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作者:冬恋      更新:2021-04-30 16:59      字数:9322
  default   of   older   and   more   experienced   men;   had   undertaken;   during   the
  rebellion;   the   management   of   a   large   estate;   which   had   been   left   in   the
  hands of women and slaves。              He had filled the place so acceptably; and
  employed   his   leisure   to   such   advantage;   that   at   the   close   of   the   war   he
  found himselfhe was modest enough to think; too; in default of a better
  manthe      husband      of  the   orphan    daughter     of  the   gentleman      who    had
  owned      the   plantation;    and   who     had   lost  his   life  upon    the  battlefield。
  Warwick's   wife   was   of   good   family;   and   in   a   more   settled   condition   of
  society     it  would    not   have    been   easy    for  a  young     man    of   no  visible
  antecedents to win her hand。            A year or two later; he had taken the oath of
  allegiance; and had been admitted to the South Carolina bar。                      Rich in his
  wife's right; he had been able to practice his profession upon a high plane;
  without the worry of sordid cares; and with marked success for one of his
  age。
  〃I   suppose;〃     he   concluded;      〃that   I  have   got   along    at  the   bar;  as
  elsewhere; owing to the lack of better men。                  Many of the good lawyers
  were killed in the war; and most of the remainder were disqualified; while
  I   had   the   advantage   of   being   alive;   and   of   never   having   been   in   arms
  against the government。            People had to have lawyers; and they gave me
  their business   in preference to the   carpet… baggers。              Fortune;  you   know;
  favors the available man。〃
  His mother drank in with parted lips and glistening eyes the story of
  his   adventures   and   the   record   of   his   successes。      As   Rena   listened;   the
  narrow   walls   that   hemmed   her   in   seemed   to   draw   closer   and   closer;   as
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  though   they   must   crush   her。    Her   brother   watched her   keenly。        He   had
  been   talking   not   only   to   inform   the   women;   but   with   a   deeper   purpose;
  conceived   since   his   morning   walk;   and   deepened   as   he   had   followed;
  during his narrative; the changing expression of Rena's face and noted her
  intense interest in his story; her pride in his successes; and the occasional
  wistful look that indexed her self…pity so completely。
  〃An' I s'pose you're happy; John?〃 asked his mother。
  〃Well;   mother;   happiness   is   a   relative   term;   and   depends;   I   imagine;
  upon how nearly we think we get what we think we want。                      I have had my
  chance   and   haven't   thrown   it   away;   and   I   suppose   I   ought   to   be   happy。
  But then; I have lost my wife; whom I loved very dearly; and who loved
  me just as much; and I'm troubled about my child。〃
  〃Why?〃 they demanded。             〃Is there anything the matter with him?〃
  〃No;   not   exactly。    He's   well   enough;   as   babies   go;   and   has   a   good
  enough   nurse;   as   nurses   go。     But   the   nurse   is   ignorant;   and   not   always
  careful。     A child needs some woman of its own blood to love it and look
  after it intelligently。〃
  Mis' Molly's eyes were filled with tearful yearning。                She would have
  given all the world to warm her son's child upon her bosom; but she knew
  this could not be。
  〃Did your wife leave any kin?〃 she asked with an effort。
  〃No near kin; she was an only child。〃
  〃You'll be gettin' married again;〃 suggested his mother。
  〃No;〃 he replied; 〃I think not。〃
  Warwick was still reading his sister's face; and saw the spark of hope
  that gleamed in her expressive eye。
  〃If I had some relation of my own that I could take into the house with
  me;〃 he said reflectively; 〃the child might be healthier and happier; and I
  should be much more at ease about him。〃
  The mother looked from son to daughter with a dawning apprehension
  and   a   sudden   pallor。     When   she   saw   the   yearning   in   Rena's   eyes;   she
  threw herself at her son's feet。
  〃Oh;   John;〃   she   cried   despairingly;   〃don't   take   her   away   from   me!
