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  weights that she was quite unequal to; and fagging to and fro on
  all sorts of unnecessary errands。 As to deploring her misfortunes;
  she appeared to have entirely lost the recollection of ever having
  had any。 She preserved an equable cheerfulness in the midst of
  her sympathy; which was not the least astonishing part of the
  change that had come over her。 Querulousness was out of the
  question。 I did not even observe her voice to falter; or a tear to
  escape from her eyes; the whole day through; until twilight; when
  she and I and Mr。 Peggotty being alone together; and he having
  fallen asleep in perfect exhaustion; she broke into a half…
  suppressed fit of sobbing and crying; and taking me to the door;
  said; ‘Ever bless you; Mas’r Davy; be a friend to him; poor dear!’
  Then; she immediately ran out of the house to wash her face; in
  order that she might sit quietly beside him; and be found at work
  there; when he should awake。 In short I left her; when I went away
  at night; the prop and staff of Mr。 Peggotty’s affliction; and I could
  not meditate enough upon the lesson that I read in Mrs。
  Gummidge; and the new experience she unfolded to me。
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  It was between nine and ten o’clock when; strolling in a
  melancholy manner through the town; I stopped at Mr。 Omer’s
  door。 Mr。 Omer had taken it so much to heart; his daughter told
  me; that he had been very low and poorly all day; and had gone to
  bed without his pipe。
  ‘A deceitful; bad…hearted girl;’ said Mrs。 Joram。 ‘There was no
  good in her; ever!’
  ‘Don’t say so;’ I returned。 ‘You don’t think so。’
  ‘Yes; I do!’ cried Mrs。 Joram; angrily。
  ‘No; no;’ said I。
  Mrs。 Joram tossed her head; endeavouring to be very stern and
  cross; but she could not command her softer self; and began to cry。
  I was young; to be sure; but I thought much the better of her for
  this sympathy; and fancied it became her; as a virtuous wife and
  mother; very well indeed。
  ‘What will she ever do!’ sobbed Minnie。 ‘Where will she go!
  What will become of her! Oh; how could she be so cruel; to herself
  and him!’
  I remembered the time when Minnie was a young and pretty
  girl; and I was glad she remembered it too; so feelingly。
  ‘My little Minnie;’ said Mrs。 Joram; ‘has only just now been got
  to sleep。 Even in her sleep she is sobbing for Em’ly。 All day long;
  little Minnie has cried for her; and asked me; over and over again;
  whether Em’ly was wicked? What can I say to her; when Em’ly
  tied a ribbon off her own neck round little Minnie’s the last night
  she was here; and laid her head down on the pillow beside her till
  she was fast asleep! The ribbon’s round my little Minnie’s neck
  now。 It ought not to be; perhaps; but what can I do? Em’ly is very
  bad; but they were fond of one another。 And the child knows
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  nothing!’
  Mrs。 Joram was so unhappy that her husband came out to take
  care of her。 Leaving them together; I went home to Peggotty’s;
  more melancholy myself; if possible; than I had been yet。
  That good creature—I mean Peggotty—all untired by her late
  anxieties and sleepless nights; was at her brother’s; where she
  meant to stay till morning。 An old woman; who had been
  employed about the house for some weeks past; while Peggotty
  had been unable to attend to it; was the house’s only other
  occupant besides myself。 As I had no occasion for her services; I
  sent her to bed; by no means against her will; and sat down before
  the kitchen fire a little while; to think about all this。
  I was blending it with the deathbed of the late Mr。 Barkis; and
  was driving out with the tide towards the distance at which Ham
  had looked so singularly in the morning; when I was recalled from
  my wanderings by a knock at the door。 There was a knocker upon
  the door; but it was not that which made the sound。 The tap was
  from a hand; and low down upon the door; as if it were given by a
  child。
  It made me start as much as if it had been the knock of a
  footman to a person of distinction。 I opened the door; and at first
  looked down; to my amazement; on nothing but a great umbrella
  that appeared to be walking about of itself。 But presently I
  discovered underneath it; Miss Mowcher。
  I might not have been prepared to give the little creature a very
  kind reception; if; on her removing the umbrella; which her
  utmost efforts were unable to shut up; she had shown me the
  ‘volatile’ expression of face which had made so great an
  impression on me at our first and last meeting。 But her face; as she
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  turned it up to mine; was so earnest; and when I relieved her of
  the umbrella (which would have been an inconvenient one for the
  Irish Giant); she wrung her little hands in such an afflicted
  manner; that I rather inclined towards her。
  ‘Miss Mowcher!’ said I; after glancing up and down the empty
  street; without distinctly knowing what I expected to see besides;
  ‘how do you come here? What is the matter?’ She motioned to me
  with her short right arm; to shut the umbrella for her; and passing
  me hurriedly; went into the kitchen。 When I had closed the door;
  and followed; with the umbrella in my hand; I found her sitting on
  the corner of the fender—it was a low iron one; with two flat bars
  at top to stand plates upon—in the shadow of the boiler; swaying
  herself backwards and forwards; and chafing her hands upon her
  knees like a person in pain。
  Quite alarmed at being the only recipient of this untimely visit;
  and the only spectator of this portentous behaviour; I exclaimed
  again; ‘Pray tell me; Miss Mowcher; what is the matter! are you
  ill?’
