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wanted a missionary。 How d’ye do; Barkis? I hope you’re well?’
Encouraged by these gracious words; and by my aunt’s
extending her hand; Barkis came forward; and took the hand; and
curtseyed her acknowledgements。
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‘We are older than we were; I see;’ said my aunt。 ‘We have only
met each other once before; you know。 A nice business we made
of it then! Trot; my dear; another cup。’
I handed it dutifully to my aunt; who was in her usual inflexible
state of figure; and ventured a remonstrance with her on the
subject of her sitting on a box。
‘Let me draw the sofa here; or the easy…chair; aunt;’ said I。
‘Why should you be so uncomfortable?’
‘Thank you; Trot;’ replied my aunt; ‘I prefer to sit upon my
property。’ Here my aunt looked hard at Mrs。 Crupp; and
observed; ‘We needn’t trouble you to wait; ma’am。’
‘Shall I put a little more tea in the pot afore I go; ma’am?’ said
Mrs。 Crupp。
‘No; I thank you; ma’am;’ replied my aunt。
‘Would you let me fetch another pat of butter; ma’am?’ said
Mrs。 Crupp。 ‘Or would you be persuaded to try a new…laid hegg?
or should I brile a rasher? Ain’t there nothing I could do for your
dear aunt; Mr。 Copperfull?’
‘Nothing; ma’am;’ returned my aunt。 ‘I shall do very well; I
thank you。’
Mrs。 Crupp; who had been incessantly smiling to express sweet
temper; and incessantly holding her head on one side; to express a
general feebleness of constitution; and incessantly rubbing her
hands; to express a desire to be of service to all deserving objects;
gradually smiled herself; one…sided herself; and rubbed herself;
out of the room。 ‘Dick!’ said my aunt。 ‘You know what I told you
about time…servers and wealth…worshippers?’
Mr。 Dick—with rather a scared look; as if he had forgotten it—
returned a hasty answer in the affirmative。
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‘Mrs。 Crupp is one of them;’ said my aunt。 ‘Barkis; I’ll trouble
you to look after the tea; and let me have another cup; for I don’t
fancy that woman’s pouring…out!’
I knew my aunt sufficiently well to know that she had
something of importance on her mind; and that there was far more
matter in this arrival than a stranger might have supposed。 I
noticed how her eye lighted on me; when she thought my attention
otherwise occupied; and what a curious process of hesitation
appeared to be going on within her; while she preserved her
outward stiffness and composure。 I began to reflect whether I had
done anything to offend her; and my conscience whispered me
that I had not yet told her about Dora。 Could it by any means be
that; I wondered!
As I knew she would only speak in her own good time; I sat
down near her; and spoke to the birds; and played with the cat;
and was as easy as I could be。 But I was very far from being really
easy; and I should still have been so; even if Mr。 Dick; leaning over
the great kite behind my aunt; had not taken every secret
opportunity of shaking his head darkly at me; and pointing at her。
‘Trot;’ said my aunt at last; when she had finished her tea; and
carefully smoothed down her dress; and wiped her lips—‘you
needn’t go; Barkis!—Trot; have you got to be firm and self…
reliant?’
‘I hope so; aunt。’
‘What do you think?’ inquired Miss Betsey。
‘I think so; aunt。’
‘Then why; my love;’ said my aunt; looking earnestly at me;
‘why do you think I prefer to sit upon this property of mine
tonight?’
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I shook my head; unable to guess。
‘Because;’ said my aunt; ‘it’s all I have。 Because I’m ruined; my
dear!’
If the house; and every one of us; had tumbled out into the river
together; I could hardly have received a greater shock。
‘Dick knows it;’ said my aunt; laying her hand calmly on my
shoulder。 ‘I am ruined; my dear Trot! All I have in the world is in
this room; except the cottage; and that I have left Janet to let。
Barkis; I want to get a bed for this gentleman tonight。 To save
expense; perhaps you can make up something here for myself。
Anything will do。 It’s only for tonight。 We’ll talk about this; more;
tomorrow。’
I was roused from my amazement; and concern for her—I am
sure; for her—by her falling on my neck; for a moment; and crying
that she only grieved for me。 In another moment she suppressed
this emotion; and said with an aspect more triumphant than
dejected:
‘We must meet reverses boldly; and not suffer them to frighten
us; my dear。 We must learn to act the play out。 We must live
misfortune down; Trot!’
