第 6 节
作者:大刀阔斧      更新:2021-04-30 15:53      字数:9322
  went from the presence crying。  That spectacle went to his own heart;
  and in his pain and shame he would have given worlds to have
  those unkind words back。  She had uttered no syllable of reproach
  and that cut him。  Not one suggestion that he look at his own record
  and she could have made; oh; so many; and such blistering ones!
  Her generous silence brought a swift revenge; for it turned his
  thoughts upon himself; it summoned before him a spectral procession;
  a moving vision of his life as he had been leading it these past
  few years of limitless prosperity; and as he sat there reviewing
  it his cheeks burned and his soul was steeped in humiliation。
  Look at her lifehow fair it was; and tending ever upward; and look
  at his ownhow frivolous; how charged with mean vanities; how selfish;
  how empty; how ignoble!  And its trendnever upward; but downward;
  ever downward!
  He instituted comparisons between her record and his own。  He had found
  fault with herso he musedHE!  And what could he say for himself?
  When she built her first church what was he doing?  Gathering other
  blas'e multimillionaires into a Poker Club; defiling his own palace
  with it; losing hundreds of thousands to it at every sitting;
  and sillily vain of the admiring notoriety it made for him。
  When she was building her first university; what was he doing?
  Polluting himself with a gay and dissipated secret life in the
  company of other fast bloods; multimillionaires in money and paupers
  in character。  When she was building her first foundling asylum;
  what was he doing?  Alas!  When she was projecting her noble Society
  for the Purifying of the Sex; what was he doing?  Ah; what; indeed!
  When she and the W。 C。 T。 U。 and the Woman with the Hatchet;
  moving with resistless march; were sweeping the fatal bottle from
  the land; what was he doing?  Getting drunk three times a day。
  When she; builder of a hundred cathedrals; was being gratefully
  welcomed and blest in papal Rome and decorated with the Golden Rose
  which she had so honorably earned; what was he doing?  Breaking the
  bank at Monte Carlo。
  He stopped。  He could go no farther; he could not bear the rest。
  He rose up; with a great resolution upon his lips:  this secret
  life should be revealing; and confessed; no longer would he live
  it clandestinely; he would go and tell her All。
  And that is what he did。  He told her All; and wept upon
  her bosom; wept; and moaned; and begged for her forgiveness。
  It was a profound shock; and she staggered under the blow; but he
  was her own; the core of her heart; the blessing of her eyes;
  her all in all; she could deny him nothing; and she forgave him。
  She felt that he could never again be quite to her what he had
  been before; she knew that he could only repent; and not reform;
  yet all morally defaced and decayed as he was; was he not her own;
  her very own; the idol of her deathless worship?  She said she
  was his serf; his slave; and she opened her yearning heart and took
  him in。
  CHAPTER VII
  One Sunday afternoon some time after this they were sailing the
  summer seas in their dream yacht; and reclining in lazy luxury under
  the awning of the after…deck。 There was silence; for each was busy
  with his own thoughts。  These seasons of silence had insensibly
  been growing more and more frequent of late; the old nearness and
  cordiality were waning。  Sally's terrible revelation had done its work;
  Aleck had tried hard to drive the memory of it out of her mind;
  but it would not go; and the shame and bitterness of it were
  poisoning her gracious dream life。  She could see now (on Sundays)
  that her husband was becoming a bloated and repulsive Thing。
  She could not close her eyes to this; and in these days she
  no longer looked at him; Sundays; when she could help it。
  But shewas she herself without blemish?  Alas; she knew she was not。
  She was keeping a secret from him; she was acting dishonorably
  toward him; and many a pang it was costing her。  SHE WAS BREAKING
  THE COMPACT; AND CONCEALING IT FROM HIM。  Under strong temptation
  she had gone into business again; she had risked their whole
  fortune in a purchase of all the railway systems and coal and steel
  companies in the country on a margin; and she was now trembling;
  every Sabbath hour; lest through some chance word of hers he find
  it out。  In her misery and remorse for this treachery she could
