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  at the appointed time; when it pleased the Spirit of Bambatse; under
  whose guardianship it was。〃
  〃Who was the Spirit of Bambatse; Mr。 Seymour?〃
  〃I can't tell you; couldn't make out anything definite about her;
  except that she was said to be white; and to appear sometimes at
  sunrise; or in the moonlight; standing upon the tall point of rock of
  which I told you。 I remember that I got up before the dawn to look for
  herlike an idiot; for of course I saw nothingand that's all I know
  about the matter。〃
  〃Did you have any talk with my father; Mr。 Seymouralone; I mean?〃
  〃Yes; a little。 The next day he walked back to our waggon with us;
  being glad; I fancy; of a change from the perpetual society of his
  partner Jacob。 That wasn't wonderful in a man who had been brought up
  at Eton and Oxford; as I found out he had; like myself; and whatever
  his failings may have beenalthough we saw no sign of them; for he
  would not touch a drop of spiritswas a gentleman; which Jacob
  wasn't。 Still; heJacobhad read a lot; especially on out…of…the…way
  subjects; and could talk every language under the suna clever and
  agreeable scoundrel in short。〃
  〃Did my father say anything about himself?〃
  〃Yes; he told me that he had been an unsuccessful man all his life;
  and had much to reproach himself with; for we got quite confidential
  at last。 He added that he had a family in Englandwhat family he
  didn't saywhom he was anxious to make wealthy by way of reparation
  for past misdeeds; and that was why he was treasure…hunting。 However;
  from what you tell me; I fear he never found anything。〃
  〃No; Mr。 Seymour; he never found it and never will; but all the same I
  am glad to hear that he was thinking of us。 Also I should like to
  explore that place; Bambatse。〃
  〃So should I; Miss Clifford; in your company; and your father's; but
  not in that of Jacob。 If ever you should go there with him; I say:
  'Beware of Jacob。'〃
  〃Oh! I am not afraid of Jacob;〃 she answered with a laugh; 〃although I
  believe that my father still has something to do with himat least in
  one of his letters he mentioned his partner; who was a German。〃
  〃A German! I think that he must have meant a German Jew。〃
  After this there was silence between them for a time; then he said
  suddenly; 〃You have told me your story; would you like to hear mine?〃
  〃Yes;〃 she answered。
  〃Well; it won't take you long to listen to it; for; Miss Clifford;
  like Canning's needy knife…grinder; I have really none to tell。 You
  see before you one of the most useless persons in the world; an
  undistinguished member of what is called in England the 'leisured
  class;' who can do absolutely nothing that is worth doing; except
  shoot straight。〃
  〃Indeed;〃 said Benita。
  〃You do not seem impressed with that accomplishment;〃 he went on; 〃yet
  it is an honest fact that for the last fifteen yearsI was thirty…two
  this monthpractically my whole time has been given up to it; with a
  little fishing thrown in in the spring。 As I want to make the most of
  myself; I will add that I am supposed to be among the six best shots
  in England; and that my ambitionyes; great Heavens! my ambitionwas
  to become better than the other five。 By that sin fell the poor man
  who speaks to you。 I was supposed to have abilities; but I neglected
  them all to pursue this form of idleness。 I entered no profession; I
  did no work; with the result that at thirty…two I am ruined and almost
  hopeless。〃
  〃Why ruined and hopeless?〃 she asked anxiously; for the way in which
  they were spoken grieved her more than the words themselves。
  〃Ruined because my old uncle; the Honourable John Seymour Seymour;
  whose heir I was; committed the indiscretion of marrying a young lady
  who has presented him with thriving twins。 With the appearance of
  those twins my prospects disappeared; as did the allowance of £1;500 a
  year that he was good enough to make me on which to keep up a position
  as his next…of…kin。 I had something of my own; but also I had debts;
  and at the present moment a draft in my pocket for £2;163 14s。 5d。;
  and a little loose cash; represents the total of my worldly goods;
  just about the sum I have been accustomed to spend per annum。〃
  〃I don't call that ruin; I call that riches;〃 said Benita; relieved。
  〃With £2;000 to begin on you may make a fortune in Africa。 But how
  about the hopelessness?〃
  〃I am hopeless because I have absolutely nothing to which to look
