第 31 节
作者:猜火车      更新:2021-10-16 18:41      字数:9322
  I looked into the water; and there; mirrored upon its
  placid surface; was the silhouette of Ustane's stately
  face。 She was bending forward; with a look of infinite
  tenderness upon her features; watching something
  beneath her; and with her chestnut locks falling on to
  her right shoulder。
  〃It is she;〃 I said; in a low voice; for once more I
  felt much disturbed at this most uncommon sight。 〃She
  watches Leo asleep。〃
  〃Leo!〃 said Ayesha; in an absent voice; 〃why; that is
  'lion'。 in the Latin tongue。 The old man hath named
  happily for once。 It is very strange;〃 she went on;
  speaking to herself; 〃very。 So likebut it is not
  possible!〃 With an impatient gesture she passed her
  hand over the water once more。 It darkened; and the
  image vanished silently and mysteriously as it had
  risen; and once more the lamplight; and the lamplight
  only; shone on the placid surface of that limpid;
  living mirror。
  〃Hast thou aught to ask me before thou goest; O
  Holly?〃 she said; after a few moments' reflection。 〃It
  is but a rude life that thou must live here; for these
  people are savages; and know not the ways of
  cultivated man。 Not that I am troubled thereby; for;
  behold my food;〃 and she pointed to the fruit upon the
  little table。 〃Naught but fruit doth ever pass my
  lipsfruit and cakes of flour; and a little water。 I
  have bidden my girls to wait upon thee。 They are
  mutes; thou knowest; deaf are they and dumb; and
  therefore the safest of servants; save to those who
  can read their faces and their signs。 I bred them so
  it hath taken many centuries and much trouble; but
  last I have triumphed。 Once I succeeded before; but
  the race was too ugly; so I let it die away; but now;
  as thou seest; they are otherwise。 Once; too; I reared
  a race of giants; but after a while Nature would no
  more of it; and it died away。 Hast thou aught to ask
  of me?〃
  〃Ay; one thing; O Ayesha;〃 I said; boldly; but feeling
  by no means as bold as I trust I looked。 〃I would gaze
  upon thy face。〃
  She laughed out in her bell…like notes。 〃Bethink thee;
  Holly;〃 she answered; 〃bethink thee。 It seems that
  thou knowest the old myths of the gods of Greece。 Was
  there not one Actaeon who perished miserably because
  he looked on too much beauty? If I show thee my face;
  perchance thou wouldst perish miserably also;
  perchance thou wouldst eat out thy heart in impotent
  desire; for know I am not for theeI am for no man;
  save one; who hath been; but is not yet。〃
  〃As thou wilt; Ayesha;〃 I said。 〃I fear not thy
  beauty。 I have put my heart away from such vanity as
  woman's loveliness; that passes like a flower。〃
  〃Nay; thou errest;〃 she said; 〃that does not pass。 My
  beauty endures even as I endure; still if thou wilt; O
  rash man; have thy will; but blame not me if passion
  mount thy reason; as the Egyptian breakers used to
  mount a colt; and guide it whither thou wilt not。
  Never may the man to whom my beauty hath been unveiled
  put it from his mind; and therefore even with these
  savages do I go veiled; lest they vex me; and I should
  slay them。 Say; wilt thou see?〃
  〃I will;〃 I answered; my curiosity overpowering me。
  She lifted her white and rounded armsnever had I
  seen such arms before…and slowly; very slowly;
  withdrew some fastening beneath her hair。 Then all of
  a sudden the long; corpse…like wrappings fell from her
  to the ground; and my eyes travelled up her form; now
  only robed in a garb of clinging white that did but
  serve to show its perfect and imperial shape; instinct
  with a life that was more than life; and with a
  certain serpent…like grace that was more than human。
  On her little feet were sandals; fastened with studs
  of gold。 Then came ankles more perfect than ever
  sculptor dreamed of。 About the waist her white kirtle
  was fastened by a double…headed snake of solid gold;
  above which her gracious form swelled up in lines as
  pure as they were lovely; till the kirtle ended on the
  snowy argent of her breast; whereon her arms were
  folded。 I gazed above them at her face; andI do not
  exaggerate shrank back blinded and amazed。 I have
  heard of the beauty of celestial beings; now I saw it;
  only this beauty; with all its awful loveliness and
  purity; was evilat least; at the time; it struck me
  as evil。 How am I to describe it? I cannotsimply; I
  cannot! The man does not live whose pen could convey a
  sense of what I saw。 I might talk of the great
  changing eyes of deepest; softest black; of the tinted
  face; of the broad and noble brow; on which the hair