  not keep her heart from going out to him in pity; she was filled
  with compunctions to see him lying there; drunk and contented;
  and ever suspecting。  Never suspectingtrusting her with a perfect
  and pathetic trust; and she holding over him by a thread a possible
  calamity of so devastating a
  〃SAYAleck?〃
  The interrupting words brought her suddenly to herself。  She was
  grateful to have that persecuting subject from her thoughts;
  and she answered; with much of the old…time tenderness in her tone:
  〃Yes; dear。〃
  〃Do you know; Aleck; I think we are making a mistakethat is;
  you are。  I mean about the marriage business。〃  He sat up; fat and
  froggy and benevolent; like a bronze Buddha; and grew earnest。
  〃Considerit's more than five years。  You've continued the same
  policy from the start:  with every rise; always holding on for five
  points higher。  Always when I think we are going to have some weddings;
  you see a bigger thing ahead; and I undergo another disappointment。
  _I_ think you are too hard to please。  Some day we'll get left。
  First; we turned down the dentist and the lawyer。  That was all right
  it was sound。  Next; we turned down the banker's son and the
  pork…butcher's heirright again; and sound。  Next; we turned
  down the Congressman's son and the Governor'sright as a trivet;
  I confess it。  Next the Senator's son and the son of the Vice…President
  of the United Statesperfectly right; there's no permanency about
  those little distinctions。  Then you went for the aristocracy;
  and I thought we had struck oil at lastyes。  We would make
  a plunge at the Four Hundred; and pull in some ancient lineage;
  venerable; holy; ineffable; mellow with the antiquity of a hundred
  and fifty years; disinfected of the ancestral odors of salt…cod
  and pelts all of a century ago; and unsmirched by a day's work since;
  and then! why; then the marriages; of course。  But no; along comes
  a pair a real aristocrats from Europe; and straightway you throw over
  the half…breeds。 It was awfully discouraging; Aleck!  Since then;
  what a procession!  You turned down the baronets for a pair
  of barons; you turned down the barons for a pair of viscounts;
  the viscounts for a pair of earls; the earls for a pair of marquises;
  the marquises for a brace of dukes。  NOW; Aleck; cash in!
  you've played the limit。  You've got a job lot of four dukes
  under the hammer; of four nationalities; all sound in the wind
  and limb and pedigree; all bankrupt and in debt up to the ears。
  They come high; but we can afford it。  Come; Aleck; don't delay
  any longer; don't keep up the suspense:  take the whole lay…out;
  and leave the girls to choose!〃
  Aleck had been smiling blandly and contentedly all through this
  arraignment of her marriage policy; a pleasant light; as of triumph
  with perhaps a nice surprise peeping out through it; rose in her eyes;
  and she said; as calmly as she could:
  〃Sally; what would you say toROYALTY?〃
  Prodigious!  Poor man; it knocked him silly; and he fell over the
  garboard…strake and barked his shin on the cat…heads。 He was dizzy
  for a moment; then he gathered himself up and limped over and sat
  down by his wife and beamed his old…time admiration and affection
  upon her in floods; out of his bleary eyes。
  〃By George!〃 he said; fervently; 〃Aleck; you ARE greatthe greatest
  woman in the whole earth!  I can't ever learn the whole size of you。
  I can't ever learn the immeasurable deeps of you。  Here I've been
  considering myself qualified to criticize your game。  _I!_ Why;
  if I had stopped to think; I'd have known you had a lone hand up
  your sleeve。  Now; dear heart; I'm all red…hot impatiencetell me
  about it!〃
  The flattered and happy woman put her lips to his ear and whispered
  a princely name。  It made him catch his breath; it lit his face
  with exultation。
  〃Land!〃 he said; 〃it's a stunning catch!  He's got a gambling…hall;
  and a graveyard; and a bishop; and a cathedralall his very own。
  And all gilt…edged five…hundred…per…cent。 stock; every detail of it;
  the tidiest little property in Europe。  and that graveyard
  it's the selectest in the world:  none but suicides admitted;
  YES; sir; and the free…list suspended; too; ALL the time。
  There isn't much land in the principality; but there's enough:
  eight hundred acres in the graveyard and forty…two outside。
  It's a SOVEREIGNTYthat's the main thing; LAND'S nothing。
  There's plenty land; Sahara's drugged with it。〃
  Aleck glowed; she was profoundly happy。  She said:
  〃Think of it; Sall