第 13 节
作者:辛苦      更新:2022-04-12 11:59      字数:9128
  Would to the earth go back and nestle there?
  Not of this world; this world my life doth hem;
  What if I weary; then; and look to the door;
  Because my unknown life is swelling at the core?
  5。
  All winged things came from the waters first;
  Airward still many a one from the water springs
  In dens and caves wind…loving things are nursed:
  I lie like unhatched bird; upfolded; dumb;
  While all the air is trembling with the hum
  Of songs and beating hearts and whirring wings;
  That call my slumbering life to wake to happy things。
  6。
  I lay last night and knew not why I was sad。
  〃'Tis well with God;〃 I said; 〃and he is the truth;
  Let that content me。〃'Tis not strength; nor youth;
  Nor buoyant health; nor a heart merry…mad;
  That makes the fact of things wherein men live:
  He is the life; and doth my life outgive;
  In him there is no gloom; but all is solemn…glad;
  7。
  I said to myself; 〃Lo; I lie in a dream
  Of separation; where there comes no sign;
  My waking life is hid with Christ in God;
  Where all is true and potentfact divine。〃
  I will not heed the thing that doth but seem;
  I will be quiet as lark upon the sod;
  God's will; the seed; shall rest in me the pod。
  8。
  And when that will shall blossomthen; my God;
  There will be jubilation in a world!
  The glad lark; soaring heavenward from the sod;
  Up the swift spiral of its own song whirled;
  Never such jubilation wild out…poured
  As from my soul will break at thy feet; Lord;
  Like a great tide from sea…heart shoreward hurled。
  9。
  For then thou wilt be able; then at last;
  To glad me as thou hungerest to do;
  Then shall thy life my heart all open find;
  A thoroughfare to thy great spirit…wind;
  Then shall I rest within thy holy vast;
  One with the bliss of the eternal mind;
  And all creation rise in me created new。
  10。
  What makes thy being a bliss shall then make mind
  For I shall love as thou; and love in thee;
  Then shall I have whatever I desire;
  My every faintest wish being all divine;
  Power thou wilt give me to work mightily;
  Even as my Lord; leading thy low men nigher;
  With dance and song to cast their best upon thy fire。
  11。
  Then shall I live such an essential life
  That a mere flower will then to me unfold
  More bliss than now grandest orchestral strife
  By love made and obedience humble…bold;
  I shall straight through its window God behold。
  God; I shall feed on thee; thy creature blest
  With very beingwork at one with sweetest rest。
  12。
  Give me a world; to part for praise and sunder。
  The brooks be bells; the winds; in caverns dumb;
  Wake fife and flute and flageolet and voice;
  The fire…shook earth itself be the great drum;
  And let the air the region's bass out thunder;
  The firs be violins; the reeds hautboys;
  Rivers; seas; icebergs fill the great score up and under!
  13。
  But rather dost thou hear the blundered words
  Of breathing creatures; the music…lowing herds
  Of thy great cattle; thy soft…bleating sheep;
  O'erhovered by the trebles of thy birds;
  Whose Christ…praised carelessness song…fills the deep;
  Still rather a child's talk who apart doth hide him;
  And make a tent for God to come and sit beside him。
  14。
  This is not life; this being is not enough。
  But thou art life; and thou hast life for me。
  Thou mad'st the wormto cast the wormy slough;
  And fly abroada glory flit and flee。
  Thou hast me; statue…like; hewn in the rough;
  Meaning at last to shape me perfectly。
  Lord; thou hast called me fourth; I turn and call on thee。
  15。
  'Tis thine to make; mine to rejoice in thine。
  As; hungering for his mother's face and eyes;
  The child throws wide the door; back to the wall;
  I run to thee; the refuge from poor lies:
  Lean dogs behind me whimper; yelp; and whine;
  Life lieth ever sick; Death's writhing thrall;
  In slavery endless; hopeless; and supine。
  16。
  The life that hath not willed itself to be;
  Must clasp the life that willed; and be at peace;
  Or; like a leaf wind…blown; through chaos flee;
  A life…husk into which the demons go;
  And work their will; and drive it to and fro;
  A thing that neither is; nor yet can cease;
  Which uncreation can alone release。
  17。
  But when I turn and grasp the making hand;
  And will the making will; with confidence
  I ride the crest of the creation…wave;
  Helpless no more; no more existence' slave;
  In the heart of love's creating fire I stand;
  And; love…possessed in heart and soul and sense;
  Take up the making share the making Master gave。
  18。
  That man alone who does the Father's works
  Can be the Father's son; yea; only he
  Who sonlike can create; can ever be;
  Who with God wills not; is no son; not free。
  O Father; send the demon…doubt that lurks
  Behind the hope; out into the abyss;
  Who trusts in knowledge all its good shall miss。
  19。
  Thy beasts are sinless; and do live before thee;
  Thy child is sinful; and must run to thee。
  Thy angels sin not and in peace adore thee;
  But I must will; or never more be free。
  I from thy heart came; how can I ignore thee?
