第 49 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2021-10-16 18:44      字数:9322
  car; so I got into it at once; and watched the gradual inflation of
  the balloon。  Luggage I had none; save the provisions hidden in the
  ballast bags; the books of mythology; and the treatises on the
  machines; with my own manuscript diaries and translations。
  I sat quietly; and awaited the hour fixed for my departurequiet
  outwardly; but inwardly I was in an agony of suspense lest
  Arowhena's absence should be discovered before the arrival of the
  King and Queen; who were to witness my ascent。  They were not due
  yet for another two hours; and during this time a hundred things
  might happen; any one of which would undo me。
  At last the balloon was full; the pipe which had filled it was
  removed; the escape of the gas having been first carefully
  precluded。  Nothing remained to hinder the balloon from ascending
  but the hands and weight of those who were holding on to it with
  ropes。  I strained my eyes for the coming of the King and Queen;
  but could see no sign of their approach。  I looked in the direction
  of Mr。 Nosnibor's housethere was nothing to indicate disturbance;
  but it was not yet breakfast time。  The crowd began to gather; they
  were aware that I was under the displeasure of the court; but I
  could detect no signs of my being unpopular。  On the contrary; I
  received many kindly expressions of regard and encouragement; with
  good wishes as to the result of my journey。
  I was speaking to one gentleman of my acquaintance; and telling him
  the substance of what I intended to do when I had got into the
  presence of the air god (what he thought of me I cannot guess; for
  I am sure that he did not believe in the objective existence of the
  air god; nor that I myself believed in it); when I became aware of
  a small crowd of people running as fast as they could from Mr。
  Nosnibor's house towards the Queen's workshops。  For the moment my
  pulse ceased beating; and then; knowing that the time had come when
  I must either do or die; I called vehemently to those who were
  holding the ropes (some thirty men) to let go at once; and made
  gestures signifying danger; and that there would be mischief if
  they held on longer。  Many obeyed; the rest were too weak to hold
  on to the ropes; and were forced to let them go。  On this the
  balloon bounded suddenly upwards; but my own feeling was that the
  earth had dropped off from me; and was sinking fast into the open
  space beneath。
  This happened at the very moment that the attention of the crowd
  was divided; the one half paying heed to the eager gestures of
  those coming from Mr。 Nosnibor's house; and the other to the
  exclamations from myself。  A minute more and Arowhena would
  doubtless have been discovered; but before that minute was over; I
  was at such a height above the city that nothing could harm me; and
  every second both the town and the crowd became smaller and more
  confused。  In an incredibly short time; I could see little but a
  vast wall of blue plains rising up against me; towards whichever
  side I looked。
  At first; the balloon mounted vertically upwards; but after about
  five minutes; when we had already attained a very great elevation;
  I fancied that the objects on the plain beneath began to move from
  under me。  I did not feel so much as a breath of wind; and could
  not suppose that the balloon itself was travelling。  I was;
  therefore; wondering what this strange movement of fixed objects
  could mean; when it struck me that people in a balloon do not feel
  the wind inasmuch as they travel with it and offer it no
  resistance。  Then I was happy in thinking that I must now have
  reached the invariable trade wind of the upper air; and that I
  should be very possibly wafted for hundreds or even thousands of
  miles; far from Erewhon and the Erewhonians。
  Already I had removed the wrappings and freed Arowhena; but I soon
  covered her up with them again; for it was already very cold; and
  she was half stupefied with the strangeness of her position。
  And now began a time; dream…like and delirious; of which I do not
  suppose that I shall ever recover a distinct recollection。  Some
  things I can recallas that we were ere long enveloped in vapour
  which froze upon my moustache and whiskers; then comes a memory of
  sitting for hours and hours in a thick fog; hearing no sound but my
  own breathing and Arowhena's (for we hardly spoke) and seeing no
  sight but the car beneath us and beside us; and the dark balloon
  above。
  Perhaps the most painful feeling when the earth was hidden was that
  the balloon was motionless; though our only hope lay in our going
