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作者:冬恋      更新:2021-04-30 17:00      字数:9322
  much as I can bear。        To speak of parting is superfluous we have already
  parted。    It   were   idle   to   dream   of   a   future   friendship   between   people   so
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  widely different in station。        Such a friendship; if possible in itself; would
  never   be   tolerated   by  the   lady  whom   you   are   to   marry;   with   whom   you
  drove by my schoolhouse the other day。              A gentleman so loyal to his race
  and its traditions as you have shown yourself could not be less faithful to
  the   lady   to   whom   he   has   lost   his   heart   and   his   memory   in   three   short
  months。
  No; Mr。 Tryon; our romance is ended; and better so。                We could never
  have been happy。        I have found a work in which I may be of service to
  others who have fewer opportunities than mine have been。                    Leave me in
  peace; I beseech you; and I shall soon pass out of your neighborhood as I
  have   passed   out   of   your   life;   and  hope   to   pass  out   of   your  memory。
  Yours very truly;                                   ROWENA WALDEN。
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  AN UNUSUAL HONOR
  To Rena's high…strung and sensitive nature; already under very great
  tension from her   past experience;  the ordeal   of the next few  days was   a
  severe     one。    On     the  one    hand;   Jeff   Wain's    infatuation    had   rapidly
  increased;  in   view   of   her   speedy   departure。    From  Mrs。 Tryon's   remark
  about Wain's wife Amanda; and from things Rena had since learned; she
  had every reason to believe that this wife was living; and that Wain must
  be   aware    of  the   fact。  In   the   light  of  this  knowledge;      Wain's    former
  conduct   took     on   a   blacker   significance   than;   upon    reflection;   she   had
  charitably clothed it with after the first flush of indignation。             That he had
  not given up his design to make love to her was quite apparent; and; with
  Amanda alive; his attentions; always offensive since she had gathered their
  import;   became   in   her   eyes   the   expression   of   a   villainous   purpose;   of
  which she could not speak to others; and from which she felt safe only so
  long   as   she   took   proper   precautions   against   it。   In   a   week   her   school
  would be over; and then she would get Elder Johnson; or some one else
  than Wain; to take her back to Patesville。              True; she might abandon her
  school and go at once; but her work would be incomplete; she would have
  violated     her    contract;    she   would     lose   her    salary   for   the   month;
  explanations   would   be   necessary;   and   would   not   be   forthcoming。         She
  might feign   sickness;indeed; it   would scarcely  be feigning;  for she  felt
  far from well; she had never; since her illness; quite recovered her former
  vigorbut   the  inconvenience  to   others   would   be   the  same;   and   her   self…
  sacrifice    would    have    had;  at  its  very   first  trial;  a  lame  and   impotent
  conclusion。      She had as yet no fear of personal violence from Wain; but;
  under the circumstances; his attentions were an insult。               He was evidently
  bent upon conquest; and vain enough to think he might achieve it by virtue
  of his personal attractions。        If he could have understood how she loathed
  the   sight   of   his   narrow   eyes;   with   their   puffy   lids;   his   thick;   tobacco…
  stained     lips;  his   doubtful    teeth;   and   his   unwieldy     person;    Wain;     a
  monument   of   conceit   that   he   was;   might   have   shrunk;   even   in   his   own
  estimation; to something like his real proportions。              Rena believed that; to
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  defend   herself   from  persecution   at   his hands;   it   was   only  necessary  that
  she    never    let  him   find   her  alone。    This;    however;     required    constant
  watchfulness。        Relying     upon    his   own    powers;    and    upon    a  woman's
  weakness   and   aversion   to   scandal;   from   which   not   even   the   purest   may
  always escape unscathed; and convinced by her former silence that he had
  nothing serious to fear; Wain made it a point to be present at every public
  place where she might be。           He assumed; in conversation with her which
  she   could   not   avoid;   and   stated   to   others;   that   she   had   left   his   house
  because of a previous promise to divide the time of her stay between Elder
  Johnson's   house   and   his   own。      He   volunteered   to   teach   a   class   in   the
  Sunday…school   which   Rena   conducted   at   the   colored   Methodist   church;
  and when she remained to service; occupied a seat conspicuously near her
  own。     In addition to these public demonstrations; which it was impossible
  to escape; or; it seemed; with so thick… skinned an individual as Wain; even
  to   discourage;   she   was   secretly   and   uncomfortably   conscious   that          she
  could scarcely stir abroad without the risk of encountering one of two men;
  each of whom was on the lookout for an opportunity to find her alone。
  The knowledge of Tryon's presence in the vicinity had been almost as
  much as Rena could bear。           To it must be added the consciousness that he;
  too; was pursuing her; to what end she could not tell。                 After his letter to
  her   brother;   and   the   feeling   therein   displayed;   she   found   it   necessary   to
  crush once or twice a wild hope that; her secret being still unknown save
  to a friendly few; he might return and claim her。               Now; such an outcome
  would be impossible。          He had become engaged to another woman;this
  in itself would be enough to keep him from her; if it were not an index of a
  vastly more serious barrier; a proof that he had never loved her。                 If he had
  loved her truly; he would never have forgotten her in three short months;
  three long months they had heretofore seemed to her; for in them she had
  lived a lifetime of experience。          Another impassable barrier lay in the fact
  that his mother had met her; and that she was known in the neighborhood。
  Thus cut off from any hope that she might be anything to him; she had no
  wish   to   meet   her   former   lover;   no   possible   good   could   come   of   such   a
  meeting; and yet her fluttering heart told her that if he should come; as his
  letter foreshadowed that he might;if he should come; the loving George
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  of old; with soft words and tender smiles and specious talk of friendship
  ah! then; her heart would break!           She must not meet himat any cost she
  must avoid him。
  But this   heaping up of   cares strained   her   endurance   to   the breaking…
  point。    Toward the middle of the last week; she knew that she had almost
  reached the limit; and was haunted by a fear that she might break down
  before    the   week    was   over。    Now     her   really   fine  nature   rose   to  the
  emergency;   though   she   mustered   her   forces   with   a   great   effort。    If   she
  could keep Wain at his distance and avoid Tryon for three days longer; her
  school labors would be ended and she might retire in peace and honor。
  〃Miss Rena;〃 said Plato to her on Tuesday; 〃ain't it 'bout time I wuz
  gwine home wid you ag'in?〃
  〃You may go with me to…morrow; Plato;〃 answered the teacher。
  After   school   Plato   met   an   anxious   eyed   young   man   in   the   woods   a
  short distance from the schoolhouse。
  〃Well; Plato; what news?〃
  〃I's gwine ter see her home ter…morrer; Mars Geo'ge。〃
  〃To…morrow!〃 replied Tryon; 〃how very fortunate!                  I   wanted you to
  go to town   to…morrow to   take an   important message   for me。              I'm  sorry;
  Platoyou might have earned another dollar。〃
  To lie is a disgraceful thing; and yet there are times when; to a lover's
  mind;     love    dwarfs     all  ordinary     laws。     Plato    scratched     his   head
  disconsolately; but suddenly a bright thought struck him。
  〃Can't I go ter town fer you atter I've seed her home; Mars Geo'ge?〃
  〃N…o; I'm afraid it would be too late;〃 returned Tryon doubtfully。
  〃Den     I'll  haf  ter  ax  'er  ter  lemm