第 39 节
作者:笑傲网络      更新:2021-12-13 08:43      字数:9322
  of thunder or in an awful whisper。  But to…day the preacher;
  without raising his voice; began to force into his hearers' hearts
  the message of the day。
  〃This is a day for self…examination;〃 he said; and his clear; quiet
  tones fell into the ears of the people with penetrating power。
  〃And self…examination is a wise and profitable exercise。  It is an
  exercise of the soul designed to yield a discovery of sin in the
  heart and life; and to induce penitence and contrition and so
  secure pardon and peace。  But too often; my friends;〃 and here his
  voice became a shade softer; 〃it results in a self…righteous and
  sinful self…complaisance。  What is required is a simple honesty of
  mind and spiritual illumination; and the latter cannot be without
  the former。  There are those who are ever searching for 'the marks'
  of a genuinely godly state of heart; and they have the idea that
  these marks are obscure and difficult for plain people to discover。
  Make no mistake; my brethren; they are as easily seen as are the
  apples on a tree。  The fruits of the spirit are as discernible to
  any one honest enough and fearless enough to look; and the first
  and supreme of all is that which we have been considering this
  morning。  The question for you and for me; my brethren; is simply
  this:  Are our lives full of the grace of love?  Do not shrink from
  the question。  Do not deceive yourselves with any substitutes;
  there are many offering zeal; the gift of prayer or of speech; yea;
  the gift of faith itself。  None of these will atone for the lack of
  love。  Let each ask himself; Am I a loving man?〃
  With quiet persistence he pursued them into all their relations in
  lifehusbands and wives; fathers and sons; neighbor and neighbor。
  He would not let them escape。  Relentlessly he forced them to
  review their habits of speech and action; their attitude toward
  each other as church members; and their attitude toward 〃those
  without。〃  Behind all refuges and through all subterfuges he made
  his message follow them; searching their deepest hearts。  And then;
  with his face illumined as with divine fire; he made his final
  appeal; while he reminded them of the Infinite love that had
  stooped to save; and that had wrought itself out in the agonies of
  the cross。  And while he spoke his last words; all over the church
  the women were weeping; and strong men were sitting trembling and
  pale。
  After a short prayer; the professor sat down。  Then the minister
  rose; and for some little time stood facing his people in silence;
  the gleam in his eyes showing that his fervent Highland nature was
  on fire。
  〃My people;〃 he began; and his magnificent voice pealed forth like
  a solemn bell; 〃this is the message of the Lord。  Let none dare
  refuse to hear。  It is a message to your minister; it is a message
  to you。  You are anxious for 'the marks。'  Search you for this
  mark。〃  He paused while the people sat looking at him in fixed and
  breathless silence。  Then; suddenly; he broke forth into a loud
  cry:  〃Where are your children at this solemn time of privilege?
  Fathers; where are your sons?  Why were they not with you at the
  Table?  Are you men of love?  Are you men of love; or by lack of
  love are you shutting the door of the Kingdom against your sons
  with their fightings and their quarrelings?〃  Then; raising his
  hands high; he lifted his voice in a kind of wailing chant:  〃Woe
  unto you!  Woe unto you!  Your house is left unto you desolate; and
  the voice of love is crying over you。  Ye would not!  Ye would not!
