第 4 节
作者:垃圾王      更新:2022-04-21 11:07      字数:9320
  〃If a railway…journey could be avoided; I avoided it。 My uncle had a
  place in Hampshire。 I was very fond of him and of his wife。 Theirs was the
  only house I ever went to stay in now。 I was there for a week in November;
  not    long   after   my   twenty…seventh       birthday。    There    were    other   people
  staying there; and at the end of the week we all traveled back to London
  together。   There   were   six   of   us   in   the   carriage:   Colonel   Elbourn   and   his
  wife and their daughter; a girl of seventeen; and another married couple;
  the Bretts。 I had been at Winchester with Brett; but had hardly seen him
  since that time。 He was in the Indian Civil; and was home on leave。 He
  was sailing   for  India  next   week。  His   wife  was to   remain   in   England   for
  some   months;   and   then   join   him   out   there。   They   had   been   married   five
  years。 She was now just twenty…four years old。 He told me that this was
  her age。 The Elbourns I had never met before。 They were charming people。
  We had all been very happy together。 The only trouble had been that on
  the last night; at dinner; my uncle asked me if I still went in for 'the Gipsy
  business;'   as   he   always    called   it;   and   of  course   the   three   ladies  were
  immensely excited; and implored me to 'do' their hands。 I told them it was
  all nonsense; I said I had forgotten all I once knew; I made various excuses;
  and the matter dropped。 It was quite true that I had given up reading hands。
  I avoided anything that might remind me of what was in my own hands。
  And so; next morning; it was a great bore to me when; soon after the train
  started; Mrs。 Elbourn said it would be 'too cruel' of me if I refused to do
  their hands now。 Her daughter and Mrs。 Brett also said it would be 'brutal';
  and they were all taking off their gloves; andwell; of course I had to give
  in。
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  〃I   went   to   work   methodically   on   Mrs。   Elbourn's   hands;   in   the   usual
  way; you know; first sketching the character from the backs of them; and
  there   was   the   usual   hush;   broken   by   the   usual   little   noises   grunts   of
  assent     from    the   husband;     cooings     of   recognition     from    the   daughter。
  Presently I asked to see the palms; and from them I filled in the details of
  Mrs。   Elbourn's   character   before   going   on   to   the   events   in   her   life。   But
  while   I   talked   I   was   calculating   how   old   Mrs。  Elbourn   might   be。   In   my
  first glance at her palms I had seen that she could not have been less than
  twenty…five when she married。 The daughter was seventeen。 Suppose the
  daughter had been born a year laterhow old would the mother be? Forty…
  three; yes。 Not less than that; poor woman!〃
  Laider looked at me。
  〃Why 'poor woman!' you wonder? Well; in that first glance I had seen
  other things than her marriage…line。 I had seen a very complete break in
  the lines of life and of fate。 I had seen violent death there。 At what age?
