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forbearing feelings for every creature around her。 Mr。 Elliot was
there; she avoided; but she could pity him。 The Wallises; she had
amusement in understanding them。 Lady Dalrymple and Miss
Carteret; they would soon be innoxious cousins to her。 She cared
not for Mrs。 Clay; and had nothing to blush for in the public
manners of her father and sister。 With the Musgroves; there was
the happy chat of perfect ease; with Captain Harville; the kind…
hearted intercourse of brother and sister; with Lady Russell;
attempts at conversation; which a delicious consciousness cut
short; with Admiral and Mrs。 Croft; everything of peculiar
cordiality and fervent interest; which the same consciousness
sought to conceal;—and with Captain Wentworth; some moments
of communications continually occurring; and always the hope of
more; and always the knowledge of his being there!
It was in one of these short meetings; each apparently occupied
in admiring a fine display of greenhouse plants; that she said—
“I have been thinking over the past; and trying impartially to
judge of the right and wrong; I mean with regard to myself; and I
must believe that I was right; much as I suffered from it; that I was
perfectly right in being guided by the friend whom you will love
better than you do now。 To me; she was in the place of a parent。
Do not mistake me; however。 I am not saying that she did not err
in her advice。 It was; perhaps; one of those cases in which advice is
good or bad only as the event decides; and for myself; I certainly
never should; in any circumstance of tolerable similarity; give such
advice。 But I mean; that I was right in submitting to her; and that
if I had done otherwise; I should have suffered more in continuing
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the engagement than I did even in giving it up; because I should
have suffered in my conscience。 I have now; as far as such a
sentiment is allowable in human nature; nothing to reproach
myself with; and if I mistake not; a strong sense of duty is no bad
part of a woman’s portion。”
He looked at her; looked at Lady Russell; and looking again at
her; replied; as if in cool deliberation;
“Not yet。 But there are hopes of her being forgiven in time。 I
trust to being in charity with her soon。 But I too have been
thinking over the past; and a question has suggested itself;
whether there may not have been one person more my enemy
even than that lady? My own self。 Tell me if; when I returned to
England in the year eight; with a few thousand pounds; and was
posted into the Laconia; if I had then written to you; would you
have answered my letter? Would you; in short; have renewed the
engagement then?”
“Would I!” was all her answer; but the accent was decisive
enough。
“Good God!” he cried; “you would! It is not that I did not think
of it; or desire it; as what could alone crown all my other success;
but I was proud; too proud to ask again。 I did not understand you。
I shut my eyes; and would not understand you; or do you justice。
This is a recollection which ought to make me forgive every one
sooner than myself。 Six years of separation and suffering might
have been spared。 It is a sort of pain; too; which is new to me。 I
have been used to the gratification of believing myself to earn
every blessing that I enjoyed。 I have valued myself on honourable
toils and just rewards。 Like other great men under reverses;” he
added; with a smile; “I must endeavour to subdue my mind to my
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fortune。 I must learn to brook being happier than I deserve。”
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CHAPTER XII
ho can be in doubt of what followed? When any two
Wyoung people take it into their heads to marry; they are
pretty sure by perseverance to carry their point; be
they ever so poor; or ever so imprudent; or ever so little likely to
be necessary to each other’s ultimate comfort。 This may be bad
morality to conclude with; but I believe it to be truth; and if such
parties succeed; how should a Captain Wentworth and an Anne
Elliot; with the advantage of maturity of mind; consciousness of
right; and one independent fortune between them; fail of bearing
down every opposition? They might in fact; have borne down a
great deal more than they met with; for there was little to distress
them beyond the want of graciousness and warmth。—Sir Walter
made no objection; and Elizabeth did nothing worse than look cold
and unconcerned。 Captain Wentworth; with five…and…twenty
thousand pounds; and as high in his profession as merit and
activity could place him; was no longer nobody。 He was now
esteemed quite worthy to address the daughter of a foolish;
spendthrift baronet; who had not had principle or sense enough to
maintain himself in the situation in which Providence had placed
him; and who could give his daughter at present but a small part
of the share of ten thousand pounds which must be hers hereafter。
Sir Walter; indeed; though he had no affection for Anne; and no
vanity flattered; to make him really happy on the occasion; was
very far from thinking it a bad match for her。 On the contrary;
when he saw more of Captain Wentworth; saw him repeatedly by
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daylight; and eyed him well; he was very much struck by his
personal claims; and felt that his superiority of appearance might
be not unfairly balanced against her superiority of rank; and all
this; assisted by his well…sounding name; enabled Sir Walter at last
to prepare his pen; with a very good grace; for the insertion of the
marriage in the volume of honour。
The only one among them; whose opposition of feeling could
excite any serious anxiety was Lady Russell。 Anne knew that Lady
Russell must be suffering some pain in understanding and
relinquishing Mr。 Elliot; and be making some struggles to become
truly acquainted with; and do justice to Captain Wentworth。 This
however was what Lady Russell had now to do。 She must learn to
feel that she had been mistaken with regard to both; that she had
been unfairly influenced by appearances in each; that because
Captain Wentworth’s manners had not suited her own ideas; she
had been too quick in suspecting them to indicate a character of
dangerous impetuosity; and that because Mr。 Elliot’s manners had
precisely pleased her in their propriety and correctness; their
general politeness and suavity; she had been too quick in receiving
them as the certain result of the most correct opinions and well…
regulated mind。 There was nothing less for Lady Russell to do;
than to admit that she had been pretty completely wrong; and to
take up a new set of opinions and of hopes。
There is a quickness of perception in some; a nicety in the
discernment of character; a natural penetration; in short; which no
experience in others can equal; and Lady Russell had been less
gifted in this part of understanding than her young friend。 But she
was a very good woman; and if her second object was to be
sensible and well…judging; her first was to see Anne happy。