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  insert Miss Shepherd’s name—I put her in among the Royal
  Family。 At home; in my own room; I am sometimes moved to cry
  out; ‘Oh; Miss Shepherd!’ in a transport of love。
  For some time; I am doubtful of Miss Shepherd’s feelings; but;
  at length; Fate being propitious; we meet at the dancing…school。 I
  have Miss Shepherd for my partner。 I touch Miss Shepherd’s
  glove; and feel a thrill go up the right arm of my jacket; and come
  out at my hair。 I say nothing to Miss Shepherd; but we understand
  each other。 Miss Shepherd and myself live but to be united。
  Why do I secretly give Miss Shepherd twelve Brazil nuts for a
  present; I wonder? They are not expressive of affection; they are
  difficult to pack into a parcel of any regular shape; they are hard to
  crack; even in room doors; and they are oily when cracked; yet I
  feel that they are appropriate to Miss Shepherd。 Soft; seedy
  biscuits; also; I bestow upon Miss Shepherd; and oranges
  innumerable。 Once; I kiss Miss Shepherd in the cloak…room。
  Ecstasy! What are my agony and indignation next day; when I
  hear a flying rumour that the Misses Nettingall have stood Miss
  Shepherd in the stocks for turning in her toes!
  Miss Shepherd being the one pervading theme and vision of my
  life; how do I ever come to break with her? I can’t conceive。 And
  yet a coolness grows between Miss Shepherd and myself。
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  Whispers reach me of Miss Shepherd having said she wished I
  wouldn’t stare so; and having avowed a preference for Master
  Jones—for Jones! a boy of no merit whatever! The gulf between
  me and Miss Shepherd widens。 At last; one day; I meet the Misses
  Nettingalls’ establishment out walking。 Miss Shepherd makes a
  face as she goes by; and laughs to her companion。 All is over。 The
  devotion of a life—it seems a life; it is all the same—is at an end;
  Miss Shepherd comes out of the morning service; and the Royal
  Family know her no more。
  I am higher in the school; and no one breaks my peace。 I am not
  at all polite; now; to the Misses Nettingalls’ young ladies; and
  shouldn’t dote on any of them; if they were twice as many and
  twenty times as beautiful。 I think the dancing…school a tiresome
  affair; and wonder why the girls can’t dance by themselves and
  leave us alone。 I am growing great in Latin verses; and neglect the
  laces of my boots。 Doctor Strong refers to me in public as a
  promising young scholar。 Mr。 Dick is wild with joy; and my aunt
  remits me a guinea by the next post。
  The shade of a young butcher rises; like the apparition of an
  armed head in Macbeth。 Who is this young butcher? He is the
  terror of the youth of Canterbury。 There is a vague belief abroad;
  that the beef suet with which he anoints his hair gives him
  unnatural strength; and that he is a match for a man。 He is a
  broad…faced; bull…necked; young butcher; with rough red cheeks;
  an ill…conditioned mind; and an injurious tongue。 His main use of
  this tongue; is; to disparage Doctor Strong’s young gentlemen。 He
  says; publicly; that if they want anything he’ll give it ’em。 He
  names individuals among them (myself included); whom he could
  undertake to settle with one hand; and the other tied behind him。
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  He waylays the smaller boys to punch their unprotected heads;
  and calls challenges after me in the open streets。 For these
  sufficient reasons I resolve to fight the butcher。
  It is a summer evening; down in a green hollow; at the corner of
  a wall。 I meet the butcher by appointment。 I am attended by a
  select body of our boys; the butcher; by two other butchers; a
  young publican; and a sweep。 The preliminaries are adjusted; and
  the butcher and myself stand face to face。 In a moment the
  butcher lights ten thousand candles out of my left eyebrow。 In
  another moment; I don’t know where the wall is; or where I am; or
  where anybody is。 I hardly know which is myself and which the
  butcher; we are always in such a tangle and tussle; knocking about
  upon the trodden grass。 Sometimes I see the butcher; bloody but
  confident; sometimes I see nothing; and sit gasping on my
  second’s knee; sometimes I go in at the butcher madly; and cut my
  knuckles open against his face; without appearing to discompose
  him at all。 At last I awake; very queer about the head; as from a
  giddy sleep; and see the butcher walking off; congratulated by the
  two other butchers and the sweep and publican; and putting on
