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人生几何 更新:2021-08-28 17:14 字数:9321
lamenting wail。
He resumed。 〃Now; sir; mark this; and judge how my mind is
troubled。 The spectre came back a week ago。 Ever since; it has
been there; now and again; by fits and starts。〃
〃At the light?〃
〃At the Danger…light。〃
〃What does it seem to do?〃
He repeated; if possible with increased passion and vehemence; that
former gesticulation of; 〃For God's sake; clear the way!〃
Then he went on。 〃I have no peace or rest for it。 It calls to me;
for many minutes together; in an agonised manner; 'Below there!
Look out! Look out!' It stands waving to me。 It rings my little
bell〃
I caught at that。 〃Did it ring your bell yesterday evening when I
was here; and you went to the door?〃
〃Twice。〃
〃Why; see;〃 said I; 〃how your imagination misleads you。 My eyes
were on the bell; and my ears were open to the bell; and if I am a
living man; it did NOT ring at those times。 No; nor at any other
time; except when it was rung in the natural course of physical
things by the station communicating with you。〃
He shook his head。 〃I have never made a mistake as to that yet; sir。
I have never confused the spectre's ring with the man's。 The
ghost's ring is a strange vibration in the bell that it derives from
nothing else; and I have not asserted that the bell stirs to the
eye。 I don't wonder that you failed to hear it。 But I heard it。〃
〃And did the spectre seem to be there; when you looked out?〃
〃It WAS there。〃'
〃Both times?〃
He repeated firmly: 〃Both times。〃
〃Will you come to the door with me; and look for it now?〃
He bit his under lip as though he were somewhat unwilling; but
arose。 I opened the door; and stood on the step; while he stood in
the doorway。 There was the Danger…light。 There was the dismal
mouth of the tunnel。 There were the high; wet stone walls of the
cutting。 There were the stars above them。
〃Do you see it?〃 I asked him; taking particular note of his face。
His eyes were prominent and strained; but not very much more so;
perhaps; than my own had been when I had directed them earnestly
towards the same spot。
〃No;〃 he answered。 〃It is not there。〃
〃Agreed;〃 said I。
We went in again; shut the door; and resumed our seats。 I was
thinking how best to improve this advantage; if it might be called
one; when he took up the conversation in such a matter…of…course
way; so assuming that there could be no serious question of fact
between us; that I felt myself placed in the weakest of positions。
〃By this time you will fully understand; sir;〃 he said; 〃that what
troubles me so dreadfully is the question; What does the spectre
mean?〃
I was not sure; I told him; that I did fully understand。
〃What is its warning against?〃 he said; ruminating; with his eyes on
the fire; and only by times turning them on me。 〃What is the
danger? Where is the danger? There is danger overhanging somewhere
on the Line。 Some dreadful calamity will happen。 It is not to be
doubted this third time; after what has gone before。 But surely
this is a cruel haunting of me。 What can I do?〃
He pulled out his handkerchief; and wiped the drops from his heated
forehead。
〃If I telegraph Danger; on either side of me; or on both; I can give
no reason for it;〃 he went on; wiping the palms of his hands。 〃I
should get into trouble; and do no good。 They would think I was
mad。 This is the way it would work;Message: 'Danger! Take
care!' Answer: 'What Danger? Where?' Message: 'Don't know。
But; for God's sake; take care!' They would displace me。 What else
could they do?〃
His pain of mind was most pitiable to see。 It was the mental
torture of a conscientious man; oppressed beyond endurance by an
unintelligible responsibility involving life。
〃When it first stood under the Danger…light;〃 he went on; putting
his dark hair back from his head; and drawing his hands outward
across and across his temples in an extremity of feverish distress;
〃why not tell me where that accident was to happen;if it must
happen? Why not tell me how it could be averted;if it could have
been averted? When on its second coming it hid its face; why not
tell me; instead; 'She is going to die。 Let them keep her at home'?
If it came; on those two occasions; only to show me that its
warnings were true; and so to prepare me for the third; why not warn
me plainly now? And I; Lord help me! A mere poor signal…man on
this solitary station! Why not go to somebody with credit to be
believed; and power to act?〃
When I saw him in this state; I saw that for the poor man's sake; as
well as for the public safety; what I had to do for the time was to
compose his mind。 Therefore; setting aside all question of reality
or unreality between us; I represented to him that whoever
thoroughly discharged his duty must do well; and that at least it
was his comfort that he understood his duty; though he did not
understand these confounding Appearances。 In this effort I
succeeded far better than in the attempt to reason him out of his
conviction。 He became calm; the occupations incidental to his post
as the night advanced began to make larger demands on his attention:
and I left him at two in the morning。 I had offered to stay through
the night; but he would not hear of it。
That I more than once looked back at the red light as I ascended the
pathway; that I did not like the red light; and that I should have
slept but poorly if my bed had been under it; I see no reason to
conceal。 Nor did I like the two sequences of the accident and the
dead girl。 I see no reason to conceal that either。
But what ran most in my thoughts was the consideration how ought I
to act; having become the recipient of this disclosure? I had
proved the man to be intelligent; vigilant; painstaking; and exact;
but how long might he remain so; in his state of mind? Though in a
subordinate position; still he held a most important trust; and
would I (for instance) like to stake my own life on the chances of
his continuing to execute it with precision?
Unable to overcome a feeling that there would be something
treacherous in my communicating what he had told me to his superiors
in the Company; without first being plain with himself and proposing
a middle course to him; I ultimately resolved to offer to accompany
him (otherwise keeping his secret for the present) to the wisest
medical practitioner we could hear of in those parts; and to take
his opinion。 A change in his time of duty would come round next
night; he had apprised me; and he would be off an hour or two after
sunrise; and on again soon after sunset。 I had appointed to return
accordingly。
Next evening was a lovely evening; and I walked out early to enjoy
it。 The sun was not yet quite down when I traversed the field…path
near the top of the deep cutting。 I would extend my walk for an
hour; I said to myself; half an hour on and half an hour back; and
it would then be time to go to my signal…man's box。
Before pursuing my stroll; I stepped to the brink; and mechanically
looked down; from the point from which I had first seen him。 I
cannot describe the thrill that seized upon me; when; close at the
mouth of the tunnel; I saw the appearance of a man; with his left
sleeve across his eyes; passionately waving his right arm。
The nameless horror that oppressed me passed in a moment; for in a
moment I saw that this appearance of a man was a man indeed; and
that there was a little group of other men; standing at a short
distance; to whom he seemed to be rehearsing the gesture he made。
The Danger…light was not yet lighted。 Against its shaft; a little
low hut; entirely new to me; had been made of some wooden supports
and tarpaulin。 It looked no bigger than a bed。
With an irresistible sense that something was wrong;with a
flashing self…reproachful fear that fatal mischief had come of my
leaving the man there; and causing no one to be sent to overlook or
correct what he did;I descended the notched path with all the
speed I could make。
〃What is the matter?〃 I asked the men。
〃Signal…man killed this morning; sir。〃
〃Not the man belonging to that box?〃
〃Yes; sir。〃
〃Not the man I know?〃
〃You will recognise him; sir; if you knew him;〃 said the man who
spoke for the others; solemnly uncovering his own head; and raising
an end of the tarpaulin; 〃for his face is quite composed。〃
〃O; how did this happen; how did this happen?〃 I asked; turning from
one to another as the hut closed in again。
〃He was cut down by an engine; sir。 No man in England knew his work
better。 But somehow he was not clear of the outer rail。 It was
just at broad day。 He had struck the light; and had the lamp in his
hand。 As the engine came out of the tunnel; his back was towards
her; and she cut him down。 That man drove her;