第 48 节
作者:管他三七二十一      更新:2021-12-07 09:25      字数:9322
  water; and that arrested his dive; and brought him up with a slant;
  shocked and panting; drenched and confused。  The next moment he
  saw; as through a foghis eyes being full of watersomething fall
  from the ship。  He breasted the big waves; and swam towards it: it
  rose on the top of a wave; and he saw it was a life…buoy。
  Encumbered with wet clothes; he seemed impotent in the big waves;
  they threw him up so high; and down so low。
  Almost exhausted; he got to the life…buoy; and clutched it with a
  fierce grasp and a wild cry of delight。  He got it over his head;
  and; placing his arms round the buoyant circle; stood with his
  breast and head out of water; gasping。
  He now drew a long breath; and got his wet hair out of his eyes;
  already smarting with salt water; and; raising himself on the buoy;
  looked out for help。
  He saw; to his great concern; the ship already at a distance。  She
  seemed to have flown; and she was still drifting fast away from
  him。
  He saw no signs of help。  His heart began to turn as cold as his
  drenched body。  A horrible fear crossed him。
  But presently he saw the weather…boat filled; and fall into the
  water; and then a wave rolled between him and the ship; and he only
  saw her topmast。
  The next time he rose on a mighty wave he saw the boats together
  astern of the vessel; but not coming his way; and the gloom was
  thickening; the ship becoming indistinct; and all was doubt and
  horror。
  A life of agony passed in a few minutes。
  He rose and fell like a cork on the buoyant wavesrose and fell;
  and saw nothing but the ship's lights; now terribly distant。
  But at last; as he rose and fell; he caught a few fitful glimpses
  of a smaller light rising and falling like himself。  〃A boat!〃 he
  cried; and raising himself as high as he could; shouted; cried;
  implored for help。  He stretched his hands across the water。  〃This
  way! this way!〃
  The light kept moving; but it came no nearer。  They had greatly
  underrated the drift。  The other boat had no light。
  Minutes passed of suspense; hope; doubt; dismay; terror。  Those
  minutes seemed hours。
  In the agony of suspense the quaking heart sent beads of sweat to
  the brow; though the body was immersed。
  And the gloom deepened; and the cold waves flung him up to heaven
  with their giant arms; and then down again to hell: and still that
  light; his only hope; was several hundred yards from him。
  Only for a moment at a time could his eyeballs; straining with
  agony; catch this will…o'…the…wisp; the boat's light。  It groped
  the sea up and down; but came no near。
  When what seemed days of agony had passed; suddenly a rocket rose
  in the horizonso it seemed to him。
  The lost man gave a shriek of joy; so prone are we to interpret
  things hopefully。
  Misery!  The next time he saw that little light; that solitary
  spark of hope; it was not quite so near as before。  A mortal
  sickness fell on his heart。  The ship had recalled the boats by
  rocket。
  He shrieked; he cried; he screamed; he raved。  〃Oh; Rosa! Rosa! for
  her sake; men; men; do not leave me。  I am here! here!〃
  In vain。  The miserable man saw the boat's little light retire;
  recede; and melt into the ship's larger light; and that light
  glided away。
  Then; a cold; deadly stupor fell on him。  Then; death's icy claw
  seized his heart; and seemed to run from it to every part of him。
  He was a dead man。  Only a question of time。  Nothing to gain by
  floating。
  But the despairing mind could not quit the world in peace; and even
  here in the cold; cruel sea; the quivering body clung to this
  fragment of life; and winced at death's touch; though more
  merciful。
  He despised this weakness; he raged at it; he could not overcome
  it。
  Unable to live or to die; condemned to float slowly; hour by hour;
  down into death's jaws。
  To a long; death…like stupor succeeded frenzy。  Fury seized this
  great and long…suffering mind。  It rose against the cruelty and
  injustice of his fate。  He cursed the world; whose stupidity had
  driven him to sea; he cursed remorseless nature; and at last he
  railed on the God who made him; and made the cruel water; that was
  waiting for his body。  〃God's justice!  God's mercy!  God's power!