  forward。 Really; when that £2;000 is gone I do not know how to earn a
  sixpence。 In this dilemma it occurred to me that the only thing I
  could do was to turn my shooting to practical account; and become a
  hunter of big game。 Therefore I propose to kill elephants until an
  elephant kills me。 At least;〃 he added in a changed voice; 〃I did so
  propose until half an hour ago。〃
  II
  THE END OF THE 〃ZANZIBAR。〃
  〃Until half an hour ago? Then why〃 and Benita stopped。
  〃Have I changed my very modest scheme of life? Miss Clifford; as you
  are so good as to be sufficiently interested; I will tell you。 It is
  because a temptation which hitherto I have been able to resist; has
  during the last thirty minutes become too strong for me。 You know
  everything has its breaking strain。〃 He puffed nervously at his cigar;
  threw it into the sea; paused; then went on: 〃Miss Clifford; I have
  dared to fall in love with you。 No; hear me out。 When I have done it
  will be quite time enough to give me the answer that I expect。
  Meanwhile; for the first time in my life; allow me the luxury of being
  in earnest。 To me it is a new sensation; and therefore very priceless。
  May I go on?〃
  Benita made no answer。 He rose with a certain deliberateness which
  characterized all his movementsfor Robert Seymour never seemed to be
  in a hurryand stood in front of her so that the moonlight shone upon
  her face; while his own remained in shadow。
  〃Beyond that £2;000 of which I have spoken; and incidentally its
  owner; I have nothing whatsoever to offer to you。 I am an indigent and
  worthless person。 Even in my prosperous days; when I could look
  forward to a large estate; although it was often suggested to me; I
  never considered myself justified in asking any lady to sharethe
  prospective estate。 I think now that the real reason was that I never
  cared sufficiently for any lady; since otherwise my selfishness would
  probably have overcome my scruples; as it does to…night。 Benita; for I
  will call you so; if for the first and last time; IIlove you。
  〃Listen now;〃 he went on; dropping his measured manner; and speaking
  hurriedly; like a man with an earnest message and little time in which
  to deliver it; 〃it is an odd thing; an incomprehensible thing; but
  true; trueI fell in love with you the first time I saw your face。
  You remember; you stood there leaning over the bulwark when I came on
  board at Southampton; and as I walked up the gangway; I looked and my
  eyes met yours。 Then I stopped; and that stout old lady who got off at
  Madeira bumped into me; and asked me to be good enough to make up my
  mind if I were going backward or forward。 Do you remember?〃
  〃Yes;〃 she answered in a low voice。
  〃Which things are an allegory;〃 he continued。 〃I felt it so at the
  time。 Yes; I had half a mind to answer 'Backward' and give up my berth
  in this ship。 Then I looked at you again; and something inside of me
  said 'Forward。' So I came up the rest of the gangway and took off my
  hat to you; a salutation I had no right to make; but which; I recall;
  you acknowledged。〃
  He paused; then continued: 〃As it began; so it has gone on。 It is
  always like that; is it not? The beginning is everything; the end must
  follow。 And now it has come out; as I was fully determined that it
  should not do half an hour ago; when suddenly you developed eyes in
  the back of your head; andoh! dearest; I love you。 No; please be
  quiet; I have not done。 I have told you what I am; and really there
  isn't much more to say about me; for I have no particular vices except
  the worst of them all; idleness; and not the slightest trace of any
  virtue that I can discover。 But I have a certain knowledge of the
  world acquired in a long course of shooting parties; and as a man of
  the world I will venture to give you a bit of advice。 It is possible
  that to you my life and death affair is a mere matter of board…ship
  amusement。 Yet it is possible also that you might take another view of
  the matter。 In that case; as a friend and a man of the world; I
  entreat youdon't。 Have nothing to do with me。 Send me about my
  business; you will never regret it。〃
  〃Are you making fun; or is all this meant; Mr。 Seymour?〃 asked Benita;
  still speaking beneath her breath; and looking straight before her。
  〃Meant? Of course it is meant。 How can you ask?〃
  〃Because I have always understood that on such occasions people wish
  to make the best of themselves。〃
  〃Quite so; but I ne