  grew low; and delicate; straight features。 But;
  beautiful; surpassingly beautiful as they all were;
  her loveliness did not lie in them。 It lay rather; if
  it can be said to have had any fixed abiding…place; in
  a visible majesty; in an imperial grace; in a godlike
  stamp of softened power; which shone upon that radiant
  countenance like a living halo。 Never before had I
  guessed what beauty made sublime could be; and yet the
  sublimity was a dark one; the glory was not all of
  heaven; though none the less was it glorious。 Though
  the face before me was that of a young woman of
  certainly not more than thirty years; in perfect
  health; and the first flush of ripened beauty; yet it
  had stamped upon it a look of unutterable experience;
  and of deep acquaintance with grief and passion。 Not
  even the lovely smile that crept about the dimples of
  her mouth could hide this shadow of sin and sorrow。 It
  shone even in the light of the glorious eyes; it was
  present in the air of majesty; and it seemed to say:
  〃Behold me; lovely as no woman was or is; undying and
  half divine; memory haunts me from age to age; and
  passion leads me by the hand; evil have I done; and
  with sorrow have I made acquaintance from age to age;
  and from age to age evil I shall do; and sorrow shall
  I know till my redemption comes。〃
  Drawn by some magnetic force which I could not resist;
  I let my eyes rest upon her shining orbs; and felt a
  current pass from them to me that bewildered and half
  blinded me。
  She laughedah; how musically! and nodded her little
  head at me with an air of sublimated coquetry that
  would have done credit to a Venus Victrix。
  〃Rash man!〃 she said; 〃like Actaeon; thou hast had thy
  will; be careful lest; like Actaeon; thou too dost
  perish miserably; torn to pieces by the ban…hounds of
  thine own passions。 I too; O Holly; am a virgin
  goddess; not to be moved of any man; save one; and it
  is not thou。 Say; hast thou seen enough?〃
  〃I have looked on beauty; and I am blinded;〃 I said;
  hoarsely; lifting my hand to cover up my eyes。
  〃So! what did I tell thee? Beauty is like the
  lightning; it is lovely; but it destroysspecially
  trees; O Holly!〃 And again she nodded and laughed。
  Suddenly she paused; and through my fingers I saw an
  awful change come over her countenance。 Her great eyes
  suddenly fixed themselves into an expression in which
  horror seemed to struggle with some tremendous hope
  arising through the depths of her dark soul。 The
  lovely face grew rigid; and the gracious; willowy form
  seemed to erect itself。
  〃Man;〃 she half whispered; half hissed; throwing back
  her head like a snake about to strike〃man; where
  didst thou get that scarab on thy hand? Speak; or by
  the Spirit of Life I will blast thee where thou
  standest!〃 and she took one light step towards me; and
  from her eyes there shone such an awful lightto me
  it seemed almost like a flamethat I fell; then and
  there; on the ground before her; babbling confusedly
  in my terror。
  〃Peace;〃 she said; with a sudden change of manner; and
  speaking in her former soft voice; 〃I did affright
  thee! Forgive me! But at times; O Holly; the almost
  infinite mind grows impatient of the slowness of the
  very finite; and I am tempted to use my power out of
  pure vexationvery nearly wast thou dead; but I
  rememberedBut the scarababout the scarabaeus!〃
  〃I picked it up;〃 I gurgled feebly; as I got on to my
  feet again; and it is a solemn fact that my mind was
  so disturbed that at the moment I could remember
  nothing else about the ring except that I had picked
  it up in Leo's cave。
  〃It is very strange;〃 she said; with a sudden access
  of woman…like trembling and agitation which seemed out
  of place in this awful woman〃but once I knew a
  scarab like that。 Ithung round the neckof one I
  loved;〃 and she gave a little sob; and I saw that
  after all she was only a woman; although she might be
  a very old one。 〃There;〃 she went on; 〃it must be one
  like it; and yet never did I see one like it; for
  thereto hung a history; and he who wrote it prized it
  much。 But the scarab that I knew was not set thus in
  the bezel of a ring。 Go now; Holly; go; and; if thou
  canst; try to forget that thou hast looked upon
  Ayesha's beauty;〃 and; turning from me; she flung
  herself on her couch; and buried her face in the
  cushions。
  As for me; I stumbled from her presence; and I do not
  remember how I reached my own cave。
  CHAPTER XIV
  A SOUL IN HELL
  It was nearly ten o'clock at night when I cast myself
  down upon my bed; and began to gather my scattered
  wits; and re