第 43 节
作者:风雅颂      更新:2021-10-16 18:44      字数:9322
  Lingaard told me。  He told me much that I was too young to remember;
  yet little could he tell。  A sea fight and a sack; battle and
  plunder and torch; a flight seaward in the long ships to escape
  destruction upon the rocks; and a killing strain and struggle
  against the frosty; foundering seaswho; then; should know aught or
  mark a stranger woman in her hour with her feet fast set on the way
  of death?  Many died。  Men marked the living women; not the dead。
  Sharp…bitten into my child imagination are the incidents immediately
  after my birth; as told me by old Lingaard。  Lingaard; too old to
  labour at the sweeps; had been surgeon; undertaker; and midwife of
  the huddled captives in the open midships。  So I was delivered in
  storm; with the spume of the cresting seas salt upon me。
  Not many hours old was I when Tostig Lodbrog first laid eyes on me。
  His was the lean ship; and his the seven other lean ships that had
  made the foray; fled the rapine; and won through the storm。  Tostig
  Lodbrog was also called Muspell; meaning 〃The Burning〃; for he was
  ever aflame with wrath。  Brave he was; and cruel he was; with no
  heart of mercy in that great chest of his。  Ere the sweat of battle
  had dried on him; leaning on his axe; he ate the heart of Ngrun
  after the fight at Hasfarth。  Because of mad anger he sold his son;
  Garulf; into slavery to the Juts。  I remember; under the smoky
  rafters of Brunanbuhr; how he used to call for the skull of Guthlaf
  for a drinking beaker。  Spiced wine he would have from no other cup
  than the skull of Guthlaf。
  And to him; on the reeling deck after the storm was past; old
  Lingaard brought me。  I was only hours old; wrapped naked in a salt…
  crusted wolfskin。  Now it happens; being prematurely born; that I
  was very small。
  〃Ho! ho!a dwarf!〃 cried Tostig; lowering a pot of mead half…
  drained from his lips to stare at me。
  The day was bitter; but they say he swept me naked from the
  wolfskin; and by my foot; between thumb and forefinger; dangled me
  to the bite of the wind。
  〃A roach!〃 he ho…ho'd。  〃A shrimp!  A sea…louse!〃  And he made to
  squash me between huge forefinger and thumb; either of which;
  Lingaard avers; was thicker than my leg or thigh。
  But another whim was upon him。
  〃The youngling is a…thirst。  Let him drink。〃
  And therewith; head…downward; into the half…pot of mead he thrust
  me。  And might well have drowned in this drink of menI who had
  never known a mother's breast in the briefness of time I had lived
  had it not been for Lingaard。  But when he plucked me forth from the
  brew; Tostig Lodbrog struck him down in a rage。  We rolled on the
  deck; and the great bear hounds; captured in the fight with the
  North Danes just past; sprang upon us。
  〃Ho! ho!〃 roared Tostig Lodbrog; as the old man and I and the
  wolfskin were mauled and worried by the dogs。
  But Lingaard gained his feet; saving me but losing the wolfskin to
  the hounds。
  Tostig Lodbrog finished the mead and regarded me; while Lingaard
  knew better than to beg for mercy where was no mercy。
  〃Hop o' my thumb;〃 quoth Tostig。  〃By Odin; the women of the North
  Danes are a scurvy breed。  They birth dwarfs; not men。  Of what use
  is this thing?  He will never make a man。  Listen you; Lingaard;
  grow him to be a drink…boy at Brunanbuhr。  And have an eye on the
  dogs lest they slobber him down by mistake as a meat…crumb from the
  table。〃
  I knew no woman。  Old Lingaard was midwife and nurse; and for
  nursery were reeling decks and the stamp and trample of men in
  battle or storm。  How I survived puling infancy; God knows。  I must
  have been born iron in a day of iron; for survive I did; to give the
  lie to Tostig's promise of dwarf…hood。  I outgrew all beakers and
  tankards; and not for long could he half…drown me in his mead pot。
  This last was a favourite feat of his。  It was his raw humour; a
  sally esteemed by him delicious wit。
  My first memories are of Tostig Lodbrog's beaked ships and fighting
  men; and of the feast hall at Brunanbuhr when our boats lay beached
  beside the frozen fjord。  For I was made drink…boy; and amongst my
  earliest recollections are toddling with the wine…filled skull of
  Guthlaf to the head of the table where Tostig bellowed to the
  rafters。  They were madmen; all of madness; but it seemed the common
  way of life to me who knew naught else。  They were men of quick
  rages and quick battling。  Their thoughts were ferocious; so was
