第 45 节
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to be really broken down by bereavement; but he was strangely
subdued。 The loud tones were out of him; and the loud laugh; and
even the keen sneer。 Yet he was the same man; but with a gentler
surface; and this was not without its pathos。
〃Well; madam;〃 said he gravely and quietly。 〃It is as it always
has been。 'As is the race of leaves; so that of man。' When one
falls; another comes。 Here's a little Christopher come; in place
of him that is gone: a brave; beautiful boy; ma'am; the finest but
one I ever brought into the world。 He is come to take his father's
place in our heartsI see you valued his poor father; ma'ambut
he comes too late for me。 At your age; ma'am; friendships come
naturally; they spring like loves in the soft heart of youth: at
seventy; the gate is not so open; the soil is more sterile。 I
shall never care for another Christopher; never see another grow to
man's estate。〃
〃The mother; sir;〃 sobbed Lady Cicely; 〃the poor mother?〃
〃Like them allpoor creature: in heaven; madam; in heaven。 New
life! new existence! a new character。 All the pride; glory;
rapture; and amazement of maternitythanks to her ignorance; which
we must prolong; or I would not give one straw for her life; or her
son's。 I shall never leave the house till she does know it; and
come when it may; I dread the hour。 She is not framed by nature to
bear so deadly a shock。〃
〃Her father; sir。 Would he not be the best person to break it to
her? He was out to…day。〃
〃Her father; ma'am? I shall get no help from him。 He is one of
those soft; gentle creatures; that come into the world with what
your canting fools call a mission; and his mission is to take care
of number one。 Not dishonestly; mind you; nor violently; nor
rudely; but doucely and calmly。 The care a brute like me takes of
his vitals; that care Lusignan takes of his outer cuticle。 His
number one is a sensitive plant。 No scenes; no noise; nothing
painfulby…the…by; the little creature that writes in the papers;
and calls calamities PAINFUL; is of Lusignan's breed。 Out to…day!
of course he was out; ma'am: he knew from me his daughter would be
in peril all day; so he visited a friend。 He knew his own
tenderness; and evaded paternal sensibilities: a self…defender。 I
count on no help from that charming man。〃
〃A man! I call such creachaas weptiles!〃 said Lady Cicely; her
ghastly cheek coloring for a moment。
〃Then you give them a false importance。〃
In the course of this interview; Lady Cicely accused herself sadly
of having interfered between man and wife; and with the best
intentions brought about this cruel calamity。 〃Judge; then; sir;〃
said she; 〃how grateful I am to you for undertaking this cruel
task。 I was her schoolfellow; sir; and I love her dearly; but she
has turned against me; and now; oh; with what horror she will
regard me!〃
〃Madam;〃 said the doctor; 〃there is nothing more mean and unjust
than to judge others by events that none could foresee。 Your
conscience is clear。 You did your best for my poor nephew: but
Fate willed it otherwise。 As for my niece; she has many virtues;
but justice is one you must not look for in that quarter。 Justice
requires brains。 It's a virtue the heart does not deal in。 You
must be content with your own good conscience; and an old man's
esteem。 You did all for the best; and this very day you have done
a good; kind action。 God bless you for it!〃
Then he left her; and next day she went sadly home; and for many a
long day the hollow world saw nothing of Cicely Treherne。
When Mr。 Lusignan came home that night; Dr。 Philip told him the
miserable story; and his fears。 He received it; not as Philip had
expected。 The bachelor had counted without his dormant paternity。
He was terror…strickenabjectfell into a chair; and wrung his
hands; and wept piteously。 To keep it from his daughter till she
should be stronger; seemed to him chimerical; impossible。 However;
Philip insisted it must be done; and he must make some excuse for
keeping out of her way; or his manner would rouse her suspicions。
He consented readily to that; and indeed left all to Dr。 Philip。
Dr。 Philip trusted nobody; not even his own confidential servant。
He allowed no journal to come into the house without passing
through his hands; and he read them all before he would let any
other soul in the house see them。 He asked Rosa to let him be her
secretary and open her letters; giving as a pretext that it would
be as well she should have no small worries or trouble just now。
〃Why;〃 said she; 〃I was never so well able to bear them。 It must
be a great thing to put me out now。 I am so happy; and live in the
future。 Well; dear uncle; you can if you likewhat does it
matter?only there must be one exception: my own Christie's
letters; you know。〃
〃Of course;〃 said he; wincing inwardly。
The very next day came a letter of condolence from Miss Lucas。 Dr。
Philip intercepted it; and locked it up; to be shown her at a more
fitting time。
But how could he hope to keep so public a thing as this from
entering the house in one of a hundred newspapers?
