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perfectly covered with a great brass…plate; on which was engraved
‘Mrs。 Micawber’s Boarding Establishment for Young Ladies’: but I
never found that any young lady had ever been to school there; or
that any young lady ever came; or proposed to come; or that the
least preparation was ever made to receive any young lady。 The
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only visitors I ever saw; or heard of; were creditors。 They used to
come at all hours; and some of them were quite ferocious。 One
dirty…faced man; I think he was a boot…maker; used to edge himself
into the passage as early as seven o’clock in the morning; and call
up the stairs to Mr。 Micawber—‘Come! You ain’t out yet; you
know。 Pay us; will you? Don’t hide; you know; that’s mean。 I
wouldn’t be mean if I was you。 Pay us; will you? You just pay us;
d’ye hear? Come!’ Receiving no answer to these taunts; he would
mount in his wrath to the words ‘swindlers’ and ‘robbers’; and
these being ineffectual too; would sometimes go to the extremity of
crossing the street; and roaring up at the windows of the second
floor; where he knew Mr。 Micawber was。 At these times; Mr。
Micawber would be transported with grief and mortification; even
to the length (as I was once made aware by a scream from his wife)
of making motions at himself with a razor; but within half…an…hour
afterwards; he would polish up his shoes with extraordinary pains;
and go out; humming a tune with a greater air of gentility than
ever。 Mrs。 Micawber was quite as elastic。 I have known her to be
thrown into fainting fits by the king’s taxes at three o’clock; and to
eat lamb chops; breaded; and drink warm ale (paid for with two
tea…spoons that had gone to the pawnbroker’s) at four。 On one
occasion; when an execution had just been put in; coming home
through some chance as early as six o’clock; I saw her lying (of
course with a twin) under the grate in a swoon; with her hair all
torn about her face; but I never knew her more cheerful than she
was; that very same night; over a veal cutlet before the kitchen
fire; telling me stories about her papa and mama; and the
company they used to keep。
In this house; and with this family; I passed my leisure time。 My
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own exclusive breakfast of a penny loaf and a pennyworth of milk;
I provided myself。 I kept another small loaf; and a modicum of
cheese; on a particular shelf of a particular cupboard; to make my
supper on when I came back at night。 This made a hole in the six
or seven shillings; I know well; and I was out at the warehouse all
day; and had to support myself on that money all the week。 From
Monday morning until Saturday night; I had no advice; no
counsel; no encouragement; no consolation; no assistance; no
support; of any kind; from anyone; that I can call to mind; as I
hope to go to heaven!
I was so young and childish; and so little qualified—how could I
be otherwise?—to undertake the whole charge of my own
existence; that often; in going to Murdstone and Grinby’s; of a
morning; I could not resist the stale pastry put out for sale at half…
price at the pastrycooks’ doors; and spent in that the money I
should have kept for my dinner。 Then; I went without my dinner;
or bought a roll or a slice of pudding。 I remember two pudding
shops; between which I was divided; according to my finances。
One was in a court close to St。 Martin’s Church—at the back of the
church;—which is now removed altogether。 The pudding at that
shop was made of currants; and was rather a special pudding; but
was dear; twopennyworth not being larger than a pennyworth of
more ordinary pudding。 A good shop for the latter was in the
Strand—somewhere in that part which has been rebuilt since。 It
was a stout pale pudding; heavy and flabby; and with great flat
raisins in it; stuck in whole at wide distances apart。 It came up hot
at about my time every day; and many a day did I dine off it。 When
I dined regularly and handsomely; I had a saveloy and a penny
loaf; or a fourpenny plate of red beef from a cook’s shop; or a plate
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of bread and cheese and a glass of beer; from a miserable old
public…house opposite our place of business; called the Lion; or the
Lion and something else that I have forgotten。 Once; I remember
carrying my own bread (which I had brought from home in the
morning) under my arm; wrapped in a piece of paper; like a book;
and going to a famous alamode beef…house near Drury Lane; and
ordering a ‘small plate’ of that delicacy to eat with it。 What the
waiter thought of such a strange little apparition coming in all
alone; I don’t know; but I can see him now; staring at me as I ate
my dinner; and bringing up the other waiter to look。 I gave him a
halfpenny for himself; and I wish he hadn’t taken it。
We had half…an…hour; I think; for tea。 When I had money
enough; I used to get half…a…pint of ready…made coffee and a slice
of bread and butter。 When I had none; I used to look at a venison
shop in Fleet Street; or I have strolled; at such a time; as far as
Covent Garden Market; and stared at the pineapples。 I was fond of
wandering about the Adelphi; because it was a mysterious place;
with those dark arches。 I see myself emerging one evening from
some of these arches; on a little public…house close to the river;
with an open space before it; where some coal…heavers were
dancing; to look at whom I sat down upon a bench。 I wonder what
they thought of me!
