第 9 节
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寻找山吹 更新:2022-04-27 10:15 字数:9322
We were not regularly allowanced。 Our food was
coarse corn meal boiled。 This was called MUSH。 It
was put into a large wooden tray or trough; and set
down upon the ground。 The children were then
called; like so many pigs; and like so many pigs they
would come and devour the mush; some with oyster…
shells; others with pieces of shingle; some with naked
hands; and none with spoons。 He that ate fastest
got most; he that was strongest secured the best
place; and few left the trough satisfied。
I was probably between seven and eight years old
when I left Colonel Lloyd's plantation。 I left it with
joy。 I shall never forget the ecstasy with which I
received the intelligence that my old master (An…
thony) had determined to let me go to Baltimore;
to live with Mr。 Hugh Auld; brother to my old
master's son…in…law; Captain Thomas Auld。 I re…
ceived this information about three days before my
departure。 They were three of the happiest days
I ever enjoyed。 I spent the most part of all these
three days in the creek; washing off the plantation
scurf; and preparing myself for my departure。
The pride of appearance which this would indicate
was not my own。 I spent the time in washing; not so
much because I wished to; but because Mrs。
Lucretia had told me I must get all the dead skin
off my feet and knees before I could go to Balti…
more; for the people in Baltimore were very cleanly;
and would laugh at me if I looked dirty。 Besides;
she was going to give me a pair of trousers; which I
should not put on unless I got all the dirt off me。
The thought of owning a pair of trousers was great
indeed! It was almost a sufficient motive; not only
to make me take off what would be called by pig…
drovers the mange; but the skin itself。 I went at it
in good earnest; working for the first time with the
hope of reward。
The ties that ordinarily bind children to their
homes were all suspended in my case。 I found no
severe trial in my departure。 My home was charm…
less; it was not home to me; on parting from it; I
could not feel that I was leaving any thing which I
could have enjoyed by staying。 My mother was dead;
my grandmother lived far off; so that I seldom saw
her。 I had two sisters and one brother; that lived in
the same house with me; but the early separation of
us from our mother had well nigh blotted the fact
of our relationship from our memories。 I looked for
home elsewhere; and was confident of finding none
which I should relish less than the one which I was
leaving。 If; however; I found in my new home hard…
ship; hunger; whipping; and nakedness; I had the
consolation that I should not have escaped any one
of them by staying。 Having already had more than
a taste of them in the house of my old master; and
having endured them there; I very naturally inferred
my ability to endure them elsewhere; and especially
at Baltimore; for I had something of the feeling
about Baltimore that is expressed in the proverb;
that 〃being hanged in England is preferable to
dying a natural death in Ireland。〃 I had the strongest
desire to see Baltimore。 Cousin Tom; though not
fluent in speech; had inspired me with that desire
by his eloquent description of the place。 I could
never point out any thing at the Great House; no
matter how beautiful or powerful; but that he had
seen something at Baltimore far exceeding; both in
beauty and strength; the object which I pointed out
to him。 Even the Great House itself; with all its
pictures; was far inferior to many buildings in Bal…
timore。 So strong was my desire; that I thought a
gratification of it would fully compensate for what…
ever loss of comforts I should sustain by the ex…
change。 I left without a regret; and with the highest
hopes of future happiness。
We sailed out of Miles River for Baltimore on a
Saturday morning。 I remember only the day of the
week; for at that time I had no knowledge of the
days of the month; nor the months of the year。 On
setting sail; I walked aft; and gave to Colonel Lloyd's
plantation what I hoped would be the last look。 I
then placed myself in the bows of the sloop; and
there spent the remainder of the day in looking
ahead; interesting myself in what was in the distance
rather than in things near by or behind。
In the afternoon of that day; we reached Annap…
olis; the capital of the State。 We stopped but a
few moments; so that I had no time to go on shore。
It was the first large town that I had ever seen; and
though it would look small compared with some of
our New England factory villages; I thought it a
wonderful place for its sizemore imposing even
than the Great House Farm!
We arrived at Baltimore early on Sunday morn…
ing; landing at Smith's Wharf; not far from Bow…
ley's Wharf。 We had on board the sloop a large
flock of sheep; and after aiding in driving them to
the slaughterhouse of Mr。 Curtis on Louden Slater's
Hill; I was conducted by Rich; one of the hands
belonging on board of the sloop; to my new home
in Alliciana Street; near Mr。 Gardner's ship…yard; on
Fells Point。
Mr。 and Mrs。 Auld were both at home; and met
me at the door with their little son Thomas; to take
care of whom I had been given。 And here I saw what
I had never seen before; it was a white face beaming
with the most kindly emotions; it was the face of
my new mistress; Sophia Auld。 I wish I could de…
scribe the rapture that flashed through my soul as I
beheld it。 It was a new and strange sight to me;
brightening up my pathway with the light of happi…
ness。 Little Thomas was told; there was his Freddy;
and I was told to take care of little Thomas; and
thus I entered upon the duties of my new home with
the most cheering prospect ahead。
I look upon my departure from Colonel Lloyd's
plantation as one of the most interesting events of
my life。 It is possible; and even quite probable; that
but for the mere circumstance of being removed
from that plantation to Baltimore; I should have
to…day; instead of being here seated by my own table;
in the enjoyment of freedom and the happiness of
home; writing this Narrative; been confined in the
galling chains of slavery。 Going to live at Baltimore
laid the foundation; and opened the gateway; to all
my subsequent prosperity。 I have ever regarded it
as the first plain manifestation of that kind provi…
dence which has ever since attended me; and marked
my life with so many favors。 I regarded the selection
of myself as being somewhat remarkable。 There were
a number of slave children that might have been
sent from the plantation to Baltimore。 There were
those younger; those older; and those of the same
age。 I was chosen from among them all; and was
the first; last; and only choice。
I may be deemed superstitious; and even egotisti…
cal; in regarding this event as a special interposition
of divine Providence in my favor。 But I should be
false to the earliest sentiments of my soul; if I sup…
pressed the opinion。 I prefer to be true to myself;
even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others;
rather than to be false; and incur my own abhor…
rence。 From my earliest recollection; I date the en…
tertainment of a deep conviction that slavery would
not always be able to hold me within its foul em…
brace; and in the darkest hours of my career in slav…
ery; this living word of faith and spirit of hope de…
parted not from me; but remained like ministering
angels to cheer me through the gloom。 This good
spirit was from God; and to him I offer thanksgiving
and praise。
CHAPTER VI
My new mistress proved to be all she appeared
when I first met her at the door;a woman of the
kindest heart and finest feelings。 She had never had
a slave under her control previously to myself; and
prior to her marriage she had been dependent upon
her own industry for a living。 She was by trade a
weaver; and by constant application to her business;
she had been in a good degree preserved from the
blighting and dehumanizing effects of slavery。 I was
utterly astonished at her goodness。 I scarcely knew
how to behave towards her。 She was entirely unlike
any other white woman I had ever seen。 I could not
approach her as I was accustomed to approach other
white ladies。 My early instruction was all out of
place。 The crouching servility; usually so acceptable
a quality in a slave; did not answer when manifested
toward her。 Her favor was not gained by it; she
seemed to be disturbed by it。 She did not deem it
impudent or unmannerly for a slave to look her in
the face。 The meanest slave was put fully at ease
in her presence; and none left without feeling bet…
ter for having seen her。 Her face was made of heav…
enly smiles; and her voice of tranquil music。
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