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at the appointed time; when it pleased the Spirit of Bambatse; under
whose guardianship it was。〃
〃Who was the Spirit of Bambatse; Mr。 Seymour?〃
〃I can't tell you; couldn't make out anything definite about her;
except that she was said to be white; and to appear sometimes at
sunrise; or in the moonlight; standing upon the tall point of rock of
which I told you。 I remember that I got up before the dawn to look for
herlike an idiot; for of course I saw nothingand that's all I know
about the matter。〃
〃Did you have any talk with my father; Mr。 Seymouralone; I mean?〃
〃Yes; a little。 The next day he walked back to our waggon with us;
being glad; I fancy; of a change from the perpetual society of his
partner Jacob。 That wasn't wonderful in a man who had been brought up
at Eton and Oxford; as I found out he had; like myself; and whatever
his failings may have beenalthough we saw no sign of them; for he
would not touch a drop of spiritswas a gentleman; which Jacob
wasn't。 Still; heJacobhad read a lot; especially on out…of…the…way
subjects; and could talk every language under the suna clever and
agreeable scoundrel in short。〃
〃Did my father say anything about himself?〃
〃Yes; he told me that he had been an unsuccessful man all his life;
and had much to reproach himself with; for we got quite confidential
at last。 He added that he had a family in Englandwhat family he
didn't saywhom he was anxious to make wealthy by way of reparation
for past misdeeds; and that was why he was treasure…hunting。 However;
from what you tell me; I fear he never found anything。〃
〃No; Mr。 Seymour; he never found it and never will; but all the same I
am glad to hear that he was thinking of us。 Also I should like to
explore that place; Bambatse。〃
〃So should I; Miss Clifford; in your company; and your father's; but
not in that of Jacob。 If ever you should go there with him; I say:
'Beware of Jacob。'〃
〃Oh! I am not afraid of Jacob;〃 she answered with a laugh; 〃although I
believe that my father still has something to do with himat least in
one of his letters he mentioned his partner; who was a German。〃
〃A German! I think that he must have meant a German Jew。〃
After this there was silence between them for a time; then he said
suddenly; 〃You have told me your story; would you like to hear mine?〃
〃Yes;〃 she answered。
〃Well; it won't take you long to listen to it; for; Miss Clifford;
like Canning's needy knife…grinder; I have really none to tell。 You
see before you one of the most useless persons in the world; an
undistinguished member of what is called in England the 'leisured
class;' who can do absolutely nothing that is worth doing; except
shoot straight。〃
〃Indeed;〃 said Benita。
〃You do not seem impressed with that accomplishment;〃 he went on; 〃yet
it is an honest fact that for the last fifteen yearsI was thirty…two
this monthpractically my whole time has been given up to it; with a
little fishing thrown in in the spring。 As I want to make the most of
myself; I will add that I am supposed to be among the six best shots
in England; and that my ambitionyes; great Heavens! my ambitionwas
to become better than the other five。 By that sin fell the poor man
who speaks to you。 I was supposed to have abilities; but I neglected
them all to pursue this form of idleness。 I entered no profession; I
did no work; with the result that at thirty…two I am ruined and almost
hopeless。〃
〃Why ruined and hopeless?〃 she asked anxiously; for the way in which
they were spoken grieved her more than the words themselves。
〃Ruined because my old uncle; the Honourable John Seymour Seymour;
whose heir I was; committed the indiscretion of marrying a young lady
who has presented him with thriving twins。 With the appearance of
those twins my prospects disappeared; as did the allowance of £1;500 a
year that he was good enough to make me on which to keep up a position
as his next…of…kin。 I had something of my own; but also I had debts;
and at the present moment a draft in my pocket for £2;163 14s。 5d。;
and a little loose cash; represents the total of my worldly goods;
just about the sum I have been accustomed to spend per annum。〃
〃I don't call that ruin; I call that riches;〃 said Benita; relieved。
〃With £2;000 to begin on you may make a fortune in Africa。 But how
about the hopelessness?〃
〃I am hopeless because I have absolutely nothing to which to look
