第 19 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2022-04-27 10:15      字数:9315
  They very soon mustered up some old spelling…books;
  and nothing would do but that I must keep a Sab…
  bath school。  I agreed to do so; and accordingly
  devoted my Sundays to teaching these my loved fel…
  low…slaves how to read。  Neither of them knew his
  letters when I went there。  Some of the slaves of the
  neighboring farms found what was going on; and
  also availed themselves of this little opportunity to
  learn to read。  It was understood; among all who
  came; that there must be as little display about it
  as possible。  It was necessary to keep our religious
  masters at St。 Michael's unacquainted with the fact;
  that; instead of spending the Sabbath in wrestling;
  boxing; and drinking whisky; we were trying to learn
  how to read the will of God; for they had much
  *This is the same man who gave me the roots to prevent
  my being whipped by Mr。 Covey。  He was 〃a clever soul。〃
  We used frequently to talk about the fight with Covey; and
  as often as we did so; he would claim my success as the
  result of the roots which he gave me。  This superstition
  is very common among the more ignorant slaves。  A slave
  seldom dies but that his death is attributed to trickery。
  rather see us engaged in those degrading sports; than
  to see us behaving like intellectual; moral; and ac…
  countable beings。  My blood boils as I think of the
  bloody manner in which Messrs。 Wright Fairbanks
  and Garrison West; both class…leaders; in connection
  with many others; rushed in upon us with sticks
  and stones; and broke up our virtuous little Sab…
  bath school; at St。 Michael'sall calling themselves
  Christians! humble followers of the Lord Jesus
  Christ!  But I am again digressing。
  I held my Sabbath school at the house of a free
  colored man; whose name I deem it imprudent to
  mention; for should it be known; it might embar…
  rass him greatly; though the crime of holding the
  school was committed ten years ago。  I had at one
  time over forty scholars; and those of the right sort;
  ardently desiring to learn。  They were of all ages;
  though mostly men and women。  I look back to those
  Sundays with an amount of pleasure not to be ex…
  pressed。  They were great days to my soul。  The work
  of instructing my dear fellow…slaves was the sweetest
  engagement with which I was ever blessed。  We loved
  each other; and to leave them at the close of the
  Sabbath was a severe cross indeed。  When I think
  that these precious souls are to…day shut up in the
  prison…house of slavery; my feelings overcome me;
  and I am almost ready to ask; 〃Does a righteous
  God govern the universe? and for what does he hold
  the thunders in his right hand; if not to smite the
  oppressor; and deliver the spoiled out of the hand
  of the spoiler?〃  These dear souls came not to Sab…
  bath school because it was popular to do so; nor did
  I teach them because it was reputable to be thus
  engaged。  Every moment they spent in that school;
  they were liable to be taken up; and given thirty…
  nine lashes。  They came because they wished to
  learn。  Their minds had been starved by their cruel
  masters。  They had been shut up in mental darkness。
  I taught them; because it was the delight of my
  soul to be doing something that looked like better…
  ing the condition of my race。  I kept up my school
  nearly the whole year I lived with Mr。 Freeland;
  and; beside my Sabbath school; I devoted three eve…
  nings in the week; during the winter; to teaching the
  slaves at home。  And I have the happiness to know;
  that several of those who came to Sabbath school
  learned how to read; and that one; at least; is now
  free through my agency。
  The year passed off smoothly。  It seemed only
  about half as long as the year which preceded it。
  I went through it without receiving a single blow。
  I will give Mr。 Freeland the credit of being the
  best master I ever had; ~till I became my own mas…
  ter。~  For the ease with which I passed the year; I
  was; however; somewhat indebted to the society of
  my fellow…slaves。  They were noble souls; they not
  only possessed loving hearts; but brave ones。  We
  were linked and interlinked with each other。  I loved
  them with a love stronger than any thing I have
  experienced since。  It is sometimes said that we
  slaves do not love and confide in each other。  In
  answer to this assertion; I can say; I never loved
  any or confided in any people more than my fellow…
