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inspired the strongest attachments; she was a finely sympathetic woman;
with a great accordant heart and a sterling noble nature。 No claim can be
set up for her; thank God; to the possession of any of the conventional
poetical qualities。 She never by any means held the opinion that she was
among the greatest of human beings; she never suspected the existence of
a conspiracy on the part of mankind against her; she never recognised in
her best friends; her worst enemies; she never cultivated the luxury of
being misunderstood and unappreciated; she would far rather have died
without seeing a line of her composition in print; than that I should have
maundered about her; here; as 〃the Poet〃; or 〃the Poetess〃。
With the recollection of Miss Procter as a mere child and as a woman;
fresh upon me; it is natural that I should linger on my way to the close of
this brief record; avoiding its end。 But; even as the close came upon her;
so must it come here。
Always impelled by an intense conviction that her life must not be
dreamed away; and that her indulgence in her favourite pursuits must be
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balanced by action in the real world around her; she was indefatigable in
her endeavours to do some good。 Naturally enthusiastic; and
conscientiously impressed with a deep sense of her Christian duty to her
neighbour; she devoted herself to a variety of benevolent objects。 Now; it
was the visitation of the sick; that had possession of her; now; it was the
sheltering of the houseless; now; it was the elementary teaching of the
densely ignorant; now; it was the raising up of those who had wandered
and got trodden under foot; now; it was the wider employment of her own
sex in the general business of life; now; it was all these things at once。
Perfectly unselfish; swift to sympathise and eager to relieve; she wrought
at such designs with a flushed earnestness that disregarded season;
weather; time of day or night; food; rest。 Under such a hurry of the spirits;
and such incessant occupation; the strongest constitution will commonly
go down。 Hers; neither of the strongest nor the weakest; yielded to the
burden; and began to sink。
To have saved her life; then; by taking action on the warning that
shone in her eyes and sounded in her voice; would have been impossible;
without changing her nature。 As long as the power of moving about in
the old way was left to her; she must exercise it; or be killed by the
restraint。 And so the time came when she could move about no longer;
and took to her bed。
All the restlessness gone then; and all the sweet patience of her natural
disposition purified by the resignation of her soul; she lay upon her bed
through the whole round of changes of the seasons。 She lay upon her bed
through fifteen months。 In all that time; her old cheerfulness never
quitted her。 In all that time; not an impatient or a querulous minute can
be remembered。
At length; at midnight on the second of February; 1864; she turned
down a leaf of a little book she was reading; and shut it up。
The ministering hand that had copied the verses into the tiny album
was soon around her neck; and she quietly asked; as the clock was on the
stroke of one:
〃Do you think I am dying; mamma?〃
〃I think you are very; very ill to…night; my dear!〃
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〃Send for my sister。 My feet are so cold。 Lift me up?〃
Her sister entering as they raised her; she said: 〃It has come at last!〃
And with a bright and happy smile; looked upward; and departed。
Well had she written:
Why shouldst thou fear the beautiful angel; Death; Who waits thee at
the portals of the skies; Ready to kiss away thy struggling breath; Ready
with gentle hand to close thine eyes?
Oh what were life; if life were all? Thine eyes Are blinded by their
tears; or thou wouldst see Thy treasures wait thee in the far…off skies; And
Death; thy friend; will give them all to thee。
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VERSE: THE ANGEL'S STORY
Through the blue and frosty heavens Christmas stars were shining
bright; Glistening lamps throughout the City Almost matched their
gleaming light; While the winter snow was lying; And the winter winds
were sighing; Long ago; one Christmas night。
While; from every tower and steeple; Pealing bells were sounding
clear; (Never with such tones of gladness; Save when Christmas time is
near;) Many a one that night was merry Who had toiled through all the
year。 That night saw old wrongs forgiven; Friends; long parted;
reconciled; Voices all unused to laughter; Mournful eyes that rarely smiled;
Trembling hearts that feared the morrow; From their anxious thoughts
beguiled。
Rich and poor felt love and blessing From the gracious season fall; Joy
and plenty in the cottage; Peace and feasting in the hall; And the voices of
the children Ringing clear above it all!
Yet one house was dim and darkened; Gloom; and sickness; and
despair; Dwelling in the gilded chambers。 Creeping up the marble stair;
Even stilled the voice of mourning … For a child lay dying there。
Silken curtains fell around him; Velvet carpets hushed the tread。 Many
costly toys were lying; All unheeded; by his bed; And his tangled golden
ringlets Were on downy pillows spread。
The skill of all that mighty City To save one little life was vain; One
little thread from being broken; One fatal word from being spoken; Nay;
his very mother's pain; And the mighty love within her; Could not give
him health again。
So she knelt there still beside him; She alone with strength to smile;
Promising that he should suffer No more in a little while; Murmuring
tender song and story Weary hours to beguile。
Suddenly an unseen Presence Checked those constant moaning cries;
Stilled the little heart's quick fluttering; Raised those blue and wondering
eyes; Fixed on some mysterious vision; With a startled sweet surprise。
For a radiant angel hovered; Smiling; o'er the little bed; White his
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raiment; from his shoulders Snowy dove…like pinions spread; And a
starlike light was shining In a Glory round his head。
While; with tender love; the angel; Leaning o'er the little nest; In his
arms the sick child folding; Laid him gently on his breast; Sobs and
wailings told the mother That her darling was at rest。
So the angel; slowing rising; Spread his wings; and; through the air;
Bore the child; and while he held him To his heart with loving care; Placed
a branch of crimson roses Tenderly beside him there。
While the child; thus clinging; floated Towards the mansions of the
Blest; Gazing from his shining guardian To the flowers upon his breast;
Thus the angel spake; still smiling On the little heavenly guest:
〃Know; dear little one; that Heaven Does no earthly thing disdain;
Man's poor joys find there an echo Just as surely as his pain; Love; on
earth so feebly striving; Lives divine in Heaven again!
〃Once in that great town below us; In a poor and narrow street; Dwelt
a little sickly orphan; Gentle aid; or pity sweet; Never in life's rugged
pathway Guided his poor tottering feet。
〃All the striving anxious forethought That should only come with age;
Weighed upon his baby spirit; Showed him soon life's sternest page; Grim
Want was his nurse; and Sorrow Was his only heritage。