I was such a child; and so little; that frequently when I went into
the bar of a strange public…house for a glass of ale or porter; to
moisten what I had had for dinner; they were afraid to give it me。 I
remember one hot evening I went into the bar of a public…house;
and said to the landlord:
‘What is your best—your very best—ale a glass?’ For it was a
special occasion。 I don’t know what。 It may have been my
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birthday。
‘Twopence…halfpenny;’ says the landlord; ‘is the price of the
Genuine Stunning ale。’
‘Then;’ says I; producing the money; ‘just draw me a glass of the
Genuine Stunning; if you please; with a good head to it。’
The landlord looked at me in return over the bar; from head to
foot; with a strange smile on his face; and instead of drawing the
beer; looked round the screen and said something to his wife。 She
came out from behind it; with her work in her hand; and joined
him in surveying me。 Here we stand; all three; before me now。 The
landlord in his shirt…sleeves; leaning against the bar window…
frame; his wife looking over the little half…door; and I; in some
confusion; looking up at them from outside the partition。 They
asked me a good many questions; as; what my name was; how old
I was; where I lived; how I was employed; and how I came there。
To all of which; that I might commit nobody; I invented; I am
afraid; appropriate answers。 They served me with the ale; though I
suspect it was not the Genuine Stunning; and the landlord’s wife;
opening the little half…door of the bar; and bending down; gave me
my money back; and gave me a kiss that was half admiring and
half compassionate; but all womanly and good; I am sure。
I know I do not exaggerate; unconsciously and unintentionally;
the scantiness of my resources or the difficulties of my life。 I know
that if a shilling were given me by Mr。 Quinion at any time; I spent
it in a dinner or a tea。 I know that I worked; from morning until
night; with common men and boys; a shabby child。 I know that I
lounged about the streets; insufficiently and unsatisfactorily fed。 I
know that; but for the mercy of God; I might easily have been; for
any care that was taken of me; a little robber or a little vagabond。
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Yet I held some station at Murdstone and Grinby’s too。 Besides
that Mr。 Quinion did what a careless man so occupied; and dealing
with a thing so anomalous; could; to treat me as one upon a
different footing from the rest; I never said; to man or boy; how it
was that I came to be there; or gave the least indication of being
sorry that I was there。 That I suffered in secret; and that I suffered
exquisitely; no one ever knew but I。 How much I suffered; it is; as I
have said already; utterly beyond my power to tell。 But I kept my
own counsel; and I did my work。 I knew from the first; that; if I
could not do my work as well as any of the rest; I could not hold
myself above slight and contempt。 I soon became at least as
expeditious and as skilful as either of the other boys。 Though
perfectly familiar with them; my conduct and manner were
different enough from theirs to place a space between us。 They
and the men generally spoke of me as ‘the little gent’; or ‘the
young Suffolker。’ A certain man named Gregory; who was
foreman of the packers; and another named Tipp; who was the
carman; and wore a red jacket; us