第 72 节
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小秋 更新:2021-03-11 17:57 字数:6400
face。
Before breakfast the next morning I was out on the beach; trying
to decide how the inevitable disclosure might be made。 Eunice
joined me。 Now; when we were alone; I asked if she was really and
completely happy。 Quietly and sadly she answered: 〃Not yet。〃
I hardly knew what to say。 My face must have expressed
disappointment and surprise。
〃I shall never be quite happy;〃 she resumed; 〃till I know what it
is that you kept from me on that memorable day。 I don't like
having a secret from my husbandthough it is not _my_ secret。〃
〃Remember your promise;〃 I said
〃I don't forget it;〃 she answered。 〃I can only wish that my
promise would keep back the thoughts that come to me in spite of
myself。〃
〃What thoughts?〃
〃There is something; as I fear; in the story of my parents which
you are afraid to confide to me。 Why did Mr。 Gracedieu allow me
to believe and leave everybody to believe; that I was his own
child?〃
〃My dear; I relieved your mind of those doubts on the morning of
your marriage。〃
〃No。 I was only thinking of myself at that time。 My motherthe
doubt of _her_ is the doubt that torments me now。〃
〃What do you mean?〃
She put her arm in mine; and held by it with both hands。
〃The mock…mother!〃 she whispered。 〃Do you remember that dreadful
Vision; that horrid whispering temptation in the dead of night?
_Was_ it a mock…mother? Oh; pity me! I don't know who my mother
was。 One horrid thought about her is a burden on my mind。 If she
was a good woman; you who love me would surely have made me happy
by speaking of her?〃
Those words decided me at last。 Could she suffer more than she
had suffered already; if I trusted her with the truth? I ran the
risk。 There was a time of silence that filled me with terror。 The
interval passed。 She took my hand; and put it to her heart。 〃Does
it beat as if I was frightened?〃 she asked。
No! It was beating calmly。
〃Does it relieve your anxiety?〃
It told me that I had not surprised her。 That unforgotten Vision
of the night had prepared her for the worst; after the time when
I had told her that she was an adopted child。 〃I know;〃 I said;
〃that those whispered temptations overpowered you again; when you
and Helena met on the stairs; and you forbade her to enter
Philip's room。 And I know that love had conquered once more; when
you were next seen sitting by Philip's bedside。 Tell mehave you
any misgivings now? Is there fear in your heart of the return of
that tempting spirit in you; in the time to come?〃
〃Not while Philip lives!〃
There; where her love wasthere her safety was。 And she knew it!
She suddenly left me。 I asked where she was going。
〃To tell Philip;〃 was the reply。
She was waiting for me at the door; when I followed her to the
house。
〃Is it done?〃 I said。
〃It is done;〃 she answered。
〃What did he say?〃
〃He said: 'My darling; if I could be fonder of you than ever; I
should be fonder of you now。' 〃
I have been blamed for being too ready to confide to Philip the
precious trust of Eunice's happiness。 If that reply does not
justify me; where is justification to be found?
POSTSCRIPT。
LATER in the day; Mrs。 Tenbruggen arrived to offer her
congratulations。 She asked for a few minutes with Philip alone。
As a cat elaborates her preparations for killing a mouse; so the
human cat elaborated her preparations for killing Philip's
happiness; he remained uninjured by her teeth and her claws。
〃Somebody;〃 she said; 〃has told you of it already?〃 And Philip
answered: 〃Yes; my wife。〃
For some months longer; Mr。 Gracedieu lingered。 One morning; he
said to Eunice: 〃I want to teach you to knit。 Sit by me; and see
me do it。〃 His hands fell softly on his lap; his head sank little
by little on her shoulder。 She could just hear him whisper: 〃How
pleasant it is to sleep!〃 Never was Death's dreadful work more
gently done
Our married pair live now on the paternal estate in Ireland; and
Miss Jillgall reigns queen of domestic affairs。 I am still strong
enough to pass my autumn holidays in that pleasant house。
At times; my memory reverts to Helena Gracedieu; and to what I
discovered when I had seen her diary。
How little I knew of that terrible creature when I first met with
her; and fancied that she had inherited her mother's character!
It was weak indeed to compare the mean vices of Mrs。 Gracedieu
with the diabolical depravity of her daughter。 Here the doctrine
of hereditary transmission of moral qualities must own that it
has overlooked the fertility (for growth of good and for growth
of evil equally) which is inherent in human nature。 There are
virtues that exalt us; and vices that degrade us; whose
mysterious origin is; not in our parents; but in ourselves。 When
I think of Helena; I ask myself; where is the trace which reveals
that the first murder in the world was the product of inherited
crime?
The criminal left the prison; on the expiration of her sentence;
so secretly that it was impossible to trace her。 Some months
later; Miss Jillgall received an illustrated newspaper published
in the United States。 She showed me one of the portraits in it。
〃Do you recognize the illustrious original?〃 she asked; with
indignant emphasis on the last two words。 I recognized Helena。
〃Now read her new title;〃 Miss Jillgall continued。
I read: 〃The Reverend Miss Gracedieu。〃
The biographical notice followed。 Here is an extract: 〃This
eminent lady; the victim of a shocking miscarriage of justice in
England; is now the distinguished leader of a new community in
the United States。 We hail in her the great intellect which
asserts the superiority of woman over man。 In the first French
Revolution; the attempt made by men to found a rational religion
met with only temporary success。 It was reserved for the mightier
spirit of woman to lay the foundations more firmly; and to
dedicate one of the noblest edifices in this city to the Worship
of Pure Reason。 Readers who wish for further information will do
well to provide themselves with the Reverend Miss Gracedieu's
Orationsthe tenth edition of which is advertised in our
columns。〃
〃I once asked you;〃 Miss Jillgall reminded me; 〃what Helena would
do when she came out of prison; and you said she would do very
well。 Oh; Mr。 Governor; Solomon was nothing to You!〃
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