f　romance。　how　grave　you　are！　dont　be　so　serious。　what　have　you　or　i　to　do　with　the　superstitions　of　our　age？　no：　we　have　given　up　our　belief　in　the　soul。　play　me　something。　play　me　a　nocturne；　dorian；　and；　as　you　play；　tell　me；　in　a　low　voice；　how　you　have　kept　your　youth。　you　must　have　some　secret。　i　am　only　ten　years　older　than　you　are；　and　i　am　wrinkled；　and　worn；　and　yellow。　you　are　really　wonderful；　dorian。　you　have　never　looked　more　charming　than　you　do　to…night。　you　remind　me　of　the　day　i　saw　you　first。　you　were　rather　cheeky；　very　shy；　and　absolutely　extraordinary。　you　have　changed；　of　course；　but　not　in　appearance。　i　wish　you　would　tell　me　your　secret。　to　get　back　my　youth　i　would　do　anything　in　the　world；　except　take　exercise；　get　up　early；　or　be　respectable。　youth！　there　is　nothing　like　it。　its　absurd　to　talk　of　the　ignorance　of　youth。　the　only　people　to　whose　opinions　i　listen　now　with　any　respect　are　people　much　younger　than　myself。　they　seem　in　front　of　me。　life　has　revealed　to　them　her　latest　wonder。　as　for　the　aged；　i　always　contradict　the　aged。　i　do　it　on　principle。　if　you　ask　them　their　opinion　on　something　that　happened　yesterday；　they　solemnly　give　you　the　opinions　current　in　1820；　when　people　wore　high　stocks；　believed　in　everything；　and　knew　absolutely　nothing。　how　lovely　that　thing　you　are　playing　is！　i　wonder；　did　chopin　write　it　at　majorca；　with　the　sea　weeping　round　the　villa　and　the　salt　spray　dashing　against　the　panes？　it　is　marvellously　romantic。　what　a　blessing　it　is　that　there　is　one　art　left　to　us　that　is　not　imitative！　dont　stop。　i　want　music　to…night。　it　seems　to　me　that　you　are　the　young　apollo　and　that　i　am　marsyas　listening　to　you。　i　have　sorrows；　dorian；　of　my　own；　that　even　you　know　nothing　of。　the　tragedy　of　old　age　is　not　that　one　is　old；　but　that　one　is　young。　i　am　amazed　sometimes　at　my　own　sincerity。　ah；　dorian；　how　happy　you　are！　what　an　exquisite　life　you　have　had！　you　have　drunk　deeply　of　everything。　you　have　crushed　the　grapes　against　your　palate。　nothing　has　been　hidden　from　you。　and　it　has　all　been　to　you　no　more　than　the　sound　of　music。　it　has　not　marred　you。　you　are　still　the　same。〃
  〃i　am　not　the　same；　harry。〃
  〃yes；　you　are　the　same。　i　wonder　what　the　rest　of　your　life　will　be。　dont　spoil　it　by　renunciations。　at　present　you　are　a　perfect　type。　dont　make　yourself　inplete。　you　are　quite　flawless　now。　you　need　not　shake　your　head：　you　know　you　are。　besides；　dorian；　dont　deceive　yourself。　life　is　not　governed　by　will　or　intention。　life　is　a　question　of　nerves；　and　fibres；　and　slowly　built…up　cells　in　which　thought　hides　itself　and　passion　has　its　dreams。　you　may　fancy　yourself　safe　and　think　yourself　strong。　but　a　chance　tone　of　colour　in　a　room　or　a　morning　sky；　a　particular　perfume　that　you　had　once　loved　and　that　brings　subtle　memories　with　it；　a　line　from　a　forgotten　poem　that　you　had　e　across　again；　a　cadence　from　a　piece　of　music　that　you　had　ceased　to　play　i　tell　you；　dorian；　that　it　is　on　things　like　these　that　our　lives　depend。　browning　writes　about　that　somewhere；　but　our　own　senses　will　imagine　them　for　us。　