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Chapter 35
DEPRESSION
As soon as I could recover my presence of mind; which
quite deserted me in the first overpowering shock of my
aunt’s intelligence; I proposed to Mr。 Dick to come round
to the chandler’s shop; and take possession of the bed which Mr。
Peggotty had lately vacated。 The chandler’s shop being in
Hungerford Market; and Hungerford Market being a very
different place in those days; there was a low wooden colonnade
before the door (not very unlike that before the house where the
little man and woman used to live; in the old weather…glass); which
pleased Mr。 Dick mightily。 The glory of lodging over this structure
would have compensated him; I dare say; for many
inconveniences; but; as there were really few to bear; beyond the
compound of flavours I have already mentioned; and perhaps the
want of a little more elbow…room; he was perfectly charmed with
his accommodation。 Mrs。 Crupp had indignantly assured him that
there wasn’t room to swing a cat there; but; as Mr。 Dick justly
observed to me; sitting down on the foot of the bed; nursing his
leg; ‘You know; Trotwood; I don’t want to swing a cat。 I never do
swing a cat。 Therefore; what does that signify to me!’
I tried to ascertain whether Mr。 Dick had any understanding of
the causes of this sudden and great change in my aunt’s affairs。
As I might have expected; he had none at all。 The only account he
could give of it was; that my aunt had said to him; the day before
yesterday; ‘Now; Dick; are you really and truly the philosopher I
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take you for?’ That then he had said; Yes; he hoped so。 That then
my aunt had said; ‘Dick; I am ruined。’ That then he had said; ‘Oh;
indeed!’ That then my aunt had praised him highly; which he was
glad of。 And that then they had come to me; and had had bottled
porter and sandwiches on the road。
Mr。 Dick was so very complacent; sitting on the foot of the bed;
nursing his leg; and telling me this; with his eyes wide open and a
surprised smile; that I am sorry to say I was provoked into
explaining to him that ruin meant distress; want; and starvation;
but I was soon bitterly reproved for this harshness; by seeing his
face turn pale; and tears course down his lengthened cheeks; while
he fixed upon me a look of such unutterable woe; that it might
have softened a far harder heart than mine。 I took infinitely
greater pains to cheer him up again than I had taken to depress
him; and I soon understood (as I ought to have known at first) that
he had been so confident; merely because of his faith in the wisest
and most wonderful of women; and his unbounded reliance on my
intellectual resources。 The latter; I believe; he considered a match
for any kind of disaster not absolutely mortal。
‘What can we do; Trotwood?’ said Mr。 Dick。 ‘There’s the
Memorial—’
‘To be sure there is;’ said I。 ‘But all we can do just now; Mr。
Dick; is to keep a cheerful countenance; and not let my aunt see
that we are thinking about it。’
He assented to this in the most earnest manner; and implored
me; if I should see him wandering an inch out of the right course;
to recall him by some of those superior methods which were
always at my command。 But I regret to state that the fright I had
given him proved too much for his best attempts at concealment。
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All the evening his eyes wandered to my aunt’s face; with an
expression of the most dismal apprehension; as if he saw her
growing thin on the spot。 He was conscious of this; and put a
constraint upon his head; but his keeping that immovable; and
sitting rolling his eyes like a piece of machinery; did not mend the
matter at all。 I saw him look at the loaf at supper (which happened
to be a small one); as if nothing else stood between us and famine;
and when my aunt insisted on his making his customary repast; I
detected him in the act of pocketing fragments of his bread and
cheese; I have no doubt for the purpose of reviving us with those
savings; when we should have reached an advanced stage of
attenuation。
My aunt; on the other hand; was in a composed frame of mind;
which was a lesson to all of us—to me; I am sure。 She was
extremely gracious to Peggotty; except