He went into Gravesend; and searched all the newspapers; to see
what he had to contend with。 To his horror; he found it in several
dailies and weeklies; and in two illustrated papers。 He sat aghast
at the difficulty and the danger。
The best thing he could think of was to buy them all; and cut out
the account。 He did so; and brought all the papers; thus
mutilated; into the house; and sent them into the kitchen。 He said
to his old servant; 〃These may amuse Mr。 Lusignan's people; and I
have extracted all that interests me。〃
By these means he hoped that none of the servants would go and buy
more of these same papers elsewhere。
Notwithstanding these precautions; he took the nurse apart; and
said; 〃Now; you are an experienced woman; and to be trusted about
an excitable patient。 Mind; I object to any female servant
entering Mrs。 Staines's room with gossip。 Keep them outside the
door for the present; please。 Oh; and nurse; if anything should
happen; likely to grieve or to worry her; it must be kept from her
entirely: can I trust you?〃
〃You may; sir。〃
〃I shall add ten guineas to your fee; if she gets through the month
without a shock or disturbance of any kind。〃
She stared at him; inquiringly。 Then she said;
〃You may rely on me; doctor。〃
〃I feel I may。 Still; she alarms me。 She looks quiet enough; but
she is very excitable。〃
Not all these precautions gave Dr。 Philip any real sense of
security; still less did they to Mr。 Lusignan。 He was not a tender
father; in small things; but the idea of actual danger to his only
child was terrible to him and he now passed his life in a continual
tremble。
This is the less to be wondered at; when I tell you that even the
stout Philip began to lose his nerve; his appetite; his sleep;
under this hourly terror and this hourly torture。
Well did the great imagination of antiquity feign a torment; too
great for the mind long to endure; in the sword of Damocles
suspended by a single hair over his head。 Here the sword hung over
an innocent creature; who smiled beneath it; fearless; but these
two old men must sit and watch the sword; and ask themselves how
long before that subtle salvation shall snap。
〃Ill news travels fast;〃 says the proverb。 〃The birds of the air
shall carry the matter;〃 says Holy Writ; and it is so。 No bolts
nor bars; no promises nor precautions; can long shut out a great
calamity from the ears it is to blast; the heart it is to wither。
The very air seems full of it; until it falls。
Rosa's child was more than a fortnight old; and she was looking
more beautiful than ever; as is often the case with a very young
mother; and Dr。 Philip complimented her on her looks。 〃Now;〃 said
he; 〃you reap the advantage of being good; and obedient; and
keeping quiet。 In another ten days or so; I may take you to the
seaside for a week。 I have the honor to inform you that from about
the fourth to the tenth of March there is always a week of fine
weather; which takes everybody by surprise; except me。 It does not
astonish me; because I observe it is invariable。 Now; what would
you say if I gave you a week at Herne Bay; to set you up
altogether?〃
〃As you please; dear uncle;〃 said Mrs。 Staines; with a sweet smile。
〃I shall be very happy to go; or to stay。 I shall be happy
everywhere; with my darling boy; and the thought of my husband。
Why; I count the days till he shall come back to me。 No; to us; to
us; my pet。 How dare a naughty mammy say to 'me;' as if 'me' was
half the 'portance of oo; a precious pets!〃
Dr。 Philip was surprised into a sigh。
〃What is the matter; dear?〃 said Rosa; very quickly。
〃The matter?〃
〃Yes; dear; the matter。 You sighed; you; the laughing
philosopher。〃
〃Did I?〃 said he; to gain time。 〃Perhaps I remembered the
uncertainty of human life; and of all mortal hopes。 The old will
have their thoughts; my dear。 They have seen so much trouble。〃
〃But; uncle dear; he is a very healthy child。〃
〃Very。〃
〃And you told me yourself carelessness was the cause so many
children die。〃
〃Th