there　are　moments　when　the　odour　of　lilas　blanc　passes　suddenly　across　me；　and　i　have　to　live　the　strangest　month　of　my　life　over　again。　i　wish　i　could　change　places　with　you；　dorian。　the　world　has　cried　out　against　us　both；　but　it　has　always　worshipped　you。　it　always　will　worship　you。　you　are　the　type　of　what　the　age　is　searching　for；　and　what　it　is　afraid　it　has　found。　i　am　so　glad　that　you　have　never　done　anything；　never　carved　a　statue；　or　painted　a　picture；　or　produced　anything　outside　of　yourself！　life　has　been　your　art。　you　have　set　yourself　to　music。　your　days　are　your　sonnets。〃
  dorian　rose　up　from　the　piano　and　passed　his　hand　through　his　hair。　〃yes；　life　has　been　exquisite；〃　he　murmured；　〃but　i　am　not　going　to　have　the　same　life；　harry。　and　you　must　not　say　these　extravagant　things　to　me。　you　dont　know　everything　about　me。　i　think　that　if　you　did；　even　you　would　turn　from　me。　you　laugh。　dont　laugh。〃
  〃why　have　you　stopped　playing；　dorian？　go　back　and　give　me　the　nocturne　over　again。　look　at　that　great；　honey…coloured　moon　that　hangs　in　the　dusky　air。　she　is　waiting　for　you　to　charm　her；　and　if　you　play　she　will　e　closer　to　the　earth。　you　wont？　let　us　go　to　the　club；　then。　it　has　been　a　charming　evening；　and　we　must　end　it　charmingly。　there　is　some　one　at　whites　who　wants　immensely　to　know　youyoung　lord　poole；　bournemouths　eldest　son。　he　has　already　copied　your　neckties；　and　has　begged　me　to　introduce　him　to　you。　he　is　quite　delightful　and　rather　reminds　me　of　you。〃
  〃i　hope　not；〃　said　dorian　with　a　sad　look　in　his　eyes。　〃but　i　am　tired　to…night；　harry。　i　shant　go　to　the　club。　it　is　nearly　eleven；　and　i　want　to　go　to　bed　early。〃
  〃do　stay。　you　have　never　played　so　well　as　to…night。　there　was　something　in　your　touch　that　was　wonderful。　it　had　more　expression　than　i　had　ever　heard　from　it　before。〃
  〃it　is　because　i　am　going　to　be　good；〃　he　answered；　smiling。　〃i　am　a　little　changed　already。〃
  〃you　cannot　change　to　me；　dorian；〃　said　lord　henry。　〃you　and　i　will　always　be　friends。〃
  〃yet　you　poisoned　me　with　a　book　once。　i　should　not　forgive　that。　harry；　promise　me　that　you　will　never　lend　that　book　to　any　one。　it　does　harm。〃
  〃my　dear　boy；　you　are　really　beginning　to　moralize。　you　will　soon　be　going　about　like　the　converted；　and　the　revivalist；　warning　people　against　all　the　sins　of　which　you　have　grown　tired。　you　are　much　too　delightful　to　do　that。　besides；　it　is　no　use。　you　and　i　are　what　we　are；　and　will　be　what　we　will　be。　as　for　being　poisoned　by　a　book；　there　is　no　such　thing　as　that。　art　has　no　influence　upon　action。　it　annihilates　the　desire　to　act。　it　is　superbly　sterile。　the　books　that　the　world　calls　immoral　are　books　that　show　the　world　its　own　shame。　that　is　all。　but　we　wont　discuss　literature。　e　round　to…morrow。　i　am　going　to　ride　at　eleven。　we　might　go　together；　and　i　will　take　you　to　lunch　afterwards　with　lady　branksome。　she　is　a　charming　woman；　and　wants　to　consult　you　about　some　tapestries　she　is　thinking　of　buying。　mind　you　e。　or　shall　we　lunch　with　our　little　duchess？　she　says　she　never　sees　you　now。　perhaps　you　are　tired　of　gladys？　i　thought　you　would　be。　her　clever　tongue　gets　on　ones　nerves。　well；　in　any　case；　be　here　at　eleven。〃