  slaves; and especially those with whom I lived at
  Mr。 Freeland's。  I believe we would have died for
  each other。  We never undertook to do any thing;
  of any importance; without a mutual consultation。
  We never moved separately。  We were one; and as
  much so by our tempers and dispositions; as by the
  mutual hardships to which we were necessarily sub…
  jected by our condition as slaves。
  At the close of the year 1834; Mr。 Freeland again
  hired me of my master; for the year 1835。  But; by
  this time; I began to want to live ~upon free land~
  as well as ~with freeland;~ and I was no longer con…
  tent; therefore; to live with him or any other slave…
  holder。  I began; with the commencement of the
  year; to prepare myself for a final struggle; which
  should decide my fate one way or the other。  My
  tendency was upward。  I was fast approaching man…
  hood; and year after year had passed; and I was
  still a slave。  These thoughts roused meI must do
  something。  I therefore resolved that 1835 should
  not pass without witnessing an attempt; on my part;
  to secure my liberty。  But I was not willing to cherish
  this determination alone。  My fellow…slaves were dear
  to me。  I was anxious to have them participate with
  me in this; my life…giving determination。  I therefore;
  though with great prudence; commenced early to
  ascertain their views and feelings in regard to their
  condition; and to imbue their minds with thoughts
  of freedom。  I bent myself to devising ways and
  means for our escape; and meanwhile strove; on all
  fitting occasions; to impress them with the gross
  fraud and inhumanity of slavery。  I went first to
  Henry; next to John; then to the others。  I found;
  in them all; warm hearts and noble spirits。  They
  were ready to hear; and ready to act when a feasible
  plan should be proposed。  This was what I wanted。
  I talked to them of our want of manhood; if we
  submitted to our enslavement without at least one
  noble effort to be free。  We met often; and consulted
  frequently; and told our hopes and fears; recounted
  the difficulties; real and imagined; which we should
  be called on to meet。  At times we were almost dis…
  posed to give up; and try to content ourselves with
  our wretched lot; at others; we were firm and un…
  bending in our determination to go。  Whenever we
  suggested any plan; there was shrinkingthe odds
  were fearful。  Our path was beset with the greatest
  obstacles; and if we succeeded in gaining the end
  of it; our right to be free was yet questionablewe
  were yet liable to be returned to bondage。  We could
  see no spot; this side of the ocean; where we could
  be free。  We knew nothing about Canada。  Our
  knowledge of the north did not extend farther than
  New York; and to go there; and be forever harassed
  with the frightful liability of being returned to
  slaverywith the certainty of being treated tenfold
  worse than beforethe thought was truly a horrible
  one; and one which it was not easy to overcome。
  The case sometimes stood thus: At every gate
  through which we were to pass; we saw a watchman
  at every ferry a guardon every bridge a sentinel
  and in every wood a patrol。  We were hemmed in
  upon every side。  Here were the difficulties; real or
  imaginedthe good to be sought; and the evil to be
  shunned。  On the one hand; there stood slavery; a
  stern reality; glaring frightfully upon us;its robes
  already crimsoned with the blood of millions; and
  even now feasting itself greedily upon our own flesh。
  On the other hand; away back in the dim distance;
  under the flickering light of the north star; behind
  some craggy hill or snow…covered mountain; stood
  a doubtful freedomhalf frozenbeckoning us to
  come and share its hospitality。  This in itself was
  sometimes enough to stagger us; but when we per…
  mitted ourselves to survey the road; we were fre…
  quently appalled。  Upon either side we saw grim
  death; assuming the most horrid shapes。  Now it was
  starvation; causing us to eat our own flesh;now we
  were contending with the waves; and were drowned;
  now we were overtaken; and torn to pieces by the
  fangs of the terrible bloodhound。  We were stung
  by scorpions; chased by wild beasts; bitten by snakes;
  and finally; after having nearly reached the desired
  spot;after swimming rivers; encountering wild
  beasts; sleeping in the woods; suffering hunger and
  nakedness;we were overtaken by our pursuers; and;
  in our resistance; we were shot dead upon the spot!
  I say; this picture sometimes appalled us; and made
  us