  forward with an extreme of speed。  From time to time through a rift
  in the clouds I caught a glimpse of earth; and was thankful to
  perceive that we must be flying forward faster than in an express
  train; but no sooner was the rift closed than the old conviction of
  our being stationary returned in full force; and was not to be
  reasoned with:  there was another feeling also which was nearly as
  bad; for as a child that fears it has gone blind in a long tunnel
  if there is no light; so ere the earth had been many minutes
  hidden; I became half frightened lest we might not have broken away
  from it clean and for ever。  Now and again; I ate and gave food to
  Arowhena; but by guess…work as regards time。  Then came darkness; a
  dreadful dreary time; without even the moon to cheer us。
  With dawn the scene was changed:  the clouds were gone and morning
  stars were shining; the rising of the splendid sun remains still
  impressed upon me as the most glorious that I have ever seen;
  beneath us there was an embossed chain of mountains with snow fresh
  fallen upon them; but we were far above them; we both of us felt
  our breathing seriously affected; but I would not allow the balloon
  to descend a single inch; not knowing for how long we might not
  need all the buoyancy which we could command; indeed I was thankful
  to find that; after nearly four…and…twenty hours; we were still at
  so great a height above the earth。
  In a couple of hours we had passed the ranges; which must have been
  some hundred and fifty miles across; and again I saw a tract of
  level plain extending far away to the horizon。  I knew not where we
  were; and dared not descend; lest I should waste the power of the
  balloon; but I was half hopeful that we might be above the country
  from which I had originally started。  I looked anxiously for any
  sign by which I could recognise it; but could see nothing; and
  feared that we might be above some distant part of Erewhon; or a
  country inhabited by savages。  While I was still in doubt; the
  balloon was again wrapped in clouds; and we were left to blank
  space and to conjectures。
  The weary time dragged on。  How I longed for my unhappy watch!  I
  felt as though not even time was moving; so dumb and spell…bound
  were our surroundings。  Sometimes I would feel my pulse; and count
  its beats for half…an…hour together; anything to mark the timeto
  prove that it was there; and to assure myself that we were within
  the blessed range of its influence; and not gone adrift into the
  timelessness of eternity。
  I had been doing this for the twentieth or thirtieth time; and had
  fallen into a light sleep:  I dreamed wildly of a journey in an
  express train; and of arriving at a railway station where the air
  was full of the sound of locomotive engines blowing off steam with
  a horrible and tremendous hissing; I woke frightened and uneasy;
  but the hissing and crashing noises pursued me now that I was
  awake; and forced me to own that they were real。  What they were I
  knew not; but they grew gradually fainter and fainter; and after a
  time were lost。  In a few hours the clouds broke; and I saw beneath
  me that which made the chilled blood run colder in my veins。  I saw
  the sea; and nothing but the sea; in the main black; but flecked
  with white heads of storm…tossed; angry waves。
  Arowhena was sleeping quietly at the bottom of the car; and as I
  looked at her sweet and saintly beauty; I groaned; and cursed
  myself for the misery into which I had brought her; but there was
  nothing for it now。
  I sat and waited for the worst; and presently I saw signs as though
  that worst were soon to be at hand; for the balloon had begun to
  sink。  On first seeing the sea I had been impressed with the idea
  that we must have been falling; but now there could be no mistake;
  we were sinking; and that fast。  I threw out a bag of ballast; and
  for a time we rose again; but in the course of a few hours the
  sinking recommenced; and I threw out another bag。
  Then the battle commenced in earnest。  It lasted all that afternoon
  and through the night until the following evening。  I had seen
  never a sail nor a sign of a sail; though I had half blinded myself
  with straining my eyes incessantly in every direction; we had
  parted with everything but the clothes which we had upon our backs;
  food and water were gone; all thrown out to the wheeling
  albatrosses; in order to save us a few hours or even minutes from
  the sea。  I did not throw away the books till we were within a few
  feet of the water; and clung to my manuscripts to the very last。
  Hope there seemed none whateveryet; strangely enough we were
  neither of us utterly hopeless; an