第 10 节
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辛苦 更新:2022-04-12 11:59 字数:9322
12。
Can anything go wrong with me? I ask
And the same moment; at a sudden pain;
Stand trembling。 Up from the great river's brim
Comes a cold breath; the farther bank is dim;
The heaven is black with clouds and coming rain;
High soaring faith is grown a heavy task;
And all is wrong with weary heart and brain。
13。
〃Things do go wrong。 I know grief; pain; and fear。
I see them lord it sore and wide around。〃
》From her fair twilight answers Truth; star…crowned;
〃Things wrong are needful where wrong things abound。
Things go not wrong; but Pain; with dog and spear;
False faith from human hearts will hunt and hound。
The earth shall quake 'neath them that trust the solid ground。〃
14。
Things go not wrong when sudden I fall prone;
But when I snatch my upheld hand from thine;
And; proud or careless; think to walk alone。
Then things go wrong; when I; poor; silly sheep;
To shelves and pits from the good pasture creep;
Not when the shepherd leaves the ninety and nine;
And to the mountains goes; after the foolish one。
15。
Lo! now thy swift dogs; over stone and bush;
After me; straying sheep; loud barking; rush。
There's Fear; and Shame; and Empty…heart; and Lack;
And Lost…love; and a thousand at their back!
I see thee not; but know thou hound'st them on;
And I am lost indeedescape is none。
See! there they come; down streaming on my track!
16。
I rise and run; staggeringdouble and run。
But whither?whither?whither for escape?
The sea lies all about this long…necked cape
There come the dogs; straight for me every one
Me; live despair; live centre of alarms!
Ah! lo! 'twixt me and all his barking harms;
The shepherd; lo!I runfall folded in his arms。
17。
There let the dogs yelp; let them growl and leap;
It is no matterI will go to sleep。
Like a spent cloud pass pain and grief and fear;
Out from behind it unchanged love shines clear。
Oh; save me; Christ!I know not what I am;
I was thy stupid; self…willed; greedy lamb;
Would be thy honest and obedient sheep。
18。
Why is it that so often I return
》From social converse with a spirit worn;
A lack; a disappointmenteven a sting
Of shame; as for some low; unworthy thing?
Because I have not; careful; first of all;
Set my door open wide; back to the wall;
Ere I at others' doors did knock and call。
19。
Yet more and more of me thou dost demand;
My faith and hope in God alone shall stand;
The life of lawnot trust the rain and sun
To draw the golden harvest o'er the land。
I must not say〃This too will pass and die;〃
〃The wind will change;〃 〃Round will the seasons run。〃
Law is the body of will; of conscious harmony。
20。
Who trusts a law; might worship a god of wood;
Half his soul slumbers; if it be not dead。
He is a live thing shut in chaos crude;
Hemmed in with dragonsa remorseless head
Still hanging over its uplifted eyes。
No; God is all in all; and nowhere dies
The present heart and thinking will of good。
21。
Law is our schoolmaster。 Our master; Christ;
Lived under all our laws; yet always prayed
So walked the water when the storm was highest。
Law is Thy father's; thou hast it obeyed;
And it thereby subject to thee hast made
To rule it; master; for thy brethren's sakes:
Well may he guide the law by whom law's maker makes。
22。
Death haunts our souls with dissolution's strife;
Soaks them with unrest; makes our every breath
A throe; not action; from God's purest gift
Wipes off the bloom; and on the harp of faith
Its fretted strings doth slacken still and shift:
Life everywhere; perfect; and always life;
Is sole redemption from this haunting death。
23。
God; thou from death dost lift me。 As I rise;
Its Lethe from my garment drips and flows。
Ere long I shall be safe in upper air;
With thee; my lifewith thee; my answered prayer
Where thou art God in every wind that blows;
And self alone; and ever; softly dies;
There shall my being blossom; and I know it fair。
24。
I would dig; Master; in no field but thine;
Would build my house only upon thy rock;
Yet am but a dull day; with a sea…sheen!
