第 17 节
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寻找山吹 更新:2022-04-27 10:15 字数:9322
I found Sandy an old adviser。 He told me; with
great solemnity; I must go back to Covey; but that
before I went; I must go with him into another
part of the woods; where there was a certain ~root;~
which; if I would take some of it with me; carrying
it ~always on my right side;~ would render it impos…
sible for Mr。 Covey; or any other white man; to
whip me。 He said he had carried it for years; and
since he had done so; he had never received a blow;
and never expected to while he carried it。 I at first
rejected the idea; that the simple carrying of a root
in my pocket would have any such effect as he had
said; and was not disposed to take it; but Sandy
impressed the necessity with much earnestness; tell…
ing me it could do no harm; if it did no good。 To
please him; I at length took the root; and; ac…
cording to his direction; carried it upon my right
side。 This was Sunday morning。 I immediately
started for home; and upon entering the yard gate;
out came Mr。 Covey on his way to meeting。 He
spoke to me very kindly; bade me drive the pigs
from a lot near by; and passed on towards the
church。 Now; this singular conduct of Mr。 Covey
really made me begin to think that there was some…
thing in the ROOT which Sandy had given me; and
had it been on any other day than Sunday; I could
have attributed the conduct to no other cause than
the influence of that root; and as it was; I was half
inclined to think the ~root~ to be something more
than I at first had taken it to be。 All went well till
Monday morning。 On this morning; the virtue of
the ROOT was fully tested。 Long before daylight; I
was called to go and rub; curry; and feed; the horses。
I obeyed; and was glad to obey。 But whilst thus
engaged; whilst in the act of throwing down some
blades from the loft; Mr。 Covey entered the stable
with a long rope; and just as I was half out of the
loft; he caught hold of my legs; and was about tying
me。 As soon as I found what he was up to; I gave
a sudden spring; and as I did so; he holding to my
legs; I was brought sprawling on the stable floor。
Mr。 Covey seemed now to think he had me; and
could do what he pleased; but at this moment
from whence came the spirit I don't knowI re…
solved to fight; and; suiting my action to the reso…
lution; I seized Covey hard by the throat; and as I
did so; I rose。 He held on to me; and I to him。 My
resistance was so entirely unexpected that Covey
seemed taken all aback。 He trembled like a leaf。
This gave me assurance; and I held him uneasy;
causing the blood to run where I touched him with
the ends of my fingers。 Mr。 Covey soon called out
to Hughes for help。 Hughes came; and; while Covey
held me; attempted to tie my right hand。 While he
was in the act of doing so; I watched my chance;
and gave him a heavy kick close under the ribs。
This kick fairly sickened Hughes; so that he left
me in the hands of Mr。 Covey。 This kick had the
effect of not only weakening Hughes; but Covey also。
When he saw Hughes bending over with pain; his
courage quailed。 He asked me if I meant to persist
in my resistance。 I told him I did; come what
might; that he had used me like a brute for six
months; and that I was determined to be used so
no longer。 With that; he strove to drag me to a
stick that was lying just out of the stable door。 He
meant to knock me down。 But just as he was leaning
over to get the stick; I seized him with both hands
by his collar; and brought him by a sudden snatch
to the ground。 By this time; Bill came。 Covey called
upon him for assistance。 Bill wanted to know what
he could do。 Covey said; 〃Take hold of him; take
hold of him!〃 Bill said his master hired him out to
work; and not to help to whip me; so he left Covey
and myself to fight our own battle out。 We were
at it for nearly two hours。 Covey at length let me
go; puffing and blowing at a great rate; saying that
if I had not resisted; he would not have whipped
me half so much。 The truth was; that he had not
whipped me at all。 I considered him as getting en…
tirely the worst end of the bargain; for he had drawn
no blood from me; but I had from him。 The whole
six months afterwards; that I spent with Mr。 Covey;
he never laid the weight of his finger upon me in
anger。 He would occasionally say; he didn't want
to get hold of me again。 〃No;〃 thought I; 〃you
