第 64 节
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helped by an incident which took place one evening in the autumn of
this year; when John came to tea。 Anne was sitting on a low stool
in front of the fire; her hands clasped across her knee。 John
Loveday had just seated himself on a chair close behind her; and
Mrs。 Loveday was in the act of filling the teapot from the kettle
which hung in the chimney exactly above Anne。 The kettle slipped
forward suddenly; whereupon John jumped from the chair and put his
own two hands over Anne's just in time to shield them; and the
precious knee she clasped; from the jet of scalding water which had
directed itself upon that point。 The accidental overflow was
instantly checked by Mrs。 Loveday; but what had come was received by
the devoted trumpet…major on the back of his hands。
Anne; who had hardly been aware that he was behind her; started up
like a person awakened from a trance。 'What have you done to
yourself; poor John; to keep it off me!' she cried; looking at his
hands。
John reddened emotionally at her words; 'It is a bit of a scald;
that's all;' he replied; drawing a finger across the back of one
hand; and bringing off the skin by the touch。
'You are scalded painfully; and I not at all!' She gazed into his
kind face as she had never gazed there before; and when Mrs。 Loveday
came back with oil and other liniments for the wound Anne would let
nobody dress it but herself。 It seemed as if her coyness had all
gone; and when she had done all that lay in her power she still sat
by him。 At his departure she said what she had never said to him in
her life before: 'Come again soon!'
In short; that impulsive act of devotion; the last of a series of
the same tenor; had been the added drop which finally turned the
wheel。 John's character deeply impressed her。 His determined
steadfastness to his lode star won her admiration; the more
especially as that star was herself。 She began to wonder more and
more how she could have so persistently held out against his
advances before Bob came home to renew girlish memories which had by
that time got considerably weakened。 Could she not; after all;
please the miller; and try to listen to John? By so doing she would
make a worthy man happy; the only sacrifice being at worst that of
her unworthy self; whose future was no longer valuable。 'As for
Bob; the woman is to be pitied who loves him;' she reflected
indignantly; and persuaded herself that; whoever the woman might be;
she was not Anne Garland。
After this there was something of recklessness and something of
pleasantry in the young girl's manner of making herself an example
of the triumph of pride and common sense over memory and sentiment。
Her attitude had been epitomized in her defiant singing at the time
she learnt that Bob was not leal and true。 John; as was inevitable;
came again almost immediately; drawn thither by the sun of her first
smile on him; and the words which had accompanied it。 And now
instead of going off to her little pursuits upstairs; downstairs;
across the room; in the corner; or to any place except where he
happened to be; as had been her custom hitherto; she remained seated
near him; returning interesting answers to his general remarks; and
at every opportunity letting him know that at last he had found
favour in her eyes。
The day was fine; and they went out of doors; where Anne endeavoured
to seat herself on the sloping stone of the window…sill。
'How good you have become lately;' said John; standing over her and
smiling in the sunlight which blazed against the wall。 'I fancy you
have stayed at home this afternoon on my account。'
'Perhaps I have;' she said gaily
'〃Do whatever we may for him; dame; we cannot do too much!
For he's one that has guarded our land。〃
'And he has done more than that: he has saved me from a dreadful
scalding。 The back of your hand will not be well for a long time;
John; will it?'
He held out his hand to regard its condition; and the next natural
thing was to take hers。 There was a glow upon his face when he did
it: his star was at last on a fair way towards the zenith after its
long and weary declination。 The least penetrating eye could have
perceived that Anne had resolved to let him woo; possibly in her
temerity to let him win。 Whatever silent sorrow might be locked up
in her; it was by this time thrust a long way down from the light。
'I want you to go somewhere with me if you will;' he said; still
holding her hand。
'Yes? Where is it?'
He pointed to a distant hill…side which; hitherto green; had within
the last few days begun to show scratches of white on its face。 'Up
there;' he said。
'I see little figures of men moving about。 What are they doing?'
'Cutting out a huge picture of the king on horseback in the earth of
the hill。 The king's head is to be as big as our mill…pond and his
body as big as this garden; he and the horse will cover more than an
acre。 When shall we go?'
'Whenever you please;' said she。
'John!' cried Mrs。 Loveday from the front door。 'Here's a friend
come for you。'
John went round; and found his trusty lieutenant; Trumpeter Buck;
waiting for him。 A letter had come to the barracks for John in his
absence; and the trumpeter; who was going for a walk; had brought it
along with him。 Buck then entered the mill to discuss; if possible;
a mug of last year's mead with the miller; and John proceeded to
read his letter; Anne being still round the corner where he had left
her。 When he had read a few words he turned as pale as a sheet; but
he did not move; and perused the writing to the end。
Afterwards he laid his elbow against the wall; and put his palm to
his head; thinking with painful intentness。 Then he took himself
vigorously in hand; as it were; and gradually became natural again。
When he parted from Anne to go home with Buck she noticed nothing
different in him。
In barracks that evening he read the letter again。 It was from Bob;
and the agitating contents were these:
'DEAR JOHN;I have drifted off from writing till the present time
because I have not been clear about my feelings; but I have
discovered them at last; and can say beyond doubt that I mean to be
faithful to my dearest Anne after all。 The fact is; John; I've got
into a bit of a scrape; and I've a secret to tell you about it
(which must go no further on any account)。 On landing last autumn I
fell in with a young woman; and we got rather warm as folks do; in
short; we liked one another well enough for a while。 But I have got
into shoal water with her; and have found her to be a terrible
take…in。 Nothing in her at allno sense; no niceness; all tantrums
and empty noise; John; though she seemed monstrous clever at first。
So my heart comes back to its old anchorage。 I hope my return to
faithfulness will make no difference to you。 But as you showed by
your looks at our parting that you should not accept my offer to
give her upmade in too much haste; as I have since foundI feel
that you won't mind that I have returned to the path of honour。 I
dare not write to Anne as yet; and please do not let her know a word
about the other young woman; or there will be the devil to pay。 I
shall come home and make all things right; please God。 In the
meantime I should take it as a kindness; John; if you would keep a
brotherly eye upon Anne; and guide her mind back to me。 I shall die
of sorrow if anybody sets her against me; for my hopes are getting
bound up in her again quite strong。 Hoping you are jovial; as times
go; I am;Your affectionate brother; ROBERT。'
When the cold daylight fell upon John's face; as he dressed himself
next morning; the incipient yesterday's wrinkle in his forehead had
become permanently graven there。 He had resolved; for the sake of
that only brother whom he had nursed as a baby; instructed as a
child; and protected and loved always; to pause in his procedure for
the present; and at least do nothing to hinder Bob's restoration to
favour; if a genuine; even though temporarily smothered; love for
Anne should still hold possession of him。 But having arranged to
take her to see the excavated figure of the king; he started for
Overcombe during the day; as if nothing had occurred to check the
smooth course of his love。
XXXVIII。 A DELICATE SITUATION
'I am ready to go;' said Anne; as soon as he arrived。
He paused as if taken aback by her readiness; and replied with much
uncertainty; 'Would itwouldn't it be better to put it off till
there is less sun?'
The very slightest symptom of surprise arose in her as she rejoined;
'But the weather may change; or had we better not go at all?'
'O no!it was only a thought。 We will start at once。'
And along the vale they went; John keeping himself about a yard from
her right hand。 When the third field had been crossed they came
upon half…a…dozen little boys at play。
'Why don't he clasp her to his side; like a man?' said the biggest
and rudest boy。
'Why don't he clasp her to his side; like a man?' echoed all the
rude smaller boys in a chorus。
The trumpet…major turned; and; after some running; succeeded in
smacking two of them with his switch