第 27 节
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  but I noticed that her=20fingers at once busied themselves with the
  entirely uncalled…for labour of readjusting the tidy upon the arm of
  her chair; and I thought that; if appearances were to be trusted;
  she was very happy and contented at the change she had made in the
  bit of lacework beneath her hands。  With singular good sense; with
  which she was always surprising me; Alice now introduced the subject
  of the Young People's Club; and mentioned incidentally that Gwen was
  to have charge of the next meeting。  Before Gwen had time to inform
  Maitland that she intended to decline this honour; he congratulated
  her upon it; and rendered her withdrawal difficult by saying: 〃I feel
  that I should thank you; Miss Darrow; for the faithful way in which
  you fulfil the spirit of your agreement to permit me to order your
  actions。  I know; if you consulted your own desires; you would
  probably decline the honour conferred upon you; and that in accepting
  it; you are influenced by the knowledge that you are pursuing just
  the course I most wish you to follow。  Verily; you make my office of
  tyrant over you a perfect sinecure。  I had expected you to chafe a
  little under restraint; but; instead; I find you voluntarily yielding
  to my unexpressed desires。〃
  Gwen made no reply; but we heard no more of her resignation。  She
  applied herself at once to the preparation of her paper upon
  〃Antony and Cleopatra。〃  Maitland; who; like all vigorous; healthy;
  and informed intellects; was an ardent admirer of Shakespeare; found
  time to call on Gwen and to discuss the play with her。  This seemed
  to please her very much; and I am sure his interest in the play was
  abnormal。  He confessed to me that every morning; as he awoke; the
  first thing which flashed into his mind; even before he had full
  possession of his senses; was these words of Antony:
  〃I am dying; Egypt; dying。〃
  He professed himself utterly unable to account for this; and asked
  me what I thought was the cause of it。  He furthermore suddenly
  decided that he would ask Gwen to propose his name for membership at
  the next meeting of the Young People's Club。  I hastily indorsed
  this resolution; for I had a vague sort of feeling that it would
  please Gwen。
  The 〃Antony and Cleopatra〃 night at length arrived。  We all attended
  the meeting and listened to a very able paper upon the play。  One
  of the most marked traits of Gwen's character is that whatever she
  does she does thoroughly; and this was fully exemplified on the night
  in question。  Maitland was very much impressed by some verse Gwen
  had written for the occasion; and a copy of which he succeeded in
  procuring from her。  I think; from certain remarks he made; that it
  was the broad and somewhat unfeminine charity expressed in the verse
  which most astonished and attracted him; but of this; after what I
  have said; you will; when you have perused it; be as good a judge
  as I:
  CLEOPATRA
  In Egypt; where the lotus sips the waters
  Of ever…fruitful Nile; and the huge Sphinx
  In awful silence; … mystic converse with
  The stars; … doth see the pale moon hang her crescent on
  The pyramid's sharp peak; … e'en there; well in
  The straits of Time's perspective;
  Went out; by Caesarean gusts from Rome;
  The low…burned candle of the Ptolemies:
  Went out without a flicker in full glare
  Of noon…day glory。  When her flame lacked oil
  Too proud was Egypt's queen to be
  The snuff of Roman spirits; so she said;
  〃Good…night;〃 and closed the book of life half read
  And little understood; perchance misread
  The greater part; … yet; who shall say?  Are we
  An ermined bench to call her culprit failings up
  And make them plead for mercy?  Or can we;
  Upon whom soon shall fall the awful shadow of
  The Judgment Seat; stand in her light and throw
  Ourselves that shadow?  Rather let fall upon
  Her memory the softening gauze of Time;
  As mantle of a charity which else
  We might not serve。  She was a woman;
  And as a woman loved!  What though the fierce
  Simoom blew ever hot within the sail
  Of her desire?  What if it shifted with
  Direction of her breath?  Or if the rudder of
  Her will did lean as many ways as trampled straws;
  And own as little worth?  She was a woman still;
  And queen。  They do best understand themselves
  Who trust themselves the least; as they are wisest
  Who; for their safety; thank more the open sea
  Than pilot will。  Oh; Egypt's self…born Isis!
