第 7 节
作者:辛苦      更新:2022-04-12 11:59      字数:9322
  Of love misprizedof sick abandoning;
  To some a frozen heart; oh; worse than anything!
  18。
  To some a mocking demon; that doth set
  The poor foiled will to scoff at the ideal;
  But loathsome makes to them their life of jar。
  The messengers of Satan think to mar;
  But makedriving the soul from false to feal
  To thee; the reconciler; the one real;
  In whom alone the would be and the is are met。
  19。
  Me thou hast given an infinite unrest;
  A hungernot at first after known good;
  But something vague I knew not; and yet would
  The veiled Isis; thy will not understood;
  A conscience tossing ever in my breast;
  And something deeper; that will not be expressed;
  Save as the Spirit thinking in the Spirit's brood。
  20。
  But now the Spirit and I are one in this
  My hunger now is after righteousness;
  My spirit hopes in God to set me free
  》From the low self loathed of the higher me。
  Great elder brother of my second birth;
  Dear o'er all names but one; in heaven or earth;
  Teach me all day to love eternally。
  21。
  Lo; Lord; thou know'st; I would not anything
  That in the heart of God holds not its root;
  Nor falsely deem there is any life at all
  That doth in him nor sleep nor shine nor sing;
  I know the plants that bear the noisome fruit
  Of burning and of ashes and of gall
  》From God's heart torn; rootless to man's they cling。
  22。
  Life…giving love rots to devouring fire;
  Justice corrupts to despicable revenge;
  Motherhood chokes in the dam's jealous mire;
  Hunger for growth turns fluctuating change;
  Love's anger grand grows spiteful human wrath;
  Hunting men out of conscience' holy path;
  And human kindness takes the tattler's range。
  23。
  Nothing can draw the heart of man but good;
  Low good it is that draws him from the higher
  So evilpoison uncreate from food。
  Never a foul thing; with temptation dire;
  Tempts hellward force created to aspire;
  But walks in wronged strength of imprisoned Truth;
  Whose mantle also oft the Shame indu'th。
  24。
  Love in the prime not yet I understand
  Scarce know the love that loveth at first hand:
  Help me my selfishness to scatter and scout;
  Blow on me till my love loves burningly;
  Then the great love will burn the mean self out;
  And I; in glorious simplicity;
  Living by love; shall love unspeakably。
  25。
  Oh; make my anger purelet no worst wrong
  Rouse in me the old niggard selfishness。
  Give me thine indignationwhich is love
  Turned on the evil that would part love's throng;
  Thy anger scathes because it needs must bless;
  Gathering into union calm and strong
  All things on earth; and under; and above。
  26。
  Make my forgiveness downrightsuch as I
  Should perish if I did not have from thee;
  I let the wrong go; withered up and dry;
  Cursed with divine forgetfulness in me。
  'Tis but self…pity; pleasant; mean; and sly;
  Low whispering bids the paltry memory live:
  What am I brother for; but to forgive!
  27。
  〃Thou art my father's childcome to my heart:〃
  Thus must I say; or Thou must say; 〃Depart;〃
  Thus I would sayI would be as thou art;
  Thus I must say; or still I work athwart
  The absolute necessity and law
  That dwells in me; and will me asunder draw;
  If in obedience I leave any flaw。
  28。
  Lord; I forgiveand step in unto thee。
  If I have enemies; Christ deal with them:
  He hath forgiven me and Jerusalem。
  Lord; set me from self…inspiration free;
  And let me live and think from thee; not me
  Rather; from deepest me then think and feel;
  At centre of thought's swift…revolving wheel。
  29。
  I sit o'ercanopied with Beauty's tent;
  Through which flies many a golden…winged dove;
  Well watched of Fancy's tender eyes up bent;
  A hundred Powers wait on me; ministering;
  A thousand treasures Art and Knowledge bring;
  Will; Conscience; Reason tower the rest above;
  But in the midst; alone; I gladness am and love。
  30。
  'Tis but a vision; Lord; I do not mean
  That thus I am; or have one moment been
  'Tis but a picture hung upon my wall;
  To measure dull contentment therewithal;
  And know behind the human how I fall;
  A vision true; of what one day shall be;
  When thou hast had thy very will with me。
  JULY。
  1。
  ALAS; my tent! see through it a whirlwind sweep!
  Moaning; poor Fancy's doves are swept away。
  I sit alone; a sorrow half asleep;
  My consciousness the blackness all astir。
  No pilgrim I; a homeless wanderer
  For how canst Thou be in the darkness deep;
  Who dwellest only in the living day?