  Don't take her; John; darlin'; for it'd break my heart to lose her!〃
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  Rena's   arms   were   round   her      mother's   neck;   and   Rena's   voice     was
  sounding   in   her   ears。    〃There;   there;   mamma!        Never   mind!      I   won't
  leave you; mammadear old mamma!                 Your Rena'll stay with you always;
  and never; never leave you。〃
  John smoothed his mother's hair with a comforting touch; patted   her
  withered cheek soothingly; lifted her tenderly to her place by his side; and
  put his arm about her。
  〃You love your children; mother?〃
  〃They're all I've got;〃 she sobbed; 〃an' they cos' me all I had。                When
  the las'   one's   gone;  I'll want   to   go   too; for  I'll be   all alone in the  world。
  Don't take Rena; John;   for if you do;  I'll never see her   again; an' I   can't
  bear to think of it。     How would you like to lose yo'r one child?〃
  〃Well; well; mother; we'll say no more about it。              And now tell me all
  about yourself; and about the neighbors; and how you got through the war;
  and who's dead and who's marriedand everything。〃
  The     change     of   subject    restored    in   some     degree    Mis'    Molly's
  equanimity;       and    with    returning     calmness     came     a   sense    of   other
  responsibilities。
  〃Good gracious; Rena!〃 she exclaimed。               〃John 's be'n in the house an
  hour; and ain't had nothin' to eat yet!         Go in the kitchen an' spread a clean
  tablecloth;   an'   git   out   that   'tater   pone;   an'   a   pitcher   o'   that   las'   kag   o'
  persimmon beer; an' let John take a bite an' a sip。〃
  Warwick smiled at the mention of these homely dainties。                    〃I thought
  of your sweet…potato pone at the hotel to…day; when I was at dinner; and
  wondered   if   you'd   have   some   in   the   house。    There   was   never   any   like
  yours; and I've forgotten the taste of persimmon beer entirely。〃
  Rena left the room to carry out her hospitable commission。                  Warwick;
  taking   advantage   of   her   absence;   returned   after   a   while   to   the   former
  subject。
  〃Of course; mother;〃 he said calmly; 〃I wouldn't think of taking Rena
  away against your wishes。           A mother's claim upon her child is a high and
  holy   one。    Of   course   she   will   have   no   chance   here;   where   our   story   is
  known。      The war has wrought great changes; has put the bottom rail on
  top; and   all thatbut it hasn't   wiped THAT  out。           Nothing but death can
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  remove that stain; if it does not follow us even beyond the grave。                      Here
  she must forever benobody!             With me she might have got out into the
  world;   with   her   beauty  she   might   have   made   a   good   marriage;   and;  if   I
  mistake not; she has sense as well as beauty。〃
  〃Yes;〃 sighed the mother; 〃she's got good sense。               She ain't as quick as
  you was; an' don't read as many books; but she's keerful an' painstakin'; an'
  always   tries    to  do   what's   right。   She's    be'n   thinkin'   about    goin'  away
  somewhere   an'   tryin'   to   git   a   school   to   teach;   er   somethin';   sence   the
  Yankees have started 'em everywhere for po' white folks an' niggers too。
  But I don't like fer her to go too fur。〃
  〃With such beauty and brains;〃 continued Warwick; 〃she could leave
  this town and make a place for herself。             The place is already made。           She
  has   only  to   step   into   my  carriageafter   perhaps   a   little   preparationand
  ride   up   the   hill   which   I   have   had   to   climb   so   painfully。 It   would   be   a
  great pleasure to me to see her at the top。            But of course it is impossible
  a mere idle dream。 YOUR claim comes first; her duty chains her here。〃
  〃It would be so lonely without her;〃 murmured the mother weakly; 〃an'
  I love her somy las' one!〃
  〃No doubtno doubt;〃 returned Warwick; with a sympathetic sigh; 〃of
  course you love her。         It's not to be thought of for a moment。              It's a pity
  that she couldn't have a chance herebut how c