  〃must　i　really　e；　harry？〃
  〃certainly。　the　park　is　quite　lovely　now。　i　dont　think　there　have　been　such　lilacs　since　the　year　i　met　you。〃
  〃very　well。　i　shall　be　here　at　eleven；〃　said　dorian。　〃good　night；　harry。〃　as　he　reached　the　door；　he　hesitated　for　a　moment；　as　if　he　had　something　more　to　say。　then　he　sighed　and　went　out。
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  Chapter　20
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  chapter　20
  it　was　a　lovely　night；　so　warm　that　he　threw　his　coat　over　his　arm　and　did　not　even　put　his　silk　scarf　round　his　throat。　as　he　strolled　home；　smoking　his　cigarette；　two　young　men　in　evening　dress　passed　him。　he　heard　one　of　them　whisper　to　the　other；　〃that　is　dorian　gray。〃　he　remembered　how　pleased　he　used　to　be　when　he　was　pointed　out；　or　stared　at；　or　talked　about。　he　was　tired　of　hearing　his　own　name　now。　half　the　charm　of　the　little　village　where　he　had　been　so　often　lately　was　that　no　one　knew　who　he　was。　he　had　often　told　the　girl　whom　he　had　lured　to　love　him　that　he　was　poor；　and　she　had　believed　him。　he　had　told　her　once　that　he　was　wicked；　and　she　had　laughed　at　him　and　answered　that　wicked　people　were　always　very　old　and　very　ugly。　what　a　laugh　she　had！just　like　a　thrush　singing。　and　how　pretty　she　had　been　in　her　cotton　dresses　and　her　large　hats！　she　knew　nothing；　but　she　had　everything　that　he　had　lost。
  when　he　reached　home；　he　found　his　servant　waiting　up　for　him。　he　sent　him　to　bed；　and　threw　himself　down　on　the　sofa　in　the　library；　and　began　to　think　over　some　of　the　things　that　lord　henry　had　said　to　him。
  was　it　really　true　that　one　could　never　change？　he　felt　a　wild　longing　for　the　unstained　purity　of　his　boyhood　his　rose…white　boyhood；　as　lord　henry　had　once　called　it。　he　knew　that　he　had　tarnished　himself；　filled　his　mind　with　corruption　and　given　horror　to　his　fancy；　that　he　had　been　an　evil　influence　to　others；　and　had　experienced　a　terrible　joy　in　being　so；　and　that　of　the　lives　that　had　crossed　his　own；　it　had　been　the　fairest　and　the　most　full　of　promise　that　he　had　brought　to　shame。　but　was　it　all　irretrievable？　was　there　no　hope　for　him？
  ah！　in　what　a　monstrous　moment　of　pride　and　passion　he　had　prayed　that　the　portrait　should　bear　the　burden　of　his　days；　and　he　keep　the　unsullied　splendour　of　eternal　youth！　all　his　failure　had　been　due　to　that。　better　for　him　that　each　sin　of　his　life　had　brought　its　sure　swift　penalty　along　with　it。　there　was　purification　in　punishment。　not　〃forgive　us　our　sins〃　but　〃smite　us　for　our　iniquities〃　should　be　the　prayer　of　man　to　a　most　just　god。
  the　curiously　carved　mirror　that　lord　henry　had　given　to　him；　so　many　years　ago　now；　was　standing　on　the　table；　and　the　white…limbed　cupids　laughed　round　it　as　of　old。　he　took　it　up；　as　he　had　done　on　that　night　of　horror　when　be　had　first　noted　the　change　in　the　fatal　picture；　and　with　wild；　tear…dimmed　eyes　looked　into　its　polished　shield。　once；　some　one　who　had　terribly　l