  ‘My dear young soul;’ returned Miss Mowcher; squeezing her
  hands upon her heart one over the other。 ‘I am ill here; I am very
  ill。 To think that it should come to this; when I might have known
  it and perhaps prevented it; if I hadn’t been a thoughtless fool!’
  Again her large bonnet (very disproportionate to the figure)
  went backwards and forwards; in her swaying of her little body to
  and fro; while a most gigantic bonnet rocked; in unison with it;
  upon the wall。
  ‘I am surprised;’ I began; ‘to see you so distressed and
  serious’—when she interrupted me。
  ‘Yes; it’s always so!’ she said。 ‘They are all surprised; these
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  inconsiderate young people; fairly and full grown; to see any
  natural feeling in a little thing like me! They make a plaything of
  me; use me for their amusement; throw me away when they are
  tired; and wonder that I feel more than a toy horse or a wooden
  soldier! Yes; yes; that’s the way。 The old way!’
  ‘It may be; with others;’ I returned; ‘but I do assure you it is not
  with me。 Perhaps I ought not to be at all surprised to see you as
  you are now: I know so little of you。 I said; without consideration;
  what I thought。’
  ‘What can I do?’ returned the little woman; standing up; and
  holding out her arms to show herself。 ‘See! What I am; my father
  was; and my sister is; and my brother is。 I have worked for sister
  and brother these many years—hard; Mr。 Copperfield—all day。 I
  must live。 I do no harm。 If there are people so unreflecting or so
  cruel; as to make a jest of me; what is left for me to do but to make
  a jest of myself; them; and everything? If I do so; for the time;
  whose fault is that? Mine?’
  No。 Not Miss Mowcher’s; I perceived。
  ‘If I had shown myself a sensitive dwarf to your false friend;’
  pursued the little woman; shaking her head at me; with
  reproachful earnestness; ‘how much of his help or good will do you
  think I should ever have had? If little Mowcher (who had no hand;
  young gentleman; in the making of herself) addressed herself to
  him; or the like of him; because of her misfortunes; when do you
  suppose her small voice would have been heard? Little Mowcher
  would have as much need to live; if she was the bitterest and
  dullest of pigmies; but she couldn’t do it。 No。 She might whistle for
  her bread and butter till she died of Air。’
  Miss Mowcher sat down on the fender again; and took out her
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  handkerchief; and wiped her eyes。
  ‘Be thankful for me; if you have a kind heart; as I think you
  have;’ she said; ‘that while I know well what I am; I can be cheerful
  and endure it all。 I am thankful for myself; at any rate; that I can
  find my tiny way through the world; without being beholden to
  anyone; and that in return for all that is thrown at me; in folly or
  vanity; as I go along; I can throw bubbles back。 If I don’t brood
  over all I want; it is the better for me; and not the worse for
  anyone。 If I am a plaything for you giants; be gentle with me。’
  Miss Mowcher replaced her handkerchief in her pocket; looking
  at me with very intent expression all the while; and pursued:
  ‘I saw you in the street just now。 You may suppose I am not
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