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作者:冬恋      更新:2021-04-30 17:00      字数:9322
  think much of her son Jeff。          He   married my Amanda after the warshe
  used to   belong to   me;  and   ought   to have   known   better。       He   abused   her
  most shamefully; and had to be threatened with the law。                  She left him a
  year or so ago and went away; I haven't seen her lately。                 Well; good…by;
  child; I'm coming to your exhibition。           If you ever pass my house; come in
  and see me。〃
  The good lady had talked for half an hour; and had brought a ray of
  sunshine into the teacher's monotonous life; heretofore lighted only by the
  uncertain lamp of high resolve。          She had satisfied a pardonable curiosity;
  and had gone away without mentioning her name。
  Rena saw Plato untying the pony as the lady climbed into the phaeton。
  〃Who   was   the   lady;   Plato?〃   asked   the   teacher   when   the   visitor   had
  driven away。
  〃Dat   'uz   my   ole   mist'iss;   ma'm;〃   returned   Plato   proudly;   〃ole   Mis'
  'Liza。〃
  〃Mis' 'Liza who?〃 asked Rena。
  〃Mis'   'Liza   Tryon。    I   use'   ter   b'long   ter   her。 Dat   'uz   her   son;   my
  young Mars Geo'ge; w'at driv pas' hyuh yistiddy wid 'is sweetheart。〃
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  XXVIII
  THE LOST KNIFE
  Rena had found her task not a difficult one so far as discipline was
  concerned。      Her pupils were of a docile race; and school to them had all
  the   charm   of   novelty。    The   teacher   commanded   some   awe   because   she
  was a stranger; and some; perhaps; because she was white; for the theory
  of blackness as propounded by Plato could not quite counter… balance in
  the young African mind the evidence of their own senses。                  She combined
  gentleness   with   firmness;   and   if   these   had   not   been   sufficient;   she   had
  reserves of character which would have given her the mastery over much
  less   plastic   material   than   these   ignorant   but   eager   young   people。    The
  work of instruction was simple enough; for most of the pupils began with
  the   alphabet;   which   they   acquired   from   Webster's   blue…backed   spelling…
  book;   the    palladium   of   Southern     education     at  that   epoch。   The    much
  abused   carpet…baggers   had   put   the   spelling…book   within   reach   of   every
  child of school age in North Carolina;a fact which is often overlooked
  when   the   carpet…baggers   are   held   up   to   public   odium。     Even   the   devil
  should have his due; and is not so black as he is painted。
  At   the   time   when   she   learned   that   Tryon   lived   in   the   neighborhood;
  Rena   had   already   been   subjected   for   several   weeks   to   a   trying   ordeal。
  Wain had begun to persecute her with marked attentions。                  She had at first
  gone to board at his house;or; by courtesy; with his mother。                For a week
  or two she had considered his attentions in no other light than those of a
  member   of   the   school   committee   sharing   her own   zeal   and interested   in
  seeing   the   school   successfully   carried   on。     In   this   character   Wain   had
  driven her to the town for her examination; he had busied himself about
  putting    the   schoolhouse   in    order;   and   in  various   matters   affecting    the
  conduct   of   the   school。   He   had   jocularly  offered   to   come   and   whip   the
  children   for   her;   and   had   found   it   convenient   to   drop   in   occasionally;
  ostensibly to see what progress the work was making。
  〃Dese child'en;〃 he would observe sonorously; in the presence of the
  school; 〃oughter be monst'ous glad ter have de chance er settin' under yo'
  instruction; Miss Rena。         I'm sho' eve'body in dis neighbo'hood 'preciates
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  de priv'lege er havin' you in ou' mids'。〃
  Though        slightly    embarrassing         to   the    teacher;     these     public
  demonstrations were endurable so long as they could be regarded as mere
  official    appreciation      of   her   work。     Sincerely      in   earnest    about    her
  undertaking;   she   had   plunged   into   it   with   all   the   intensity   of   a   serious
  nature which love had stirred to activity。             A pessimist might have sighed
  sadly   or   smiled   cynically   at   the   notion   that   a   poor;   weak   girl;   with   a
  dangerous beauty  and   a   sensitive soul;   and   troubles   enough   of   her   own;
  should hope to accomplish anything appreciable toward lifting the black
  mass   still   floundering   in   the   mud   where   slavery   had   left   it;   and   where
  emancipation had found it;the mud in which; for aught that could be seen
  to the   contrary;  her   little   feet;  too;   were hopelessly  entangled。       It   might
  have seemed like expecting a man to lift himself by his boot…straps。
  But Rena was no philosopher; either sad or cheerful。                   She could not
  even have replied to this argument; that races must lift themselves; and the
  most that can be done by others is to give them opportunity and fair play。
  Hers was a simpler reasoning;the logic by which the world is kept going
  onward and upward when philosophers are at odds and reformers are not
  forthcoming。       She knew that for every child she taught to read and write
  she opened; if ever so little; the door of opportunity; and she was happy in
  the    consciousness      of   performing      a  duty   which     seemed     all  the  more
  imperative      because     newly   discovered。      Her     zeal;  indeed;    for  the  time
  being was like that of an early Christian; who was more willing than not to
  die for his faith。     Rena had fully and firmly made up her mind to sacrifice
  her life upon this altar。       Her absorption in the work had not been without
  its reward; for thereby she had been able to keep at a distance the spectre
  of   her   lost   love。  Her   dreams   she   could   not   control;   but   she   banished
  Tryon as far as possible from her waking thoughts。
  When Wain's attentions became obviously personal; Rena's new vestal
  instinct took alarm; and she began to apprehend his character more clearly。
  She had long ago learned that his pretensions to wealth were a sham。                      He
  was nominal owner of a large plantation; it is true; but the land was worn
  out; and mortgaged to the limit of its security value。                His reputed droves
  of   cattle   and   hogs   had   dwindled   to   a   mere   handful   of   lean   and   listless
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  brutes。
  Her clear eye; when once set to take Wain's measure; soon fathomed
  his shallow; selfish soul; and detected; or at least divined; behind his mask
  of   good…nature   a   lurking   brutality   which   filled   her   with   vague   distrust;
  needing   only   occasion   to   develop   it   into   active   apprehension;occasion
  which was not long wanting。            She avoided being alone with him at home
  by   keeping   carefully   with   the   women   of   the   house。      If   she   were   left
  alone;and   they   soon   showed   a   tendency   to   leave   her   on   any   pretext
  whenever Wain   came   near;she   would seek   her own   room  and   lock   the
  door。    She preferred not to offend Wain; she was far away from home and
  in a measure in his power; but she dreaded his compliments and sickened
  at   his  smile。    She    was   also   compelled     to  hear   his  relations   sing   his
  praises。
  〃My son Jeff;〃 old Mrs。 Wain would say; 〃is de bes' man you ever seed。
  His fus' wife had de easies' time an' de happies' time er ary woman in dis
  settlement。     He's grieve' fer her a long time; but I reckon he's gittin' over
  it; an' de nex' 'oman w'at marries him'll git a box er pyo' gol'; ef I does say
  it as is his own mammy。〃
  Rena had thought Wain rather harsh with his household; except in her
  immediate presence。         His mother and sister seemed more or less afraid of
  him; and the children often anxious to avoid him。
  One day; he timed his visit to the schoolhouse so as to walk home with
  Rena through the woods。            When she became aware   of his purpose;  she
  called to one of the children who was loitering behind the others; 〃Wait a
  minute; Jenny。       I'm going your way; and you can walk along with me。〃
  Wain with difficulty hid a scowl behind a smiling front。                 When the