第 2 节
作者:死磕      更新:2021-03-11 18:35      字数:9322
  oil paper; disposing of one bunch in his empty tobacco pouch; of
  another bunch in the inside band of his battered hat; of a third
  bunch under his shirt on the chest。  This accomplished; a panic
  came upon him; and he unwrapped them all and counted them again。
  There were still sixty…seven。
  He dried his wet foot…gear by the fire。  The moccasins were in
  soggy shreds。  The blanket socks were worn through in places; and
  his feet were raw and bleeding。  His ankle was throbbing; and he
  gave it an examination。  It had swollen to the size of his knee。
  He tore a long strip from one of his two blankets and bound the
  ankle tightly。  He tore other strips and bound them about his feet
  to serve for both moccasins and socks。  Then he drank the pot of
  water; steaming hot; wound his watch; and crawled between his
  blankets。
  He slept like a dead man。  The brief darkness around midnight came
  and went。  The sun arose in the northeast … at least the day dawned
  in that quarter; for the sun was hidden by gray clouds。
  At six o'clock he awoke; quietly lying on his back。  He gazed
  straight up into the gray sky and knew that he was hungry。  As he
  rolled over on his elbow he was startled by a loud snort; and saw a
  bull caribou regarding him with alert curiosity。  The animal was
  not mere than fifty feet away; and instantly into the man's mind
  leaped the vision and the savor of a caribou steak sizzling and
  frying over a fire。  Mechanically he reached for the empty gun;
  drew a bead; and pulled the trigger。  The bull snorted and leaped
  away; his hoofs rattling and clattering as he fled across the
  ledges。
  The man cursed and flung the empty gun from him。  He groaned aloud
  as he started to drag himself to his feet。  It was a slow and
  arduous task。
  His joints were like rusty hinges。  They worked harshly in their
  sockets; with much friction; and each bending or unbending was
  accomplished only through a sheer exertion of will。  When he
  finally gained his feet; another minute or so was consumed in
  straightening up; so that he could stand erect as a man should
  stand。
  He crawled up a small knoll and surveyed the prospect。  There were
  no trees; no bushes; nothing but a gray sea of moss scarcely
  diversified by gray rocks; gray lakelets; and gray streamlets。  The
  sky was gray。  There was no sun nor hint of sun。  He had no idea of
  north; and he had forgotten the way he had come to this spot the
  night before。  But he was not lost。  He knew that。  Soon he would
  come to the land of the little sticks。  He felt that it lay off to
  the left somewhere; not far … possibly just over the next low hill。
  He went back to put his pack into shape for travelling。  He assured
  himself of the existence of his three separate parcels of matches;
  though he did not stop to count them。  But he did linger; debating;
  over a squat moose…hide sack。  It was not large。  He could hide it
  under his two hands。  He knew that it weighed fifteen pounds; … as
  much as all the rest of the pack; … and it worried him。  He finally
  set it to one side and proceeded to roll the pack。  He paused to
  gaze at the squat moose…hide sack。  He picked it up hastily with a
  defiant glance about him; as though the desolation were trying to
  rob him of it; and when he rose to his feet to stagger on into the
  day; it was included in the pack on his back。
  He bore away to the left; stopping now and again to eat muskeg
  berries。  His ankle had stiffened; his limp was more pronounced;
  but the pain of it was as nothing compared with the pain of his
  stomach。  The hunger pangs were sharp。  They gnawed and gnawed
  until he could not keep his mind steady on the course he must
  pursue to gain the land of little sticks。  The muskeg berries did
  not allay this gnawing; while they made his tongue and the roof of
  his mouth sore with their irritating bite。
  He came upon a valley where rock ptarmigan rose on whirring wings
  from the ledges and muskegs。  Ker … ker … ker was the cry they
  made。  He threw stones at them; but could not hit them。  He placed
  his pack on the ground and stalked them as a cat stalks a sparrow。
  The sharp rocks cut through his pants' legs till his knees left a
  trail of blood; but the hurt was lost in the hurt of his hunger。
  He squirmed over the wet moss; saturating his clothes and chilling
  his body; but he was not aware of it; so great was his fever for
