第 39 节
作者:冬恋      更新:2021-04-30 17:00      字数:9322
  faithful   mare   beyond   her   powers;   and   soon   he   could   no   longer   pretend
  obliviousness   of   the   fact   that   some   attraction   stronger   than   the   whole
  amount   of   Duncan   McSwayne's   note   was   urging   him  irresistibly   toward
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  his destination。      The old town beyond the distant river; his heart told him
  clamorously; held the object in all the world to him most dear。                  Memory
  brought up in vivid detail every moment of his brief and joyous courtship;
  each tender word; each enchanting smile; every fond caress。                  He lived his
  past   happiness   over   again   down   to   the   moment   of   that   fatal   discovery。
  What horrible fate was it that had involved himnay; that had caught this
  sweet delicate girl in such a blind alley?            A wild hope flashed across his
  mind: perhaps the ghastly story  might not be true; perhaps; after all; the
  girl was no more a negro than she seemed。                He had heard sad stories of
  white   children; born   out   of   wedlock;  abandoned by  sinful parents   to the
  care or adoption of colored women; who had reared them as their own; the
  children's future basely sacrificed to hide the parents' shame。                 He would
  confront this reputed mother of his darling and wring the truth from her。
  He   was   in   a   state   of   mind   where   any   sort   of   a   fairy   tale   would   have
  seemed reasonable。         He would almost have bribed some one to tell him
  that the woman he had loved; the woman he still loved (he felt a thrill of
  lawless   pleasure   in   the   confession);   was   not   the   descendant   of   slaves;
  that he might marry her; and not have before his eyes the gruesome fear
  that some one of their children might show even the faintest mark of the
  despised race。
  At noon he halted at a convenient hamlet; fed and watered his mare;
  and resumed his journey after an hour's rest。              By this time he had well…
  nigh forgotten about the legal business that formed the ostensible occasion
  for his journey; and was conscious only of a wild desire to see the woman
  whose image was beckoning him on to Patesville as fast as his horse could
  take him。
  At   sundown   he   stopped   again;   about   ten   miles   from   the   town;   and
  cared    for   his  now    tired  beast。   He    knew     her  capacity;    however;    and
  calculated   that   she   could   stand   the   additional   ten   miles   without   injury。
  The mare set out with reluctance; but soon settled resignedly down into a
  steady jog。
  Memory had hitherto assailed Tryon with the vision of past joys。                   As
  he   neared   the   town;   imagination   attacked   him   with   still   more   moving
  images。      He had left her; this sweet flower of womankindwhite or not;
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  God had never made a fairer!he had seen her fall to the hard pavement;
  with he knew not what resulting injury。            He had left her tender framethe
  touch of her finger…tips had made him thrill with happiness to be lifted
  by   strange   hands;   while   he   with   heartless   pride   had   driven   deliberately
  away;     without    a  word    of  sorrow     or  regret。   He    had    ignored    her  as
  completely as though she had never existed。               That he had been deceived
  was true。     But had he not aided in his own deception?              Had not Warwick
  told him distinctly that they were of no family; and was it not his own fault
  that   he   had   not   followed   up   the   clue   thus   given   him?  Had   not   Rena
  compared herself to the child's nurse; and had he not assured her that if she
  were the nurse; he would marry her next day?                  The deception had been
  due more to his own blindness than to any lack of honesty on the part of
  Rena and her brother。         In the light of his present feelings they seemed to
  have     been   absurdly     outspoken。      He    was    glad   that  he   had   kept   his
  discovery to himself。        He had considered himself very magnanimous not
  to have exposed the fraud that was being perpetrated upon society: it was
  with a very comfortable feeling that he now realized that the matter was as
  profound a secret as before。
  〃She ought to have been born white;〃 he muttered; adding weakly; 〃I
  would to God that I had never found her out!〃
  Drawing near the bridge that crossed the river to the town; he pictured
  to himself a pale girl; with sorrowful; tear…stained eyes; pining away in the
  old   gray   house   behind   the   cedars   for   love   of   him;   dying;   perhaps;   of   a
  broken heart。      He would hasten to her; he would dry her tears with kisses;
  he would express sorrow for his cruelty。
  The tired mare had crossed the bridge and was slowly toiling up Front
  Street; she was near the limit of her endurance; and Tryon did not urge her。
  They   might   talk   the   matter   over;   and   if   they   must   part;   part   at   least
  they would in peace and friendship。            If he could not marry her; he would
  never   marry   any   one   else;   it   would   be   cruel   for   him   to   seek   happiness
  while she was denied it; for; having once given her heart to him; she could
  never; he was sure;so instinctively fine was her nature;she could never
  love any one less worthy than himself; and would therefore probably never
  marry。     He knew from a Clarence acquaintance; who had written him a
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  letter; that Rena had not reappeared in that town。
  If he should discoverthe chance was one in a thousandthat she was
  white;   or   if   he   should   find   it   too   hard   to   leave   herah;   well!   he   was   a
  white man; one of a race born to command。                  He would make her white;
  no    one   beyond     the   old   town    would    ever    know    the   difference。     If;
  perchance; their secret should be disclosed; the world was wide; a man of
  courage   and   ambition;   inspired   by  love;   might   make   a   career   anywhere。
  Circumstances   made   weak   men;   strong   men   mould   circumstances   to   do
  their   bidding。    He   would   not   let   his   darling   die   of   grief;   whatever   the
  price must be paid for her salvation。           She was only a few rods away from
  him now。       In a moment he would see her; he would take her tenderly in
  his arms; and heart to heart they would mutually forgive and forget; and;
  strengthened by their love; would face the future boldly and bid the world
  do its worst。
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  XXIII
  THE GUEST OF HONOR
  The evening   of the   party arrived。       The house had been   thoroughly
  cleaned     in  preparation    for  the  event;   and   decorated    with   the   choicest
  treasures of the garden。       By eight o'clock the guests had gathered。            They
  were all mulattoes;all people of mixed blood were called 〃mulattoes〃 in
  North Carolina。       There were dark mulattoes and bright mulattoes。                Mis'
  Molly's   guests   were   mostly  of   the   bright   class;   most   of   them   more   than
  half   white;   and   few   of   them  less。 In   Mis'   Molly's   small   circle;  straight
  hair   was   the   only  palliative   of   a   dark   complexion。 Many  of   the   guests
  would   not   have   been   casually   distinguishable   from   white   people   of   the
  poorer   class。    Others   bore   unmistakable   traces   of   Indian   ancestry;for
  Cherokee and Tuscarora blood was quite widely diffused among the free
  negroes of North Carolina; though well…nigh lost sight of by the curious
  custom of the white people to ignore anything but the negro blood in those
  who were touched by its potent current。              Very few of those present had
  been     slaves。   The     free  colored    people    of  Patesville    were   numerous
  enough before the war to have their own 〃society;〃 and human enough to
  despise those who did not possess advantages equal to their own; and at
  this   time   they  still   looked   down   upon   those   who   had   once  been   held   in
  bondage。      The only black man present occupied a chair which stood on a
  broad chest in one corner; and extracted melody from a fiddle to which a
  whole   generation   of   the   best   peo