第 23 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2021-11-05 20:37      字数:9322
  soul but what he acknowledged the sovereign necessity of prayer。
  In my awe; in my rapture; all my thoughts seemed enlarged and
  illumed and exalted。  I prayedall my soul seemed one prayer。  All
  my past; with its pride and presumption and folly; grew distinct as
  the form of a penitent; kneeling for pardon before setting forth on
  the pilgrimage vowed to a shrine。  And; sure now; in the deeps of a
  soul first revealed to myself; that the Dead do not die forever; my
  human love soared beyond its brief trial of terror and sorrow。
  Daring not to ask from Heaven's wisdom that Lilian; for my sake;
  might not yet pass away from the earth; I prayed that my soul might
  be fitted to bear with submission whatever my Maker might ordain。
  And if surviving herwithout whom no beam from yon material sun
  could ever warm into joy a morrow in human lifeso to guide my
  steps that they might rejoin her at last; and in rejoining; regain
  forever!
  How trivial now became the weird riddle; that; a little while
  before; had been clothed in so solemn an awe!  What mattered it to
  the vast interests involved in the clear recognition of Soul and
  Hereafter; whether or not my bodily sense; for a moment; obscured
  the face of the Nature I should one day behold as a spirit?
  Doubtless the sights and the sounds which had haunted the last
  gloomy night; the calm reason of Faber would strip of their magical
  seemings; the Eyes in the space and the Foot in the circle might be
  those of no terrible Demons; but of the wild's savage children whom
  I had seen; halting; curious and mute; in the light of the morning。
  The tremor of the ground (if not; as heretofore; explicable by the
  illusory impression of my own treacherous senses) might be but the
  natural effect of elements struggling yet under a soil unmistakably
  charred by volcanoes。  The luminous atoms dissolved in the caldron
  might as little be fraught with a vital elixir as are the splendors
  of naphtha or phosphor。  As it was; the weird rite had no magic
  result。  The magician was not rent limb from limb by the fiends。
  By causes as natural as ever extinguished life's spark in the frail
  lamp of clay; he had died out of sightunder the black veil。
  What mattered henceforth to Faith; in its far grander questions and
  answers; whether Reason; in Faber; or Fancy; in me; supplied the
  more probable guess at a hieroglyph which; if construed aright; was
  but a word of small mark in the mystical language of Nature?  If
  all the arts of enchantment recorded by Fable were attested by
  facts which Sages were forced to acknowledge; Sages would sooner or
  later find some cause for such portentsnot supernatural。  But
  what Sage; without cause supernatural; both without and within him;
  can guess at the wonders he views in the growth of a blade of
  grass; or the tints on an insect's wing?  Whatever art Man can
  achieve in his progress through time; Man's reason; in time; can
  suffice to explain。  But the wonders of God?  These belong to the
  Infinite; and these; O Immortal! will but develop new wonder on
  wonder; though thy sight be a spirit's; and thy leisure to track
  and to solve an eternity。
  As I raised my face from my clasped hands; my eyes fell full upon a
  form standing in the open doorway。  There; where on the night in
  which Lilian's long struggle for reason and life had begun; the
  Luminous Shadow had been beheld in the doubtful light of a dying
  moon and a yet hazy dawn; there; on the threshold; gathering round
  her bright locks the aureole of the glorious sun; stood Amy; the
  blessed child!  And as I gazed; drawing nearer and nearer to the
  silenced house; and that Image of Peace on its threshold; I felt
  that Hope met me at the doorHope in the child's steadfast eyes;
  Hope in the child's welcoming smile!
  〃I was at watch for you;〃 whispered Amy。  〃All is well。〃
  〃She lives stillshe lives!  Thank God; thank God!〃
  〃She livesshe will recover!〃 said another voice; as my head sunk
  on Faber's shoulder。  〃For some hours in the night her sleep was
  disturbed; convulsed。  I feared; then; the worst。  Suddenly; just
  before the dawn; she called out aloud; still in sleep:
  〃'The cold and dark shadow has passed away from me and from Allen
  passed away from us both forever!'