  food。  And always the ptarmigan rose; whirring; before him; till
  their ker … ker … ker became a mock to him; and he cursed them and
  cried aloud at them with their own cry。
  Once he crawled upon one that must have been asleep。  He did not
  see it till it shot up in his face from its rocky nook。  He made a
  clutch as startled as was the rise of the ptarmigan; and there
  remained in his hand three tail…feathers。  As he watched its flight
  he hated it; as though it had done him some terrible wrong。  Then
  he returned and shouldered his pack。
  As the day wore along he came into valleys or swales where game was
  more plentiful。  A band of caribou passed by; twenty and odd
  animals; tantalizingly within rifle range。  He felt a wild desire
  to run after them; a certitude that he could run them down。  A
  black fox came toward him; carrying a ptarmigan in his mouth。  The
  man shouted。  It was a fearful cry; but the fox; leaping away in
  fright; did not drop the ptarmigan。
  Late in the afternoon he followed a stream; milky with lime; which
  ran through sparse patches of rush…grass。  Grasping these rushes
  firmly near the root; he pulled up what resembled a young onion…
  sprout no larger than a shingle…nail。  It was tender; and his teeth
  sank into it with a crunch that promised deliciously of food。  But
  its fibers were tough。  It was composed of stringy filaments
  saturated with water; like the berries; and devoid of nourishment。
  He threw off his pack and went into the rush…grass on hands and
  knees; crunching and munching; like some bovine creature。
  He was very weary and often wished to rest … to lie down and sleep;
  but he was continually driven on … not so much by his desire to
  gain the land of little sticks as by his hunger。  He searched
  little ponds for frogs and dug up the earth with his nails for
  worms; though he knew in spite that neither frogs nor worms existed
  so far north。
  He looked into every pool of water vainly; until; as the long
  twilight came on; he discovered a solitary fish; the size of a
  minnow; in such a pool。  He plunged his arm in up to the shoulder;
  but it eluded him。  He reached for it with both hands and stirred
  up the milky mud at the bottom。  In his excitement he fell in;
  wetting himself to the waist。  Then the water was too muddy to
  admit of his seeing the fish; and he was compelled to wait until
  the sediment had settled。
  The pursuit was renewed; till the water was again muddied。  But he
  could not wait。  He unstrapped the tin bucket and began to bale the
  pool。  He baled wildly at first; splashing himself and flinging the
  water so short a distance that it ran back into the pool。  He
  worked more carefully; striving to be cool; though his heart was
  pounding against his chest and his hands were trembling。  At the
  end of half an hour the pool was nearly dry。  Not a cupful of water
  remained。  And there was no fish。  He found a hidden crevice among
  the stones through which it had escaped to the adjoining and larger
  pool … a pool which he could not empty in a night and a day。  Had
  he known of the crevice; he could have closed it with a rock at the
  beginning and the fish would have been his。
  Thus he thought; and crumpled up and sank down upon the wet earth。
  At first he cried softly to himself; then he cried loudly to the
  pitiless desolation that ringed him around; and for a long time
  after he was shaken by great dry sobs。
  He built a fire and warmed himself by drinking quarts of hot water;
  and made camp on a rocky ledge in the same fashion he had the night
  before。  The last thing he did was to see that his matches were dry
  and to wind his watch。  The blankets were wet and clammy。  His
  ankle pulsed with pain。  But he knew only that he was hungry; and
  through his restless sleep he dreamed of feasts and banquets and of
  food served and spread in all imaginable ways。
  He awoke chilled and sick。  There was no sun。  The gray of earth
  and sky had become deeper; more profound。  A raw wind was blowing;
  and the first flurries of snow were whitening the hilltops。  The
  air about him thickened and grew white while he made a fire and
  boiled more water。  It was wet snow; half rain; and the flakes were
  large and soggy。  At first they melted as soon as they came in
  contact with the earth; but ever more fell; covering the ground;
  putting out the fire; spoiling his supply of moss…fuel。
  This was a signal for him to s