forward。 Really; when that £2;000 is gone I do not know how to earn a
sixpence。 In this dilemma it occurred to me that the only thing I
could do was to turn my shooting to practical account; and become a
hunter of big game。 Therefore I propose to kill elephants until an
elephant kills me。 At least;〃 he added in a changed voice; 〃I did so
propose until half an hour ago。〃
II
THE END OF THE 〃ZANZIBAR。〃
〃Until half an hour ago? Then why〃 and Benita stopped。
〃Have I changed my very modest scheme of life? Miss Clifford; as you
are so good as to be sufficiently interested; I will tell you。 It is
because a temptation which hitherto I have been able to resist; has
during the last thirty minutes become too strong for me。 You know
everything has its breaking strain。〃 He puffed nervously at his cigar;
threw it into the sea; paused; then went on: 〃Miss Clifford; I have
dared to fall in love with you。 No; hear me out。 When I have done it
will be quite time enough to give me the answer that I expect。
Meanwhile; for the first time in my life; allow me the luxury of being
in earnest。 To me it is a new sensation; and therefore very priceless。
May I go on?〃
Benita made no answer。 He rose with a certain deliberateness which
characterized all his movementsfor Robert Seymour never seemed to be
in a hurryand stood in front of her so that the moonlight shone upon
her face; while his own remained in shadow。
〃Beyond that £2;000 of which I have spoken; and incidentally its
owner; I have nothing whatsoever to offer to you。 I am an indigent and
worthless person。 Even in my prosperous days; when I could look
forward to a large estate; although it was often suggested to me; I
never considered myself justified in asking any lady to sharethe
prospective estate。 I think now that the real reason was that I never
cared sufficiently for any lady; since otherwise my selfishness would
probably have overcome my scruples; as it does to…night。 Benita; for I
will call you so; if for the first and last time; IIlove you。
〃Listen now;〃 he went on; dropping his measured manner; and speaking
hurriedly; like a man with an earnest message and little time in which
to deliver it; 〃it is an odd thing; an incomprehensible thing; but
true; trueI fell in love with you the first time I saw your face。
You remember; you stood there leaning over the bulwark when I came on
board at Southampton; and as I walked up the gangway; I looked and my
eyes met yours。 Then I stopped; and that stout old lady who got off at
Madeira bumped into me; and asked me to be good enough to make up my
mind if I were going backward or forward。 Do you remember?〃
〃Yes;〃 she answered in a low voice。
〃Which things are an allegory;〃 he continued。 〃I felt it so at the
time。 Yes; I had half a mind to answer 'Backward' and give up my berth
in this ship。 Then I looked at you again; and something inside of me
said 'Forward。' So I came up the rest of the gangway and took off my
hat to you; a salutation I had no right to make; but which; I recall;
you acknowledged。〃
He paused; then continued: 〃As it began; so it has gone on。 It is
always like that; is it not? The beginning is everything; the end must
follow。 And now it has come out; as I was fully determined that it
should not do half an hour ago; when suddenly you developed eyes in
the back of your head; andoh! dearest; I love you。 No; please be
quiet; I have not done。 I have told you what I am; and really there
isn't much more to say about me; for I have no particular vices except
the worst of them all; idleness; and not the slightest trace of any
virtue that I can discover。 But I have a certain knowledge of the
world acquired in a long course of shooting parties; and as a man of
the world I will venture to give you a bit of advice。 It is possible
that to you my life and death affair is a mere matter of board…ship
amusement。 Yet it is possible also that you might take another view of
the matter。 In that case; as a friend and a man of the world; I
entreat youdon't。 Have nothing to do with me。 Send me about my
business; you will never regret it。〃
〃Are you making fun; or is all this meant; Mr。 Seymour?〃 asked Benita;
still speaking beneath her breath; and looking straight before her。
〃Meant? Of course it is meant。 How can you ask?〃
〃Because I have always understood that on such occasions people wish
to make the best of themselves。〃
〃Quite so; but I ne