第 5 节
作者:管他三七二十一      更新:2021-12-07 09:25      字数:9322
  seemed such a coincidence that it should come just as she was
  sending for him。
  MY OWN BELOVED ROSA;I now write to tell you; with a heavy heart;
  that all is vain。  I cannot make; nor purchase; a connection;
  except as others do; by time and patience。  Being a bachelor is
  quite against a young physician。  If I had a wife; and such a wife
  as you; I should be sure to get on; you would increase my
  connection very soon。  What; then; lies before us?  I see but two
  thingsto wait till we are old; and our pockets are filled; but
  our hearts chilled or soured; or else to marry at once; and climb
  the hill together。  If you love me as I love you; you will be
  saving till the battle is over; and I feel I could find energy and
  fortitude for both。  Your father; who thinks so much of wealth; can
  surely settle something on YOU; and I am not too poor to furnish a
  house and start fair。  I am not quite obscuremy lectures have
  given me a nameand to you; my own love; I hope I may say that I
  know more than many of my elders; thanks to good schools; good
  method; a genuine love of my noble profession; and a tendency to
  study from my childhood。  Will you not risk something on my
  ability?  If not; God help me; for I shall lose you; and what is
  life; or fame; or wealth; or any mortal thing to me; without you?
  I cannot accept your father's decision; YOU must decide my fate。
  You see I have kept away from you until I can do so no more。  All
  this time the world to me has seemed to want the sun; and my heart
  pines and sickens for one sight of you。
  Darling Rosa; pray let me look at your face once more。
  When this reaches you I shall be at your gate。  Let me see you;
  though but for a moment; and let me hear my fate from no lips but
  yours。My own love; your heart…broken lover;
  CHRISTOPHER STAINES。
  This letter stunned her at first。  Her mind of late had been turned
  away from love to such stern realities。  Now she began to be sorry
  she had not told him。  〃Poor thing!〃 she said to herself; 〃he
  little knows that now all is changed。  Papa; I sometimes think;
  would deny me nothing now; it is I who would not marry himto be
  buried by him in a month or two。  Poor Christopher!〃
  The next moment she started up in dismay。  Why; her father would
  miss him。  No; perhaps catch him waiting for her。  What would he
  think?  What would Christopher think?that she had shown her papa
  his letter。
  She rang the bell hard。  The footman came。
  〃Send Harriet to me this instant。  Oh; and ask papa to come to me。〃
  Then she sat down and dashed off a line to Christopher。  This was
  for Harriet to take out to him。  Anything better than for
  Christopher to be caught doing what was wrong。
  The footman came back first。  〃If you please; miss; master has gone
  out。〃
  〃Run after himthe road to Gravesend。〃
  〃Yes; miss。〃
  〃No。  It is no use。  Never mind。〃
  〃Yes; miss。〃
  Then Harriet came in。  〃Did you want me; miss?〃
  〃Yes。  Nonever mind now。〃
  She was afraid to do anything for fear of making matters worse。
  She went to the window; and stood looking anxiously out; with her
  hands working。  Presently she uttered a little scream and shrank
  away to the sofa。  She sank down on it; half sitting; half lying;
  hid her face in her hands; and waited。
  Staines; with a lover's impatience; had been more than an hour at
  the gate; or walking up and down close by it; his heart now burning
  with hope; now freezing with fear; that she would decline a meeting
  on these terms。
  At last the postman came; and then he saw he was too soon; but now
  in a few minutes Rosa would have his letter; and then he should
  soon know whether she would come or not。  He looked up at the
  drawing…room windows。  They were full of light。  She was there in
  all probability。  Yet she did not come to them。  But why should
  she; if she was coming out?
  He walked up and down the road。  She did not come。  His heart began
  to sicken with doubt。  His head drooped; and perhaps it was owing
  to this that he almost ran against a gentleman who was coming the
  other way。  The moon shone bright on both faces。
  〃Dr。 Staines!〃 said Mr。 Lusignan surprised。  Christopher uttered an
  ejaculation more eloquent than words。
  They stared at each other。
  〃You were coming to call on us?〃
  〃Nno;〃 stammered Christopher。
  Lusignan thought that odd; however; he said politely; 〃No matter;
  it is fortunate。  Would you mind coming in?〃
  〃No;〃 faltered Christopher; and stared at him ruefully; puzzled
  more and more; but beginning to think; after all; it might be a
  casual meeting。
  They entered the gate; and in one moment he saw Rosa at the window;
  and she saw him。
  Then he altered his opinion again。  Rosa had sent her father out to
  him。  But how was this?  The old man did not seem angry。
  Christopher's heart gave a leap inside him; and he began to glow
  with the wildest hopes。  For; what could this mean but relenting?