  Ought we to fasten in thy memory the fangs
  Of unalloyed distrust?  We know how little
  Better is History's page than leaf whereat the ink
  Is thrown。  Nor yet should we forget how much
  The nearer thou than we didst come to
  The rough…hewn corner…stone of Time。  We know
  Thy practised love enfolded Antony;
  And that around the heart of Hercules'
  Descendant; threading through and through;
  Like the red rivers of its life; in tangled mesh
  No circumstance could e'er unravel; thou
  Didst coil; … the dreamy; dazzling 〃Serpent of
  The Nile!〃 Thy sins stick jagged out
  From history's page; and bleeding tear
  Fair Judgment from thy merits。  We perchance
  Do wrong thee; Isis; for that coward; History;
  Who binds in death his object's jaw and then
  Besmuts her name; hath crossed his focus in
  Another age; and paled his spreading figment from
  Our sight。  Thou art so far back toward
  The primal autocrat whose wish; hyena…like;
  Was his religion; that; appearing as thou dost
  On an horizon new flushed in the first
  Uncertain ray of Altruism; thou seem'st
  More ghost than human。  Yet thou lovest; loving ghost;
  And thy fierce parent flame thyself snuffed out
  Scarce later than the dark'ning of the fire
  Thou gav'st to be eternal vestal of
  Thine Antony's spirit。  Thou didst love and die
  Of love; let; therefore; no light tongue; brazen
  In censure; say that nothing in thy life
  Became thee like the leaving it。  The cloth
  From which humanity is cut is woven of
  The warp and woof of circumstance; and all
  Are much alike。  We spring from out the mantle; Earth;
  And hide at last beneath it; in the interim
  Our acts are less of us than it。  We are
  No judge; then; of thy sins; thou ending link
  Of Ptolemy's chain。  Forsooth; we are too much
  O'erfilled with wondering how like to thee
  We all had been; inclipt and dressed in thine
  Own age and circumstance。
  The exercises of the evening concluded with the reading of the
  familiar poem; beginning:
  〃I am dying; Egypt; dying;
  Ebbs the crimson life…tide fast。〃
  It was about noon the next day when Maitland called upon me。  〃See
  here; Doc;〃 he began at once; 〃do you believe in coincidences?〃  I
  informed him that his question was not altogether easy to understand。
  〃Wait a moment;〃 he said; 〃while I explain。  For at least two years
  prior to my recent return from California the name 'Cleopatra' has
  not entered my mind。  You were the first to mention it to me; and
  from you I learned that Miss Darrow was to have charge of the 'Antony
  and Cleopatra' night。  That is all natural enough。  But why should I;
  on every morning since you first mentioned the subject to me; awake
  with Antony's words upon my lips?  Why should every book or paper I
  pick up contain some reference to Cleopatra?  Why; man; if I were
  superstitious; it would seem positively spookish。  I am getting to
  believe that I shall be confronted either by Cleopatra's name; or
  some allusion to her; every time I pick up a book。  It's getting to
  be decidedly interesting。〃
  〃I have had;〃 I replied; 〃similar; though less remarkable;
  experiences。  It is quite a common occurrence to learn of a thing;
  say; this morning for the first time in one's life; and then to
  find; in the course of the day's reading; three or four independent
  references to the same thing。  Suppose we step into the library; and
  pick out a few books haphazard; just to see if we chance upon any
  reference to Cleopatra。〃
  To this Maitland agreed; and; entering the library; I pushed the
  Morning Herald across the table to him; saying: 〃One thing's as good
  as another; try that。〃  He started a little; but did not touch the
  paper。  〃You will have to find something harder than that;〃 he said;
  pointing to the outspread paper。
  I followed the direction of his finger; and read:
  〃Boston Theatre。  Special engagement of Miss Fanny Davenport。
  For one week。  Beginning Monday; the 12th of December; Sardou's
  'Cleopatra。'〃
  I was indeed surprised; but I said nothing。  The next thing I handed
  him was a copy of Godey's Magazine; several years old。  He opened it
  carelessly; and in a moment read the following line: 〃I am dying;
  sweetheart; dying。〃  〃Doesn't that sound familiar?  It reminds me at
  once of the poetic alarm clock that wakens me every morning; … 'I am
  dying; Egypt; dying。'  There is no doubt that Higginson's poem
  suggested this one。  Here is the whole of the thing as it is printed
  here;〃 h