  Not   later;   not   possibly   LATER;   than   forty…three。   While   I   talked   to   her
  about the things that had happened in her girlhood; the back of my brain
  was hard at work on those marks of catastrophe。 I was horribly wondering
  that    she  was    still  alive。  It  was    impossible     that   between     her   and   that
  catastrophe there could be more than a few short months。 And all the time
  I was talking; and I suppose I acquitted myself well; for I remember that
  when I ceased I had a sort of ovation from the Elbourns。
  〃It   was   a   relief   to   turn   to   another   pair   of   hands。   Mrs。   Brett   was   an
  amusing       young    creature;    and   her   hands    were    very    characteristic;    and
  prettily   odd   in   form。   I   allowed   myself   to   be   rather   whimsical   about   her
  nature; and having begun in that vein; I went on in it; somehow; even after
  she had turned her palms。 In those palms were reduplicated the signs I had
  seen in Mrs。 Elbourn's。 It was as though they had been copied neatly out。
  The only difference was in the placing of them; and it was this difference
  that was the most horrible point。 The fatal age in Mrs。 Brett's hands was
  not past;  no; for here SHE  was。  But she   might have   died when   she   was
  twenty…one。 Twenty…three seemed to be the utmost span。 She was twenty…
  four; you know。
  〃I have said that I am a weak man。 And you will have good proof of
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  that directly。 Yet I showed a certain amount of strength that dayyes; even
  on that day which has humiliated and saddened the rest of my life。 Neither
  my face nor my voice betrayed me when in the palms of Dorothy Elbourn
  I was again confronted with those same signs。 She was all for knowing the
  future; poor child! I believe I told her all manner of things that were to be。
  And she had no futurenone; none in THIS worldexcept
  〃And then;   while   I   talked;   there   came   to   me   suddenly  a   suspicion。   I
  wondered it hadn't come before。 You guess what it was? It made me feel
  very   cold    and    strange。   I  went    on   talking。   But;   also;   I  went   onquite
  separatelythinking。   The   suspicion   wasn't   a   certainty。   This   mother   and
  daughter      were     always     together。    What     was    to  befall    the   one   might
  anywhereanywherebefall the other。 But a like fate; in an equally near
  future; was in store for that other lady。 The coincidence was curious; very。
  Here we all were togetherhere; they and II who was narrowly to escape;
  so   soon   now;   what   they;   so   soon   now;   were   to   suffer。   Oh;   there   was   an
  inference to be drawn。 Not a sure inference; I told myself。 And always I
  was     talking;   talking;   and    the  train   was   swinging      and   swaying     noisily
  alongto what? It was a fast train。 Our carriage was near the engine。 I was
  talking loudly。  Full   well   I  had known what   I should   see  in   the  colonel's
  hands。 I told myself I had not known。 I told myself that even now the thing
  I dreaded was not sure to be。 Don't think I was dreading it for myself。 I
  wasn't so 'lamentable' as all thatnow。 It was only of them that I thought
  only   for   them。   I   hurried   over   the   colonel's   character   and   career;   I   was
  perfunctory。 It was Brett's hands that I wanted。 THEY were the hands that
  mattered。 If THEY had the marks Remember; Brett was to start for India
  in the coming week; his wife was to remain in England。 They would be
  apart。 Therefore
  〃And the marks were there。 And I did nothingnothing but hold forth
  on   the   subtleties   of   Brett's   character。   There   was   a   thing   for   me   to   do。   I
  wanted      to   do   it。  I  wanted     to   spring    to   the   window      and    pull   the
  communication…cord。   Quite   a   simple   thing   to   do。   Nothing   easier   than   to
  stop a train。 You just give a sharp pull; and the train slows down; comes to
  a   standstill。 And   the   guard   appears   at   your   window。  You   explain   to   the
  guard。
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  〃Nothing       easier   than   to  tell  him   there   is  going    to  be   a  collision。
  Nothing   easier   than   to   insist   that   you   and   your   friends   and   every   other
  passenger in the train must get out at once。 There ARE easier things than
  this? Things that need less courage than this? Some of THEM I could have
  done; I dare say。 This thing I was going to do。 Oh; I was determined that I
  would do itdirectly。
  〃I   had   said   all   I   had   to   say   about   Brett's   hands。   I   had   brought   my
  entertainment to an end。 I had been thanked and complimented all round。 I
  was quite at liberty。 I was going to do what I had to do。 I was determined;
  yes。
  〃We were near the outskirts of London。 The air was gray; thickening;
  and Dorothy  Elbourn had   said: 'Oh; this horrible old London!   I   suppose
  there's    the   same     old   fog!'   And    presently     I  heard    her   father   saying
  something        about    'prevention'      and    'a  short    act   of   Parliament'      and
  'anthracite。' And I sat and listened and agreed and〃
  Laider closed his eyes。 He passed his hand slowly through the air。
  〃I had a racking headache。 And when I said so; I was told not to talk。 I
  was in bed; and the nurses were always telling me not to talk。 I was in a
  hospital。 I knew that; but I didn't know why I was there。 One day I thought