第 31 节
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竹水冷 更新:2021-08-21 21:27 字数:9322
up and down under its buttressed wall; waiting for Papa; till they grew tired and hungry; but at last he came in a great hurry; and sorry to have been hindered。 With naval politeness; he gave his arm to Miss Fosbrook; and carried them off to a pastry…cook's; where he bade them eat what they pleased; and spend the rest of the florin he threw them on buns for the little ones; while he fetched the carriage; and so they all drove home again; and found the rest of the party ravenous; having waited dinner for three…quarters of an hour。
Wonderful to relate; Uncle John had not eaten anybody up! not even Baby; though Papa advised Susan to make sure that she was safe; and then sent Sam to ask Purday for a salad。 Perhaps this was by way of getting rid of this constant follower while he asked his brother what he thought of the boys' attainments。
Uncle John could not speak very highly of the learning of either; but he said; 〃Sam knows thoroughly what he does know。 As to the other; he thinks he knows everything; and makes most awful shots。 When I asked them who Dido's husband was; Sam told me he did not know; and Hal; that he was Diodorus SiculusAT LEAST; Scipiono; he meant Sicyon。〃
〃Then you think neither could stand an examination for the cadetship?〃
〃I could not be sure of Sam; but I am quite sure that Hal could not。〃
Here the dinner…bell rang; the hungry populace rushed to the dining… room; and the meal was gone through as merrily as could be; while still the father never spoke to Henry。 Uncle John was as pleasant and good…natured as possible。 Who would have thought of the marked difference he made between dining with barbarians; or young gentlefolks!
Dinner over; Captain Merrifield called Sam;or rather; since that was not necessary; as Sam was never willingly a yard from his elbow; he ordered the others not to follow as they went into the garden together。
〃Sam;〃 he said; 〃Admiral Penrose is kind enough to offer me a berth in the Ramilies for one of you。 If you can pass the examination; should you wish to avail yourself of the offer?〃
Sam grew very red in the face; looked down; and twirled the button of his sleeve。 He certainly was not a gracious boy; for all he said was in a gruff hoarse voice; without even thanks; 〃Not if it is for this。〃
〃For this! What do you mean; Sam?〃 said Captain Merrifield; thinking either that the boy was faint…hearted; or that his wish had been the mere fancy of the girls。
〃Not if it is to punish Hal;〃 said Sam; with another effort。
〃That is not the question。 Do you wish it?〃
Sam hung his head; and made his eyebrows come down; as if they were to serve as a veil to those horrid tears in his eyes; and after all; his voice sounded sulky; as he said; 〃Yes。〃
〃Is that all?〃 said the Captain; angry and disappointed。 〃Is that the way you take such an offer? If you had rather stay here; and be bred up to be a country squire; say so at once; don't mince the matter!〃
〃O Papa!〃 cried Sam indignantly; 〃how can you think that? Didn't I always want to be like you?〃
〃Then why can't you say so?〃
〃Because I can't bear to cut Hal out!〃 said Sam; putting his arm over his eyes; as a way he considered secret of disposing of his tears。
〃Put that out of your head; Sam; or if you don't fancy the sea; have it out at once。〃
〃O Papa! please listen。 You know; though Miss Fosbrook is very jolly; we couldn't help getting nohow when you were away; US two particularly。〃
〃You have no mischief to confess; surely; Sam?〃 said his father; really imagining that this preference to Hal was acting on him so as to make him mention some concealed misdemeanour; 〃if you have; you know truth is the best line。〃
〃But I haven't; Papa;〃 said Sam; looking up; quite surprised。 〃You know I am a year older; and couldn't help caring more; and Miss Fosbrook is so nice; one couldn't bother her; but you see the Grevilles WOULD put it into Hal's head that it was stupid and like a girl to mind her。 It is all their fault; and they were sneaks about the turkey…cock; and wouldn't payand I know he would have ended by putting the money back when he could; only Davie made such a row before he could; and he did so reckon on the navyhe would pay it back the first thing。〃 The last sentences came between gasps; very like sobs。
〃Have done with Hal;〃 said Captain Merrifield; still with displeasure。 〃I wouldn't take him now on any account。 If the Grevilles lead him wrong; what would he do among the mids? If he acts dishonourably here; we should have him disgracing himself and his profession。 Since he can't take it; and you won't; I shall try to make some exchange of the chance till John or David will be old enough。〃