  they are all lies;〃 he shouted; 〃dreams; chimeras; like Him the
  all…powerful and good; men babble of by the fire。  If there was a
  God more powerful than the sea; and only half as good as men are;
  he would pity my poor Rosa and me; and send a hurricane to drive
  those caitiffs back to the wretch they have abandoned。  Nature
  alone is mighty。  Oh; if I could have her on my side; and only God
  against me!  But she is as deaf to prayer as He is: as mechanical
  and remorseless。  I am a bubble melting into the sea。  Soul I have
  none; my body will soon be nothing; nothing。  So ends an honest;
  loving life。  I always tried to love my fellow…creatures。  Curse
  them! curse them!  Curse the earth!  Curse the sea!  Curse all
  nature: there is no other God for me to curse。〃
  The moon came out。
  He raised his head and staring eyeballs; and cursed her。
  The wind began to whistle; and flung spray in his face。
  He raised his fallen head and staring eyeballs; and cursed the
  wind。
  While he was thus raving; he became sensible of a black object to
  windward。
  It looked like a rail; and a man leaning on it。
  He stared; he cleared the wet hair from his eyes; and stared again。
  The thing; being larger than himself and partly out of water; was
  drifting to leeward faster than himself。
  He stared and trembled; and at last it came nearly abreast; black;
  black。
  He gave a loud cry; and tried to swim towards it; but encumbered
  with his life…buoy; he made little progress。  The thing drifted
  abreast of him; but ten yards distant。
  As they each rose high upon the waves; he saw it plainly。
  It was the very raft that had been the innocent cause of his sad
  fate。
  He shouted with hope; he swam; he struggled; he got near it; but
  not to it; it drifted past; and he lost his chance of intercepting
  it。  He struggled after it。  The life…buoy would not let him catch
  it。
  Then he gave a cry of agony; rage; despair; and flung off the life…
  buoy; and risked all on this one chance。
  He gains a little on the raft。
  He loses。
  He gains: he cries; 〃Rosa!  Rosa!〃 and struggles with all his soul;
  as well as his body: he gains。
  But when almost within reach; a wave half drowns him; and he loses。
  He cries; 〃Rosa!  Rosa!〃 and swims high and strong。  〃Rosa!  Rosa!
  Rosa!〃
  He is near it。  He cries; 〃Rosa!  Rosa!〃 and with all the energy of
  love and life flings himself almost out of the water; and catches
  hold of the nearest thing on the raft。
  It was the dead man's leg。
  It seemed as if it would come away in his grasp。  He dared not try
  to pull himself up by that。  But he held on by it; panting;
  exhausting; faint。
  This faintness terrified him。  〃Oh;〃 thought he; 〃if I faint now;
  all is over。〃
  Holding by that terrible and strange support; he made a grasp; and
  caught hold of the woodwork at the bottom of the rail。  He tried to
  draw himself up。  Impossible。
  He was no better off than with his life…buoy。
  But in situations so dreadful; men think fast; he worked gradually
  round the bottom of the raft by his hands; till he got to leeward;
  still holding on。  There he found a solid block of wood at the edge
  of the raft。  He prised himself carefully up; the raft in that part
  then sank a little: he got his knee upon the timber of the raft;
  and with a wild cry seized the nearest upright; and threw both arms
  round it and clung tight。  Then first he found breath to speak。
  〃THANK GOD!〃 he cried; kneeling on the timber; and grasping the
  upright post〃OH; THANK GOD! THANK GOD!〃
  CHAPTER XVI。
  〃Thank God!〃 why; according to his theory; it should have been
  〃Thank Nature。〃  But I observe that; in such cases; even
  philosophers are ungrateful to the mistress they worship。
  Our philosopher not only thanked God; but being on his knees;
  prayed forgiveness for his late ravings; prayed hard; with one arm
  curled round the upright; lest the sea; which ever and anon rushed
  over the bottom of the raft; should swallow him up in a moment。
  Then he rose carefully; and wedged himself into the corner of the
  raft opposite to that other figure; ominous relic of the wild
  voyage the new…comer had entered upon; he put both arms over the
  rail; and stood erect。
  The moon was now up; but so was the breeze: fleecy clouds flew with
  vast rapidity across her bright face; and it was by fitful though
  vivid glances Staines examined the raft and his companion。
  The raft was large; and well made of timbers tied and nailed
  together; and a strong rail ran round it resting on several
  uprights。  There were also some blocks of a very light wood screwed
  to the horizontal timbers; and these made it float high。
  But what arrested and fascinated the man's gaze was his dead
  companion; sole survivor; doubtless; of a horrible voyage; since
  the raft was not made for one; nor by one。
  It was a skeleton; or nearly; whose clothes the seabirds had torn;
  and pecked every limb in all the fleshy parts; the rest of the body
  had dried to dark leather on the bones。  The head was l