  Mr。 Lusignan took him first into the study; and lighted two candles
  himself。  He did not want the servants prying。
  The lights showed Christopher a change in Mr。 Lusignan。  He looked
  ten years older。
  〃You are not well; sir;〃 said Christopher gently。
  〃My health is well enough; but I am a broken…hearted man。  Dr。
  Staines; forget all that passed here at your last visit。  All that
  is over。  Thank you for loving my poor girl as you do; give me your
  hand; God bless you。  Sir; I am sorry to say it is as a physician I
  invite you now。  She is ill; sir; very; very ill。〃
  〃Ill! and not tell me!〃
  〃She kept it from you; my poor friend; not to distress you; and she
  tried to keep it from me; but how could she?  For two months she
  has had some terrible complaintit is destroying her。  She is the
  ghost of herself。  Oh; my poor child! my child!〃
  The old man sobbed aloud。  The young man stood trembling; and ashy
  pale。  Still; the habits of his profession; and the experience of
  dangers overcome; together with a certain sense of power; kept him
  up; but; above all; love and duty said; 〃Be firm。〃  He asked for an
  outline of the symptoms。
  They alarmed him greatly。
  〃Let us lose no more time;〃 said he。  〃I will see her at once。〃
  〃Do you object to my being present?〃
  〃Of course not。〃
  〃Shall I tell you what Dr。 Snell says it is; and Mr。 Wyman?〃
  〃By all meansafter I have seen her。〃
  This comforted Mr。 Lusignan。  He was to get an independent
  judgment; at all events。
  When they reached the top of the stairs; Dr。 Staines paused and
  leaned against the baluster。  〃Give me a moment;〃 said he。  〃The
  patient must not know how my heart is beating; and she must see
  nothing in my face but what I choose her to see。  Give me your hand
  once more; sir; let us both control ourselves。  Now announce me。〃
  Mr。 Lusignan opened the door; and said; with forced cheerfulness;
  〃Dr。 Staines; my dear; come to give you the benefit of his skill。〃
  She lay on the sofa; just as we left her。  Only her bosom began to
  heave。
  Then Christopher Staines drew himself up; and the majesty of
  knowledge and love together seemed to dilate his noble frame。  He
  fixed his eye on that reclining; panting figure; and stepped
  lightly but firmly across the room to know the worst; like a lion
  walking up to levelled lances。
  CHAPTER III。
  The young physician walked steadily up to his patient without
  taking his eye off her; and drew a chair to her side。
  Then she took down one handthe leftand gave it him; averting
  her face tenderly; and still covering it with her right; 〃For;〃
  said she to herself; 〃I am such a fright now。〃  This opportune
  reflection; and her heaving bosom; proved that she at least felt
  herself something more than his patient。  Her pretty consciousness
  made his task more difficult; nevertheless; he only allowed himself
  to press her hand tenderly with both his palms one moment; and then
  he entered on his functions bravely。  〃I am here as your
  physician。〃
  〃Very well;〃 said she softly。
  He gently detained the hand; and put his finger lightly to her
  pulse; it was palpitating; and a fallacious test。  Oh; how that
  beating pulse; by love's electric current; set his own heart
  throbbing in a moment!
  He put her hand gently; reluctantly down; and said; 〃Oblige me by
  turning this way。〃  She turned; and he winced internally at the
  change in her; but his face betrayed nothing。  He looked at her
  full; and; after a pause; put her some questions: one was as to the
  color of the hemorrhage。  She said it was bright red。
  〃Not a tinge of purple?〃
  〃No;〃 said she hopefully; mistaking him。
  He suppressed a sigh。
  Then he listened at her shoulder…blade and at her chest; and made
  her draw her breath while he was listening。  The acts were simple;
  and usual in medicine; but there was a deep; patient; silent
  intensity about his way of doing them。
  Mr。 Lusignan crept nearer; and stood with both hands on a table;
  and his old head bowed; awaiting yet dreading the verdict。
  Up to this time; Dr。 Staines; instead of tapping and squeezing; and
  pulling the patient about; had never touched her with his hand; and
  only grazed her with his ear; but now he said 〃Allow me;〃 and put
  both hands to her waist; more lightly and reverently than I can
  describe; 〃Now d