〃But Papa; I〃 began Sam。
〃_I_ don't want to force you to it;〃 continued Captain Merrifield; in his vexed voice。 〃I never mean to force my sons to any profession if I can help it; and you have a right to be considered。 It has always been a disadvantage to me; and to this place; that I was bred to the sea instead of to farming; and though you can't live on the property without some profession; it may be quite as well that you should turn your mind to something elseonly if it be the army; I can't help you on in it。〃
〃I had rather go to sea; if you please;〃 said Sam。
〃Don't say so to please me;〃 said his father。 〃I tell you; the examinations are a pretty deal harder than they were in my time。 It is not a trade for a youngster to be idle in; and I won't have you; just when you've knocked about a few years; and are getting fit to be of use on board and nowhere else; calling yourself heartily sick of it; and turning round to say it was my doing。〃
〃I'll never do that; Papa;〃 said poor Sam; unable to understand why his father should speak as though scolding him。
〃No? And mind; you must take the rough with the smooth; if you sail with me; and not be always running after me; Papa…ing me。 I can't see after you; and should only get you ill will if I tried。〃
〃I had rather go;〃 said Sam。
〃I'm sure I don't know what to make of you;〃 said his father; looking at him in a puzzle。 〃However; if you do mean to go; you may tell Freeman to get your things ready to come up with me on Thursday; only if you don't really like the notion; find out your own mind; and let me know in time; that's all。〃
The Captain turned away; and gave a long whistlean accustomed signalthat brought children and dogs all rushing and tumbling about him together; to walk with him about the farm; and his brother among them; but Sam hung back。 He had not the heart to go with that merry throng; for he did not know whether his father were not displeased with him; and he therefore thought he must be to blame。
People who; like Sam; rather cultivate the habit of gruffness and reserve; and prefer to be short and rude; become so utterly unable to express what they mean; that on great occasions they are misunderstood; and give pain by supposed ingratitude and dislike; even when they feel most warmly。 Captain Merrifield could only judge from looks and words; and even when Sam had been satisfied about Henry; he had shown so little alacrity or satisfaction; as really to leave a doubt whether he were not unwillingly yielding to his father's wishes; which would have been a mistaken act; as the Captain thought no one ought to be a sailor unless with a very strong desire that way。 Thus Sam really perplexed and distressed his father; when he least intended it; and unable to understand what was the matter; yet feeling heavy and sad; he turned aside from the rest; and; by way of the quietest place he could find; climbed up a tall pear…tree; to the very highest branch he could reach。 He put himself astride on one bough; his feet upon another below; and his back leaning against the main stem。 No one could see him up so high among the thick leaves; but he could see all around the village; and over the house; he could look down into the farm…court at the pigs burying themselves in the straw; and out beyond at the geese and ducks in the meadow; and the broods of chickens pecking and scratching about; or the older poultry rolling in the dust…holes they had scraped for themselves。 He could see Purday among his cabbages in the garden; and further off; could watch the walking…party through the fields; his father with little George in his arms; and Uncle John as often as possible by his side; while the others frisked about; sometimes spreading out like a flock of sheep in the pasture land; or when they came to the narrow paths in the cornfields; all getting into single file; and being lost sight of all but their heads。
Sam recollected how; the day when he had heard that he was not likely to be a sailor; he had felt as if he hated Stokesley; and as if it would be a prison to him; and how everything reminding him of the sea had been a misery to him。 He would not then have believed anyone who had told him that he would really hear of his appointment and be so little glad。 Yet for two whole years the loss of the hope had weighed on him; and made him dull whenever he thought of grown…up life; heard of the sea; or was asked what he was to be: and almost always; at his prayers; he had that meaning in his mind; when he said 〃Thy Will be do