  2。
  It must be; somewhere in my fluttering tent;
  Strange creatures; half tamed only yet; are pent
  Dragons; lop…winged birds; and large…eyed snakes!
  Hark! through the storm the saddest howling breaks!
  Or are they loose; roaming about the bent;
  The darkness dire deepening with moan and scream?
  My Morning; rise; and all shall be a dream。
  3。
  Not thine; my Lord; the darkness all is mine
  Save that; as mine; my darkness too is thine:
  All things are thine to save or to destroy
  Destroy my darkness; rise my perfect joy;
  Love primal; the live coal of every night;
  Flame out; scare the ill things with radiant fright;
  And fill my tent with laughing morn's delight。
  4。
  Master; thou workest with such common things
  Low souls; weak hearts; I meanand hast to use;
  Therefore; such common means and rescuings;
  That hard we find it; as we sit and muse;
  To think thou workest in us verily:
  Bad sea…boats we; and manned with wretched crews
  That doubt the captain; watch the storm…spray flee。
  5。
  Thou art hampered in thy natural working then
  When beings designed on freedom's holy plan
  Will not be free: with thy poor; foolish men;
  Thou therefore hast to work just like a man。
  But when; tangling thyself in their sore need;
  Thou hast to freedom fashioned them indeed;
  Then wilt thou grandly move; and Godlike speed。
  6。
  Will this not then show grandest fact of all
  In thy creation victory most renowned
  That thou hast wrought thy will by slow and small;
  And made men like thee; though thy making bound
  By that which they were not; and could not be
  Until thou mad'st them make along with thee?
  Master; the tardiness is but in me。
  7。
  Hence come thy checksbecause I still would run
  My head into the sand; nor flutter aloft
  Towards thy home; with thy wind under me。
  'Tis because I am mean; thy ways so oft
  Look mean to me; my rise is low begun;
  But scarce thy will doth grasp me; ere I see;
  For my arrest and rise; its stern necessity。
  8。
  Like clogs upon the pinions of thy plan
  We hanglike captives on thy chariot…wheels;
  Who should climb up and ride with Death's conqueror;
  Therefore thy train along the world's highway steals
  So slow to the peace of heart…reluctant man。
  What shall we do to spread the wing and soar;
  Nor straiten thy deliverance any more?
  9。
  The sole way to put flight into the wing;
  To preen its feathers; and to make them grow;
  Is to heed humbly every smallest thing
  With which the Christ in us has aught to do。
  So will the Christ from child to manhood go;
  Obedient to the father Christ; and so
  Sweet holy change will turn all our old things to new。
  10。
  Creation thou dost work by faint degrees;
  By shade and shadow from unseen beginning;
  Far; far apart; in unthought mysteries
  Of thy own dark; unfathomable seas;
  Thou will'st thy will; and thence; upon the earth
  Slow travelling; his way through centuries winning
  A child at length arrives at never ending birth。
  11。
  Well mayst thou then work on indocile hearts
  By small successes; disappointments small;
  By nature; weather; failure; or sore fall;
  By shame; anxiety; bitterness; and smarts;
  By loneliness; by weary loss of zest:
  The rags; the husks; the swine; the hunger…quest;
  Drive home the wanderer to the father's breast。
  12。
  How suddenly some rapid turn of thought
  May throw the life…machine all out of gear;
  Clouding the windows with the steam of doubt;
  Filling the eyes with dust; with noise the ear!
  Who knows not then where dwells the engineer;
  Rushes aghast into the pathless night;
  And wanders in a land of dreary fright。
  13。
  Amazed at sightless whirring of their wheels;
  Confounded with the recklessness and strife;
  Distract with fears of what may next ensue;
  Some break rude exit from the house of life;
  And plunge into a silence out of view
  Whence not a cry; no wafture once reveals
  What door they have broke open with the knife。
  14。
  Help me; my Father; in whatever dismay;
  Whatever terror in whatever shape;
  To hold the faster by thy garment's hem;
  When my heart sinks; oh; lift it up; I pray;
  Thy child should never fear though hell should gape;
  Not blench though all the ills that men affray
  Stood round him like the Roman round Jerusalem。
  15。
  Too eager I must not be to understand。
  How should the work the master goes about
  Fit the vague sketch my compasses have planned?
  I am his housefor him to go in and out。
  He builds me nowand if I cannot see
  At any time what he is doing with me;
  'Tis that he makes the house for me too grand。
  16。
  The house is not for meit is for him。
  His royal thoughts require many a stair;
  Many a tower; many an outlook fair;
  Of which I have no thought; and need no care。
  Where I am most perplexed; it may be there
  Thou mak'st a secret chamber; holy…dim;
  Where thou wi