第 4 节
作者:雨帆      更新:2021-03-11 17:59      字数:9322
  ill to answer his letter; and have lost touch with him。〃
  Everett drew a letter from his pocket。  〃This came about a
  month ago。  It's chiefly about his new opera; which is to be
  brought out in London next winter。  Read it at your leisure。〃
  〃I think I shall keep it as a hostage; so that I may be sure
  you will come again。  Now I want you to play for me。  Whatever
  you like; but if there is anything new in the world; in mercy let
  me hear it。  For nine months I have heard nothing but 'The
  Baggage Coach Ahead' and 'She Is My Baby's Mother。'〃
  He sat down at the piano; and Katharine sat near him;
  absorbed in his remarkable physical likeness to his brother and
  trying to discover in just what it consisted。  She told herself
  that it was very much as though a sculptor's finished work had
  been rudely copied in wood。  He was of a larger build than
  Adriance; and his shoulders were broad and heavy; while those of
  his brother were slender and rather girlish。  His face was of the
  same oval mold; but it was gray and darkened about the mouth by
  continual shaving。  His eyes were of the same inconstant April
  color; but they were reflective and rather dull; while Adriance's
  were always points of highlight; and always meaning another thing
  than the thing they meant yesterday。  But it was hard to see why
  this earnest man should so continually suggest that lyric;
  youthful face that was as gay as his was grave。  For Adriance;
  though he was ten years the elder; and though his hair was
  streaked with silver; had the face of a boy of twenty; so mobile
  that it told his thoughts before he could put them into words。
  A contralto; famous for the extravagance of her vocal
  methods and of her affections; had once said to him that the
  shepherd boys who sang in the Vale of Tempe must certainly have
  looked like young Hilgarde; and the comparison had been
  appropriated by a hundred shyer women who preferred to quote。
  As Everett sat smoking on the veranda of the InterOcean
  House that night; he was a victim to random recollections。  His
  infatuation for Katharine Gaylord; visionary as it was; had been
  the most serious of his boyish love affairs; and had long
  disturbed his bachelor dreams。  He was painfully timid in
  everything relating to the emotions; and his hurt had withdrawn
  him from the society of women。  The fact that it was all so done
  and dead and far behind him; and that the woman had lived her
  life out since then; gave him an oppressive sense of age and
  loss。  He bethought himself of something he had read about
  〃sitting by the hearth and remembering the faces of women without
  desire;〃 and felt himself an octogenarian。
  He remembered how bitter and morose he had grown during his
  stay at his brother's studio when Katharine Gaylord was working
  there; and how he had wounded Adriance on the night of his last
  concert in New York。  He had sat there in the box while his
  brother and Katharine were called back again and again after the
  last number; watching the roses go up over the footlights until
  they were stacked half as high as the piano; brooding; in his
  sullen boy's heart; upon the pride those two felt in each other's
  workspurring each other to their best and beautifully
  contending in song。  The footlights had seemed a hard; glittering
  line drawn sharply between their life and his; a circle of flame
  set about those splendid children of genius。  He walked back to
  his hotel alone and sat in his window staring out on Madison
  Square until long after midnight; resolving to beat no more at
  doors that he could never enter and realizing more keenly than
  ever before how far this glorious world of beautiful creations
  lay from the paths of men like himself。  He told himself that he
  had in common with this woman only the baser uses of life。
  Everett's week in Cheyenne stretched to three; and he saw no
  prospect of release except through the thing he dreaded。  The
  bright; windy days of the Wyoming autumn passed swiftly。  Letters
  and telegrams came urging him to hasten his trip to the coast;
  but he resolutely postponed his business engagements。  The
  mornings he spent on one of Charley Gaylord's ponies; or fishing
  in the mountains; and in the evenings he sat in his room writing
  letters or reading。  In the afternoon he was usually at his post
  of duty。  Destiny; he reflected; seems to have very positive
  notions about the sort of parts we are fitted to play。  The scene
  changes and the compensation varies; but in the end we usually
  find that we have played the same class of business from first to
  last。  Everett had been a stopgap all his life。  He remembered
  going through a looking glass labyrinth when he was a boy and
  trying gallery after gallery; only at every turn to bump his nose
  against his own facewhich; indeed; was not his own; but his
  brother's。  No matter what his mission; east or west; by land or
  sea; he was sure to find himself employed in his brother's
  business; one of the tributary lives which helped to swell the
  shining current of Adriance Hilgarde's。  It was not the first
  time that his duty had been to comfort; as best he could; one of
  the broken things his brother's imperious speed had cast aside
  and forgotten。  He made no attempt to analyze the situation or to
  state it in exact terms; but he felt Katharine Gaylord's need for
  him; and he accepted it as a commission from his brother to help
  this woman to die。  Day by day he felt her demands on him grow
  more imperious; her need for him grow more acute and positive;
  and day by day he felt that in his peculiar relation to her his
  own individuality played a smaller and smaller part。  His power
  to minister to her comfort; he saw; lay solely in his link with
  his brother's life。  He understood all that his physical
  resemblance meant to her。  He knew that she sat by him always
  watching for some common trick of gesture; some familiar play of
  expression; some illusion of light and shadow; in which he should
  seem wholly Adriance。  He knew that she lived upon this and that
  her disease fed upon it; that it sent shudders of remembrance
  through her and that in the exhaustion which followed this
  turmoil of her dying senses; she slept deep and sweet and
  dreamed of youth and art and days in a certain old Florentine
  garden; and not of bitterness and death。
  The question which most perplexed him was; 〃How much shall I
  know?  How much does she wish me to know?〃  A few days after his
  first meeting with Katharine Gaylord; he had cabled his brother
  to write her。  He had merely said that she was mortally ill; he
  could depend on Adriance to say the right thingthat was a part
  of his gift。  Adriance always said not only the right thing; but
  the opportune; graceful; exquisite thing。  His phrases took the
  color of the moment and the then…present condition; so that they
  never savored of perfunctory compliment or frequent usage。  He
  always caught the lyric essence of the moment; the poetic
  suggestion of every situation。  Moreover; he usually did the
  right thing; the opportune; graceful; exquisite thingexcept;
  when he did very cruel thingsbent upon making people happy
  when their existence touched his; just as he insisted that his
  material environment should be beautiful; lavishing upon those
  near him all the warmth and radiance of his rich nature; all the
  homage of the poet and troubadour; and; when they were no longer
  near; forgettingfor that also was a part of Adriance's gift。
  Three weeks after Everett had sent his cable; when he made
  his daily call at the gaily painted ranch house; he found
  Katharine laughing like a schoolgirl。  〃Have you ever thought;〃
  she said; as he entered the music room; 〃how much these seances
  of ours are like Heine's 'Florentine Nights;' except that I don't
  give you an opportunity to monopolize the conversation as Heine
  did?〃  She held his hand longer than usual; as she greeted him;
  and looked searchingly up into his face。  〃You are the kindest
  man living; the kindest;〃 she added; softly。
  Everett's gray face colored faintly as he drew his hand
  away; for he felt that this time she was looking at him and not
  at a whimsical caricature of his brother。  〃Why; what have I done
  now?〃 he asked; lamely。  〃I can't remember having sent you any
  stale candy or champagne since yesterday。〃
  She drew a letter with a foreign postmark from between
  the