  〃And from that moment the fever left her; the breathing became
  soft; the pulse steady; and the color stole gradually back to her
  cheek。  The crisis is past。  Nature's benign Disposer has permitted
  Nature to restore your life's gentle partner; heart to heart; mind
  to mind〃
  〃And soul to soul;〃 I cried in my solemn joy。  〃Above as below;
  soul to soul!〃  Then; at a sign from Faber; the child took me by
  the hand and led me up the stairs into Lilian's room。
  Again those dear arms closed around me in wifelike and holy love;
  and those true lips kissed away my tearseven as now; at the
  distance of years from that happy morn; while I write the last
  words of this Strange Story; the same faithful arms close around
  me; the same tender lips kiss away my tears。
  Thomas De Quincey
  The Avenger
  〃Why callest thou me murderer; and not rather the wrath of God
  burning after the steps of the oppressor; and cleansing the earth
  when it is wet with blood?〃
  That series of terrific events by which our quiet city and
  university in the northeastern quarter of Germany were convulsed
  during the year 1816; has in itself; and considered merely as a
  blind movement of human tiger…passion ranging unchained among men;
  something too memorable to be forgotten or left without its own
  separate record; but the moral lesson impressed by these events is
  yet more memorable; and deserves the deep attention of coming
  generations in their struggle after human improvement; not merely
  in its own limited field of interest directly awakened; but in all
  analogous fields of interest; as in fact already; and more than
  once; in connection with these very events; this lesson has
  obtained the effectual attention of Christian kings and princes
  assembled in congress。  No tragedy; indeed; among all the sad ones
  by which the charities of the human heart or of the fireside have
  ever been outraged; can better merit a separate chapter in the
  private history of German manners or social life than this
  unparalleled case。  And; on the other hand; no one can put in a
  better claim to be the historian than myself。
  I was at the time; and still am; a professor in that city and
  university which had the melancholy distinction of being its
  theater。  I knew familiarly all the parties who were concerned in
  it; either as sufferers or as agents。  I was present from first to
  last; and watched the whole course of the mysterious storm which
  fell upon our devoted city in a strength like that of a West Indian
  hurricane; and which did seriously threaten at one time to
  depopulate our university; through the dark suspicions which
  settled upon its members; and the natural reaction of generous
  indignation in repelling them; while the city in its more
  stationary and native classes would very soon have manifested THEIR
  awful sense of things; of the hideous insecurity for life; and of
  the unfathomable dangers which had undermined their hearths below
  their very feet; by sacrificing; whenever circumstances allowed
  them; their houses and beautiful gardens in exchange for days
  uncursed by panic; and nights unpolluted by blood。  Nothing; I can
  take upon myself to assert; was left undone of all that human
  foresight could suggest; or human ingenuity could accomplish。  But
  observe the melancholy result: the more certain did these
  arrangements strike people as remedies for the evil; so much the
  more effectually did they aid the terror; but; above all; the awe;
  the sense of mystery; when ten cases of total extermination;
  applied to separate households; had occurred; in every one of which
  these precautionary aids had failed to yield the slightest
  assistance。  The horror; the perfect frenzy of fear; which seized
  upon the town after that experience; baffles all attempt at
  description。  Had these various contrivances failed merely in some
  human and intelligible way; as by bringing the aid too tardily
  still; in such cases; though the danger would no less have been
  evidently deepened; nobody would have felt any further mystery than
  what; from the very first; rested upon the persons and the motives
  of the murderers。  But; as it was; when; in ten separate cases of
  exterminating carnage; the astounded police; after an examination
  the most searching; pursued from day to day; and almost exhausting
  the patience by the minuteness of the investigation; had finally
  pronounced that no attempt apparently had been made to benefit by
  any of the signals preconcerted; that no footstep apparently had
  moved in that directionthen; and after that result; a blind
  misery of fear fell upon the population; so much the worse than any
  anguish of a beleaguered