第 8 节
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京文 更新:2021-12-07 09:25 字数:9322
Those twilight eyes? Those eyes!… my spirit fails…
Dear goddess; help! or the wide…gaping air
Will gulph me… help!〃… At this with madden'd stare;
And lifted hands; and trembling lips he stood;
Like old Deucalion mountain'd o'er the flood;
Or blind Orion hungry for the morn。
And; but from the deep cavern there was borne
A voice; he had been froze to senseless stone;
Nor sigh of his; nor plaint; nor passion'd moan
Had more been heard。 Thus swell'd it forth: 〃Descend;
Young mountaineer! descend where alleys bend
Into the sparry hollows of the world!
Oft hast thou seen bolts of the thunder hurl'd
As from thy threshold; day by day hast been
A little lower than the chilly sheen
Of icy pinnacles; and dipp'dst thine arms
Into the deadening ether that still charms
Their marble being: now; as deep profound
As those are high; descend! He ne'er is crown'd
With immortality; who fears to follow
Where airy voices lead: so through the hollow;
The silent mysteries of earth; descend!〃
He heard but the last words; nor could contend
One moment in reflection: for he fled
Into the fearful deep; to hide his head
From the clear moon; the trees; and coming madness。
'Twas far too strange; and wonderful for sadness;
Sharpening; by degrees; his appetite
To dive into the deepest。 Dark; nor light;
The region; nor bright; nor sombre wholly;
But mingled up; a gleaming melancholy;
A dusky empire and its diadems;
One faint eternal eventide of gems。
Aye; millions sparkled on a vein of gold;
Along whose track the prince quick footsteps told;
With all its lines abrupt and angular:
Out…shooting sometimes; like a meteor…star;
Through a vast antre; then the metal woof;
Like Vulcan's rainbow; with some monstrous roof
Curves hugely: now; far in the deep abyss;
It seems an angry lightning; and doth hiss
Fancy into belief: anon it leads
Through winding passages; where sameness breeds
Vexing conceptions of some sudden change;
Whether to silver grots; or giant range
Of sapphire columns; or fantastic bridge
Athwart a flood of crystal。 On a ridge
Now fareth he; that o'er the vast beneath
Towers like an ocean…cliff; and whence he seeth
A hundred waterfalls; whose voices come
But as the murmuring surge。 Chilly and numb
His bosom grew; when first he; far away
Descried an orbed diamond; set to fray
Old darkness from his throne: 'twas like the sun
Uprisen o'er chaos: and with such a stun
Came the amazement; that; absorb'd in it;
He saw not fiercer wonders… past the wit
Of any spirit to tell; but one of those
Who; when this planet's sphering time doth close;
Will be its high remembrancers: who they?
The mighty ones who have made eternal day
For Greece and England。 While astonishment
With deep…drawn sighs was quieting; he went
Into a marble gallery; passing through
A mimic temple; so complete and true
In sacred custom; that he well nigh fear'd
To search it inwards; whence far off appear'd;
Through a long pillar'd vista; a fair shrine;
And just beyond; on light tiptoe divine;
A quiver'd Dian。 Stepping awfully;
The youth approach'd; oft turning his veil'd eye
Down sidelong aisles; and into niches old。
And when; more near against the marble cold
He had touch'd his forehead; he began to thread
All courts and passages; where silence dead
Rous'd by his whispering footsteps murmured faint:
And long he travers'd to and fro; to acquaint
Himself with every mystery; and awe;
Till; weary; he sat down before the maw
Of a wide outlet; fathomless and dim;
To wild uncertainty and shadows grim。
There; when new wonders ceas'd to float before;
And thoughts of self came on; how crude and sore
The journey homeward to habitual self
A mad…pursuing of the fog…born elf;
Whose flitting lantern; through rude nettle…briar;
Cheats us into a swamp; into a fire;
Into the bosom of a hated thing。
What misery most drowningly doth sing
In lone Endymion's ear; now he has raught
The goal of consciousness? Ah; 'tis the thought;
The deadly feel of solitude: for lo!
He cannot see the heavens; nor the flow
Of rivers; nor hill…flowers running wild
In pink and purple chequer; nor; up…pil'd;
The cloudy rack slow journeying in the west;
Like herded elephants; nor felt; nor prest
Cool grass; nor tasted the fresh slumberous air;
But far from such companionship to wear
An unknown time; surcharg'd with grief; away;
Was now his lot。 And must he patient stay;
Tracing fantastic figures with his spear?
〃No!〃 exclaim'd he; 〃why should I tarry here?〃
No! loudly echoed times innumerable。
At which he straightway started; and 'gan tell
His paces back into the temple's chief;
Warming and glowing strong in the belief
Of help from Dian: so that when again
He caught her airy form; thus did he plain;
Moving more near the while: 〃O Haunter chaste
Of river sides; and woods; and heathy waste;
Where with thy silver bow and arrows keen
Art thou now forested? O woodland Queen;
What smoothest air thy smoother forehead woos?
Where dost thou listen to the wide halloos
Of thy disparted nymphs? Through what dark tree
Glimmers thy crescent? Wheresoe'er it be;
'Tis in the breath of heaven: thou dost taste
Freedom as none can taste it; nor dost waste
Thy loveliness in dismal elements;
But; finding in our green earth sweet contents;
There livest blissfully。 Ah; if to thee
It feels Elysian; how rich to me;
An exil'd mortal; sounds its pleasant name!
Within my breast there lives a choking flame…
O let me cool't the zephyr…boughs among!
A homeward fever parches up my tongue…
O let me slake it at the running springs!
Upon my ear a noisy nothing rings…
O let me once more hear the linnet's note!
Before mine eyes thick films and shadows float…
O let me 'noint them with the heaven's light!
Dost thou now lave thy feet and ankles white?
O think how sweet to me the freshening sluice!
Dost thou now please thy thirst with berry…juice?
O think how this dry palate would rejoice!
If in soft slumber thou dost hear my voice;
O think how I should love a bed of flowers!…
Young goddess! let me see my native bowers!
Deliver me from this rapacious deep!〃
Thus ending loudly; as he would o'erleap
His destiny; alert he stood: but when
Obstinate silence came heavily again;
Feeling about for its old couch of space
And airy cradle; lowly bow'd his face
Desponding; o'er the marble floor's cold thrill。
But 'twas not long; for; sweeter than the rill
To its old channel; or a swollen tide
To margin sallows; were the leaves he spied;
And flowers; and wreaths; and ready myrtle crowns
Up heaping through the slab: refreshment drowns
Itself; and strives its own delights to hide…
Nor in one spot alone; the floral pride
In a long whispering birth enchanted grew
Before his footsteps; as when heav'd anew
Old ocean rolls a lengthened wave to the shore;
Down whose green back the short…liv'd foam; all hoar;
Bursts gradual; with a wayward indolence。
Increasing still in heart; and pleasant sense;
Upon his fairy journey on he hastes;
So anxious for the end; he scarcely wastes
One moment with his hand among the sweets:
Onward he goes… he stops… his bosom beats
As plainly in his ear; as the faint charm
Of which the throbs were born。 This still alarm;
This sleepy music; forc'd him walk tiptoe:
For it came more softly than the east could blow
Arion's magic to the Atlantic isles;
Or than the west; made jealous by the smiles
Of thron'd Apollo; could breathe back the lyre
To seas Ionian and Tyrian。
O did he ever live; that lonely man;
Who lov'd… and music slew not? 'Tis the pest
Of love; that fairest joys give most unrest;
That things of delicate and tenderest worth
Are s