  Back to my home I hurry; haste; and flee;
  There I shall dwell; love…praising evermore thee。
  20。
  My holy self; thy pure ideal; lies
  Calm in thy bosom; which it cannot leave;
  My self unholy; no ideal; hies
  Hither and thither; gathering store to grieve
  Not now; O Father! now it mounts; it flies;
  To join the true self in thy heart that waits;
  And; one with it; be one with all the heavenly mates。
  21。
  Trusting thee; Christ; I kneel; and clasp thy knee;
  Cast myself down; and kiss thy brother…feet
  One self thou and the Father's thought of thee!
  Ideal son; thou hast left the perfect home;
  Ideal brother; to seek thy brothers come!
  Thou know'st our angels all; God's children sweet;
  And of each two wilt make one holy child complete。
  22。
  To a slow end I draw these daily words;
  Nor think such words often to write again
  Rather; as light the power to me affords;
  Christ's new and old would to my friends unbind;
  Through words he spoke help to his thought behind;
  Unveil the heart with which he drew his men;
  Set forth his rule o'er devils; animals; corn; and wind。
  23。
  I do remember how one time I thought;
  〃God must be lonelyoh; so lonely lone!
  I will be very good to himah; nought
  Can reach the heart of his great loneliness!
  My whole heart I will bring him; with a moan
  That I may not come nearer; I will lie prone
  Before the awful loveliness in loneliness' excess。〃
  24。
  A God must have a God for company。
  And lo! thou hast the Son…God to thy friend。
  Thou honour'st his obedience; he thy law。
  Into thy secret life…will he doth see;
  Thou fold'st him round in live love perfectly
  One two; without beginning; without end;
  In love; life; strength; and truth; perfect without a flaw。
  25。
  Thou hast not made; or taught me; Lord; to care
  For times and seasonsbut this one glad day
  Is the blue sapphire clasping all the lights
  That flash in the girdle of the year so fair
  When thou wast born a man; because alway
  Thou wast and art a man; through all the flights
  Of thought; and time; and thousandfold creation's play。
  26。
  We all are lonely; Makereach a soul
  Shut in by itself; a sundered atom of thee。
  No two yet loved themselves into a whole;
  Even when we weep together we are two。
  Of two to make one; which yet two shall be;
  Is thy creation's problem; deep; and true;
  To which thou only hold'st the happy; hurting clue。
  27。
  No less than thou; O Father; do we need
  A God to friend each lonely one of us。
  As touch not in the sack two grains of seed;
  Touch no two hearts in great worlds populous。
  Outside the making God we cannot meet
  Him he has made our brother: homeward; thus;
  To find our kin we first must turn our wandering feet。
  28。
  It must be possible that the soul made
  Should absolutely meet the soul that makes;
  Then; in that bearing soul; meet every other
  There also born; each sister and each brother。
  Lord; till I meet thee thus; life is delayed;
  I am not I until that morning breaks;
  Not I until my consciousness eternal wakes。
  29。
  Again I shall behold thee; daughter true;
  The hour will come when I shall hold thee fast
  In God's name; loving thee all through and through。
  Somewhere in his grand thought this waits for us。
  Then shall I see a smile not like thy last
  For that great thing which came when all was past;
  Was not a smile; but God's peace glorious。
  30。
  Twilight of the transfiguration…joy;
  Gleam…faced; pure…eyed; strong…willed; high…hearted boy!
  Hardly thy life clear forth of heaven was sent;
  Ere it broke out into a smile; and went。
  So swift thy growth; so true thy goalward bent;
  Thou; child and sage inextricably blent;
  Wilt one day teach thy father in some heavenly tent
  31。
  Go; my beloved children; live your life。
  Wounded; faint; bleeding; never yield the strife。
  Stunned; fallen…awake; arise; and fight again。
  Before you victory stands; with shining train
  Of hopes not credible until they are。
  Beyond morass and mountain swells the star
  Of perfect lovethe home of longing heart and brain
  End