  his coat as he goes; from which I augur; justly; that the victory is
  his。
  I am taken home in a sad plight; and I have beef…steaks put to
  my eyes; and am rubbed with vinegar and brandy; and find a great
  puffy place bursting out on my upper lip; which swells
  immoderately。 For three or four days I remain at home; a very ill…
  looking subject; with a green shade over my eyes; and I should be
  very dull; but that Agnes is a sister to me; and condoles with me;
  and reads to me; and makes the time light and happy。 Agnes has
  my confidence completely; always; I tell her all about the butcher;
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  and the wrongs he has heaped upon me; she thinks I couldn’t have
  done otherwise than fight the butcher; while she shrinks and
  trembles at my having fought him。
  Time has stolen on unobserved; for Adams is not the head…boy
  in the days that are come now; nor has he been this many and
  many a day。 Adams has left the school so long; that when he comes
  back; on a visit to Doctor Strong; there are not many there; besides
  myself; who know him。 Adams is going to be called to the bar
  almost directly; and is to be an advocate; and to wear a wig。 I am
  surprised to find him a meeker man than I had thought; and less
  imposing in appearance。 He has not staggered the world yet;
  either; for it goes on (as well as I can make out) pretty much the
  same as if he had never joined it。
  A blank; through which the warriors of poetry and history
  march on in stately hosts that seem to have no end—and what
  comes next! I am the head…boy; now! I look down on the line of
  boys below me; with a condescending interest in such of them as
  bring to my mind the boy I was myself; when I first came there。
  That little fellow seems to be no part of me; I remember him as
  something left behind upon the road of life—as something I have
  passed; rather than have actually been—and almost think of him
  as of someone else。
  And the little girl I saw on that first day at Mr。 Wickfield’s;
  where is she? Gone also。 In her stead; the perfect likeness of the
  picture; a child likeness no more; moves about the house; and
  Agnes—my sweet sister; as I call her in my thoughts; my
  counsellor and friend; the better angel of the lives of all who come
  within her calm; good; self…denying influence—is quite a woman。
  What other changes have come upon me; besides the changes
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  in my growth and looks; and in the knowledge I have garnered all
  this while? I wear a gold watch and chain; a ring upon my little
  finger; and a long…tailed coat; and I use a great deal of bear’s
  grease—which; taken in conjunction with the ring; looks bad。 Am I
  in love again? I am。 I worship the eldest Miss Larkins。
  The eldest Miss Larkins is not a little girl。 She is a tall; dark;
  black…eyed; fine figure of a woman。 The eldest Miss Larkins is not
  a chicken; for the youngest Miss Larkins is not that; and the eldest
  must be three or four years older。 Perhaps the eldest Miss Larkins
  may be about thirty。 My passion for her is beyond all bounds。
  The eldest Miss Larkins knows officers。 It is an awful thing to
  bear。 I see them speaking to her in the street。 I see them cross the
  way to meet her; when her bonnet (she has a bright taste in
  bonnets) is seen coming down the pavement; accompanied by her
  sister’s bonnet。 She laughs and talks; and seems to like it。 I spend
  a good deal of my own spare time in walking up and down to meet
  her。 If I can bow to her once in the day (I know her to bow to;
  knowing Mr。 Larkins); I am happier。 I deserve a bow now and
  then。 The raging agonies I suffer on the night of the Race Ball;
  where I know the eldest Miss Larkins will be dancing with the
  military; ought to have some compensation; if there be evenhanded justice in the world。
  My passion takes away my appetite; and makes me wear my
  newest silk neckerchief continually。 I have no relief but in putting
  on my best clothes; and having my boots cleaned over and over
  again。 I seem; then; to be worthier of the eldest Miss Larkins。
  Everything that belongs to her; or is connected with her; is
  precious to me。 Mr。 Larkins (a gruff old gentleman with a double
  chin; and one of his eyes immovable in his head) is fraught with
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  interest to me。 When I can’t meet his daughter; I go where I am
  likely to meet him。 To say ‘How do you do; Mr。 Larkins? Are the
  young ladies and all the family quite well?’ seems so pointed; that