  O; Lamb of God; have mercy upon us!  O; Christ; with the pierced
  hands; save us!〃  Again he paused; looking upward; while the people
  waited with uplifted white faces。
  〃Behold;〃 he cried; in a soul…thrilling voice; 〃I see heaven open;
  and Jesus standing at the right hand of God; and I hear a voice;
  'Turn ye; turn ye。  Why will ye die?'  Lord Jesus; they will not
  turn。〃  Again he paused。  〃Listen。  Depart from me; ye cursed; into
  everlasting fire。  Depart ye!  Nay; Lord Jesus! not so!  Have mercy
  upon us!〃  His voice broke in its passionate cry。  The effect was
  overwhelming。  The people swayed as trees before a mighty wind; and
  a voice cried aloud from the congregation:  〃God be merciful to me;
  a sinner!〃
  It was Macdonald Dubh。  At that loud cry; women began to sob; and
  some of the people rose from their seats。
  〃Be still;〃 commanded the minister。  〃Rend your hearts and not your
  garments。  Let us pray。〃  And as he prayed; the cries and sobs
  subsided and a great calm fell upon all。  After prayer; the
  minister; instead of giving out a closing psalm; solemnly charged
  the people to go to their homes and to consider that the Lord had
  come very near them; and adjured them not to grieve the Holy Spirit
  of God。  Then he dismissed them with the benediction。
  The people went out of the church; subdued and astonished;
  speaking; if at all; in low tones of what they had seen and heard。
  Immediately after pronouncing the benediction; the minister came
  down to find Macdonald Dubh; but he was nowhere to be seen。  Toward
  evening Mrs。 Murray rode over to his house; but found that he had
  not returned from the morning service。
  〃He will be at his brother's;〃 said Kirsty; 〃and Ranald will drive
  over for him。〃
  Immediately Ranald hitched up Lisette and drove over to his
  uncle's; but as he was returning he sent in word to the manse; his
  face being not yet presentable; that his father was nowhere to be
  found。  It was Macdonald Bhain that found him at last in the woods;
  prone upon his face; and in an agony。
  〃Hugh; man;〃 he cried; 〃what ails you?〃  But there were only low
  groans for answer。
  〃Rise up; man; rise up and come away。〃
  Then from the prostrate figure he caught the words; 〃Depart from
  me!  Depart from me!  That is the word of the Lord。〃
  〃That is not the word;〃 said Macdonald Bhain; 〃for any living man;
  but for the dead。  But come; rise; man; the neighbors will be here
  in a meenute。〃  At that Black Hugh rose。
  〃Let me away;〃 he said。  〃Let me not see them。  I am a lost man。〃
  And so his brother brought him home; shaken in spirit and exhausted
  in body with his long fast and his overpowering emotion。  All night
  through his brother watched with him alone; for Macdonald Dubh
  would have no one else to see him; till; from utter exhaustion;
  toward the dawning of the day; he fell asleep。
  In the early morning the minister and his wife drove over to see
  him; and leaving his wife with Kirsty; the minister passed at once
  into Macdonald Dubh's room。  But; in spite of all his reasoning; in
  spite of all his readings and his prayers; the gloom remained
  unbroken except by occasional paroxysms of fear and remorse。
  〃There is no forgiveness!  There is no forgiveness!〃 was the burden
  of his cry。
  In vain the minister proclaimed to him the mercy of God。  At length
  he was forced to leave him to attend the 〃Question Meeting〃 which
  was to be held in the church that day。  But he left his wife behind
  him。
  Without a word; Mrs。 Murray proceeded to make the poor man
  comfortable。  She prepared a dainty breakfast and carried it in to
  him; and then she sat beside him while he fell into a deep sleep。
  It was afternoon when Macdonald Dubh awoke and greeted her with his
  wonted grave courtesy。
  〃You are better; Mr。 Macdonald;〃 she said; brightly。  〃And now I
  will make you a fresh cup of tea〃; and though he protested; she
  hurried out; and in a few moments brought him some tea and toast。
  Then; while he lay in gloomy silence; she read to him; as she did
  once before from his Gaelic psalm book; without a word of comment。
  And then she began to tell him of all the hopes she had cherished
  in connection with the opening of the new church; and how that day
  she had felt at last the blessing had come。
  〃And; O; Mr。 Macdonald;〃 she said; 〃I was glad to hear you cry; for
  then I knew that the Spirit of God was among us。〃
  〃Glad!〃 said Macdonald Dubh; faintly。
  〃Yes; glad。  For a cry like that never comes but when the Spirit of
  God moves in the heart of a man。〃
  〃Indeed; I will be thinking that He has cast me off forever;〃 he
  said; wondering at this new phase of the subject。
  〃Then you must thank Him; Mr。 Macdonald; that He has not so done;
  and the sure proof to you is that He has brought you to cry for
  mercy。  That is a glad cry; in the ears of the Saviour。  It is the
  cry of the sheep in the wilderness; that discovers him to the
  shepherd。〃  And then; without argument; she took him into her
  confidence and poured out to him all her hopes and fears for the
  young people of the congregation; and especially for Ranald; till
  Macdonald Dubh partly forgot his own fears in hers。  And then; just
  before it was time for Kirsty to arrive from the 〃Question Meeting;〃
  she took her Gaelic Bible and opened at the Lord's Prayer; as she
  had done once before。
  〃It is a terrible thing to be unforgiven; Mr。 Macdonald;〃 she said;
  〃by man or by God。  And God is unwilling that any of us should feel
  that pain; and that is why he is so free with his offer of pardon
  to all who come with sorrow to him。  They come with sorrow to him
  now; but they will come to him some day with great joy。〃  And then
  she spoke a little of the g