第 55 节
作者:小秋      更新:2021-03-11 17:56      字数:9322
  understand; now; why I concealed my name from you; and why I kept
  out of the house while you were in it。〃
  It was plain enough; of course。 If I had known her again; or had
  heard her name; I might have told the Minister that Mrs。
  Tenbruggen and Miss Chance were one and the same。 And if I had
  seen her and talked with her in the house; my memory might have
  shown itself capable of improvement。 Having politely presented
  the expression of my thanks; I rose to go。
  She stopped me at the door。
  〃One word more;〃 she said; 〃while Selina is out of the way。 I
  need hardly tell you that I have not trusted her with the
  Minister's secret。 You and I are; as I take it; the only people
  now living who know the truth about these two girls。 And we keep
  our advantage。〃
  〃What advantage?〃 I asked。
  〃Don't you know?〃
  〃I don't indeed。〃
  〃No more do I。 Female folly; and a slip of the tongue; I am old
  and ugly; but I am still a woman。 About Miss Eunice。 Somebody has
  told the pretty little fool never to trust strangers。 You would
  have been amused; if you had heard that sly young person
  prevaricating with me。 In one respect; her appearance strikes me。
  She is not like either the wretch who was hanged; or the poor
  victim who was murdered。 Can she be the adopted child? Or is it
  the other sister; whom I have not seen yet? Oh; come! come! Don't
  try to look as if you didn't know。 That is really too
  ridiculous。〃
  〃You alluded just now;〃 I answered; 〃to our 'advantage' in being
  the only persons who know the truth about the two girls。 Well;
  Mrs。 Tenbruggen; I keep _my_ advantage。〃
  〃In other words;〃 she rejoined; 〃you leave me to make the
  discovery myself。 Well; my friend; I mean to do it!〃
  。 。 。 。 。 。 。
  In the evening; my hotel offered to me the refuge of which I
  stood in need。 I could think; for the first time that day;
  without interruption。
  Being resolved to see Philip; I prepared myself for the interview
  by consulting my extracts once more。 The letter; in which Mrs。
  Tenbruggen figures; inspired me with the hope of protection for
  Mr。 Gracedieu; attainable through no less a person than Helena
  herself。
  To begin with; she would certainly share Philip's aversion to the
  Masseuse; and her dislike of Miss Jillgall would; just as
  possibly; extend to Miss Jillgall's friend。 The hostile feeling
  thus set up might be trusted to keep watch on Mrs。 Tenbruggen's
  proceedings; with a vigilance not attainable by the coarser
  observation of a man。 In the event; of an improvement in the
  Minister's health; I should hear of it both from the doctor and
  from Miss Jillgall; and in that case I should instantly return to
  my unhappy friend and put him on his guard。
  I started for London by the early train in the morning。
  My way home from the terminus took me past the hotel at which the
  elder Mr。 Dunboyne was staying。 I called on him。 He was reported
  to be engaged; that is to say; immersed in his books。 The address
  on one of Philip's letters had informed me that he was staying at
  another hotel。 Pursuing my inquiries in this direction; I met
  with a severe disappointment。 Mr。 Philip Dunboyne had left the
  hotel that morning; for what destination neither the landlord nor
  the waiter could tell me。
  The next day's post brought with it the information which I had
  failed to obtain。 Miss Jillgall wrote; infor ming me in her
  strongest language that Philip Dunboyne had returned to Helena。
  Indignant Selina added: 〃Helena means to make him marry her; and
  I promise you she shall fail; if I can stop it。〃
  In taking leave of Eunice; I had given her my address; had warned
  her to be careful; if she and Mrs。 Tenbruggen happened to meet
  again; and had begged her to write to me; or to come to me; if
  anything happened to alarm her in my absence。
  In two days more; I received a line from Eunice; written
  evidently in the greatest agitation。
  〃Philip has discovered me。 He has been here; and has insisted on
  seeing me。 I have refused。 The good farmer has so kindly taken my
  part。 I can write no more。〃
  CHAPTER L。
  THE NEWS FROM THE FARM。
  WHEN I next heard from Miss Jillgall; the introductory part of
  her letter merely reminded me that Philip Dunboyne was
  established in the town; and that Helena was in daily
  communication with him。 I shall do Selina no injustice if my
  extract begins with her second page。
  〃You will sympathize; I am sure〃 (she writes); 〃with the
  indignation which urged me to call on Philip; and tell him the
  way to the farmhouse。 Think of Helena being determined to marry
  him; whether he wants to or not! I am afraid this is bad grammar。
  But there are occasions when even a cultivated lady fails in her
  grammar; and almost envies the men their privilege of swearing
  when they are in a rage。 My state of mind is truly indescribable。
  Grief mingles with anger; when I tell you that my sweet Euneece
  has disappointed me; for the first time since I had the happiness
  of knowing and admiring her。 What can have been the motive of her
  refusal to receive her penitent lover? Is it pride? We are told
  that Satan fell through pride。 Euneece satanic? Impossible! I
  feel inclined to go and ask her what has hardened her heart
  against a poor young man who bitterly regrets his own folly。 Do
  you think it was bad advice from the farmer or his wife? In that
  case; I shall exert my influence; and take her away。 You would do
  the same; wouldn't you?
