; a mediocre dancer with rather more sense than most of her
  class; she took no part in the virtuous reforms which ruined the corps
  de ballet; she continued the Guimard dynasty。 She owed her ascendency;
  moreover; to various well…known protector