Why should I wonder then that they should mock;
Who; in the limbo of things heard and seen;
Hither and thither blowing; lose the shine
Of every light that hangs in the firmament divine。
25。
Lord; loosen in me the hold of visible things;
Help me to walk by faith and not by sight;
I would; through thickest veils and coverings;
See into the chambers of the living light。
Lord; in the land of things that swell and seem;
Help me to walk by the other light supreme;
Which shows thy facts behind man's vaguely hinting dream。
26。
I see a little child whose eager hands
Search the thick stream that drains the crowded street
For possible things hid in its current slow。
Near by; behind him; a great palace stands;
Where kings might welcome nobles to their feet。
Soft sounds; sweet scents; fair sights there only go
There the child's father lives; but the child does not know。
27。
On; eager; hungry; busy…seeking child;
Rise up; turn round; run in; run up the stair。
Far in a chamber from rude noise exiled;
Thy father sits; pondering how thou dost fare。
The mighty man will clasp thee to his breast:
Will kiss thee; stroke the tangles of thy hair;
And lap thee warm in fold on fold of lovely rest。
28。
The prince of this world came; and nothing found
In thee; O master; but; ah; woe is me!
He cannot pass me; on other business bound;
But; spying in me things familiar; he
Casts over me the shadow of his flight;
And straight I moan in darknessand the fight
Begins afresh betwixt the world and thee。
29。
In my own heart; O master; in my thought;
Betwixt the woolly sheep and hairy goat
Not clearly I distinguish; but I think
Thou knowest that I fight upon thy side。
The how I am ashamed of; for I shrink
》From many a blowam borne on the battle…tide;
When I should rush to the front; and take thy foe by the throat。
30。
The enemy still hath many things in me;
Yea; many an evil nest with open hole
Gapes out to him; at which he enters free。
But; like the impact of a burning coal;
His presence mere straight rouses the garrison;
And all are up in arms; and down on knee;
Fighting and praying till the foe is gone。
OCTOBER。
1。
REMEMBER; Lord; thou hast not made me good。
Or if thou didst; it was so long ago
I have forgottenand never understood;
I humbly think。 At best it was a crude;
A rough…hewn goodness; that did need this woe;
This sin; these harms of all kinds fierce and rude;
To shape it out; making it live and grow。
2。
But thou art making me; I thank thee; sire。
What thou hast done and doest thou know'st well;
And I will help thee:gently in thy fire
I will lie burning; on thy potter's…wheel
I will whirl patient; though my brain should reel;
Thy grace shall be enough the grief to quell;
And growing strength perfect through weakness dire。
3。
I have not knowledge; wisdom; insight; thought;
Nor understanding; fit to justify
Thee in thy work; O Perfect。 Thou hast brought
Me up to thisand; lo! what thou hast wrought;
I cannot call it good。 But I can cry
〃O enemy; the maker hath not done;
One day thou shalt behold; and from the sight wilt run。〃
4。
The faith I will; aside is easily bent;
But of thy love; my God; one glimpse alone
Can make me absolutely confident
With faith; hope; joy; in love responsive blent。
My soul then; in the vision mighty grown;
Its father and its fate securely known;
Falls on thy bosom with exultant moan。
5。
Thou workest perfectly。 And if it seem
Some things are not so well; 'tis but because
They are too loving…deep; too lofty…wise;
For me; poor child; to understand their laws:
My highest wisdom half is but a dream;
My love runs helpless like a falling stream:
Thy good embraces ill; and lo! its illness dies!
6。
》From sleep I wake; and wake to think of thee。
But wherefore not with sudden glorious glee?
Why burst not gracious on me heaven and earth
In all the splendour of a new…day…birth?
Why hangs a cloud betwixt my lord and me?
The moment that my eyes the morning greet;
My soul should panting rush to clasp thy father…feet。
7。
Is it because it is not thou I see;
But only my poor; blotted fancy of thee?
Oh! never till thyself reveal thy face;
Shall I be flooded with life's vital grace。
Oh make my mirror…heart thy shining…place;
And then my soul; awaking with the morn;
Shall be a waking joy; eternally new…born。
8。
Lord; in my silver is much metal base;
Else should my being by this time have shown
Thee thy own self therein。 Therefore do I
Wake in the furnace。 I know thou sittest by;
Refininglook; keep looking in to try
Thy silver; master; look and see thy face;
Else here I lie for ever; blank as any stone。
9。
But when in the dim silver thou dost look;
I do behold thy face; though blurred and faint。
Oh joy! no flaw in me thy grace will brook;
But still refine: slow shall the silver pass
》From bright to brighter; till; sans spot or taint;
Love; well content; shall see no speck of brass;
And I his perfect face shall hold as in a glass。
10。
With every morn my life afresh must break
The crust of self; gathered about me fresh;
That thy win