  their eating ferocious; and their drinking。  And I grew like them。
  How else could I grow; when I served the drink to the bellowings of
  drunkards and to the skalds singing of Hialli; and the bold Hogni;
  and of the Niflung's gold; and of Gudrun's revenge on Atli when she
  gave him the hearts of his children and hers to eat while battle
  swept the benches; tore down the hangings raped from southern
  coasts; and; littered the feasting board with swift corpses。
  Oh; I; too; had a rage; well tutored in such school。  I was but
  eight when I showed my teeth at a drinking between the men of
  Brunanbuhr and the Juts who came as friends with the jarl Agard in
  his three long ships。  I stood at Tostig Lodbrog's shoulder; holding
  the skull of Guthlaf that steamed and stank with the hot; spiced
  wine。  And I waited while Tostig should complete his ravings against
  the North Dane men。  But still he raved and still I waited; till he
  caught breath of fury to assail the North Dane woman。  Whereat I
  remembered my North Dane mother; and saw my rage red in my eyes; and
  smote him with the skull of Guthlaf; so that he was wine…drenched;
  and wine…blinded; and fire…burnt。  And as he reeled unseeing;
  smashing his great groping clutches through the air at me; I was in
  and short…dirked him thrice in belly; thigh and buttock; than which
  I could reach no higher up the mighty frame of him。
  And the jarl Agard's steel was out; and his Juts joining him as he
  shouted:
  〃A bear cub!  A bear cub!  By Odin; let the cub fight!〃
  And there; under that roaring roof of Brunanbuhr; the babbling
  drink…boy of the North Danes fought with mighty Lodbrog。  And when;
  with one stroke; I was flung; dazed and breathless; half the length
  of that great board; my flying body mowing down pots and tankards;
  Lodbrog cried out command:
  〃Out with him!  Fling him to the hounds!〃
  But the jarl would have it no; and clapped Lodbrog on the shoulder;
  and asked me as a gift of friendship。
  And south I went; when the ice passed out of the fjord; in Jarl
  Agard's ships。  I was made drink…boy and sword…bearer to him; and in
  lieu of other name was called Ragnar Lodbrog。  Agard's country was
  neighbour to the Frisians; and a sad; flat country of fog and fen it
  was。  I was with him for three years; to his death; always at his
  back; whether hunting swamp wolves or drinking in the great hall
  where Elgiva; his young wife; often sat among her women。  I was with
  Agard in south foray with his ships along what would be now the
  coast of France; and there I learned that still south were warmer
  seasons and softer climes and women。
  But we brought back Agard wounded to death and slow…dying。  And we
  burned his body on a great pyre; with Elgiva; in her golden
  corselet; beside him singing。  And there were household slaves in
  golden collars that burned of a plenty there with her; and nine
  female thralls; and eight male slaves of the Angles that were of
  gentle birth and battle…captured。  And there were live hawks so
  burned; and the two hawk…boys with their birds。
  But I; the drink…boy; Ragnar Lodbrog; did not burn。  I was eleven;
  and unafraid; and had never worn woven cloth on my body。  And as the
  flames sprang up; and Elgiva sang her death…song; and the thralls
  and slaves screeched their unwillingness to die; I tore away my
  fastenings; leaped; and gained the fens; the gold collar of my
  slavehood still on my neck; footing it with the hounds loosed to
  tear me down。
  In the fens were wild men; masterless men; fled slaves; and outlaws;
  who were hunted in sport as the wolves were hunted。
  For three years I knew never roof nor fire; and I grew hard as the
  frost; and would have stolen a woman from the Juts but that the
  Frisians by mischance; in a two days' hunt; ran me down。  By them I
  was looted of my gold collar and traded for two wolf…hounds to Edwy;
  of the Saxons; who put an iron collar on me; and later made of me
  and five other slaves a present to Athel of the East Angles。  I was
  thrall and fighting man; until; lost in an unlucky raid far to the
  east beyond our marches; I was sold among the Huns; and was a
  swineherd until I escaped south into the great forests and was taken
  in as a freeman by the Teutons; who were many; but who lived in
  small tribes and drifted southward before the Hun advance。
  And up from the south into the great forests came the Romans;
  fighting men all; who pressed us back upon the Huns。  It was a
  crushage of