need not; for you will come off worse than you did
before。〃
This battle with Mr。 Covey was the turning…
point in my career as a slave。 It rekindled the few
expiring embers of freedom; and revived within me
a sense of my own manhood。 It recalled the de…
parted self…confidence; and inspired me again with
a determination to be free。 The gratification af…
forded by the triumph was a full compensation for
whatever else might follow; even death itself。 He
only can understand the deep satisfaction which I
experienced; who has himself repelled by force the
bloody arm of slavery。 I felt as I never felt before。
It was a glorious resurrection; from the tomb of
slavery; to the heaven of freedom。 My long…crushed
spirit rose; cowardice departed; bold defiance took
its place; and I now resolved that; however long I
might remain a slave in form; the day had passed
forever when I could be a slave in fact。 I did not
hesitate to let it be known of me; that the white
man who expected to succeed in whipping; must
also succeed in killing me。
From this time I was never again what might be
called fairly whipped; though I remained a slave
four years afterwards。 I had several fights; but was
never whipped。
It was for a long time a matter of surprise to me
why Mr。 Covey did not immediately have me taken
by the constable to the whipping…post; and there
regularly whipped for the crime of raising my hand
against a white man in defence of myself。 And the
only explanation I can now think of does not entirely
satisfy me; but such as it is; I will give it。 Mr。 Covey
enjoyed the most unbounded reputation for being
a first…rate overseer and negro…breaker。 It was of con…
siderable importance to him。 That reputation was at
stake; and had he sent mea boy about sixteen years
oldto the public whipping…post; his reputation
would have been lost; so; to save his reputation; he
suffered me to go unpunished。
My term of actual service to Mr。 Edward Covey
ended on Christmas day; 1833。 The days between
Christmas and New Year's day are allowed as holi…
days; and; accordingly; we were not required to per…
form any labor; more than to feed and take care of
the stock。 This time we regarded as our own; by the
grace of our masters; and we therefore used or
abused it nearly as we pleased。 Those of us who had
families at a distance; were generally allowed to
spend the whole six days in their society。 This time;
however; was spent in various ways。 The staid; sober;
thinking and industrious ones of our number would
employ themselves in making corn…brooms; mats;
horse…collars; and baskets; and another class of us
would spend the time in hunting opossums; hares;
and coons。 But by far the larger part engaged in
such sports and merriments as playing ball; wres…
tling; running foot…races; fiddling; dancing; and
drinking whisky; and this latter mode of spending
the time was by far the most agreeable to the feel…
ings of our masters。 A slave who would work during
the holidays was considered by our masters as
scarcely deserving them。 He was regarded as one
who rejected the favor of his master。 It was deemed
a disgrace not to get drunk at Christmas; and he
was regarded as lazy indeed; who had not provided
himself with the necessary means; during the year;
to get whisky enough to last him through Christmas。
From what I know of the effect of these holidays
upon the slave; I believe them to be among the
most effective means in the hands of the slaveholder
in keeping down the spirit of insurrection。 Were
the slaveholders at once to abandon this practice;
I have not the slightest doubt it would lead to an
immediate insurrection among the slaves。 These
holidays serve as conductors; or safety…valves; to carry
off the rebellious spirit of enslaved humanity。 But
for these; the slave would be forced up to the wild…
est desperation; and woe betide the slaveholder; the
day he ventures to remove or hinder the operation
of those conductors! I warn him that; in such an
event; a spirit will go forth in their midst; more to
be dreaded than the most appalling earthquake。
The holidays are part and parcel of the gross
fraud; wrong; and inhumanity of slavery。 They are
professedly a custom established by the benevolence
of the slaveholders; but I undertake to say; it is the
result of selfishness; and one of the grossest frauds
committed upon the down…trodden slave。 They do
not give the slaves th