  〃I am ashamed to mention the poor dear Minister in a postscript。
  The truth is; I don't very well know what I am about。 Mr。
  Gracedieu is quiet; sleeps better than he did; eats with a keener
  appetite; gives no trouble。 But; alas; that glorious intellect is
  in a state of eclipse! Do not suppose; because I write
  figuratively; that I am not sorry for him。 He understands
  nothing; he remembers nothing; he has my prayers。
  〃You might come to us again; if you would only be so kind。 It
  would make no difference now; the poor man is so sadly altered。 I
  must add; most reluctantly; that the doctor recommends your
  staying at home。 Between ourselves; he is little better than a
  coward。 Fancy his saying; 'No; we must not run that risk yet。' I
  am barely civil to him; and no more。
  〃In any other affair (excuse me for troubling you with a second
  postscript); my sympathy with Euneece would have penetrated her
  motives; I should have felt with her feelings。 But I have never
  been in love; no gentleman gave me the opportunity when I was
  young。 Now I am middle…aged; neglect has done its dreary workmy
  heart is an extinct crater。 Figurative again! I had better put my
  pen away; and say farewell for the present。〃
  Miss Jillgall may now give place to Eunice。 The same day's post
  brought me both letters。
  I should be unworthy indeed of the trust which this affectionate
  girl has placed in me; if I failed to receive her explanation of
  her conduct toward Philip Dunboyne; as a sacred secret confided
  to my fatherly regard。 In those later portions of her letter;
  which are not addressed to me confidentially; Eunice writes as
  follows:
  〃I get newsand what heartbreaking news!of my father; by
  sending a messenger to Selina。 It is more than ever impossible
  that I can put myself in the way of seeing Helena again。 She has
  written to me about Philip; in a tone so shockingly insolent and
  cruel; that I have destroyed her letter。 Philip's visit to the
  farm; discovered I don't know how; seems to have infuriated her。
  She accuses me of doing all that she might herself have done in
  my place; and threatens meNo! I am afraid of the wicked
  whisperings of that second self of mine if I think of it。 They
  were near to tempting me when I read Helena's letter。 But I
  thought of what you said; after I had shown you my Journal; and
  your words took my memory back to the days when I was happy with
  Philip。 The trial and the terror passed away。
  〃Consolation has come to me from the best of good women。 Mrs。
  Staveley writes as lovingly as my mother might have written; if
  death had spared her。 I have replied with all the gratitude that
  I really feel; but without taking advantage of the services which
  she offers。 Mrs。 Staveley has it in her mind; as you had it in
  your mind; to bring Philip back to me。 Does she forget; do you
  forget; that Helena claims him? But you both mean kindly; and I
  love you both for the interest that you feel in me。
  〃The farmer's wifedear good soul!hardly understands me so
  well as her husband does。 She confesses to pitying Philip。 'He is
  so wretched;' she says。 'And; dear heart; how handsome; and what
  nice; winning manners! I don't think I should have had your
  courage; in your place。 To tell the truth; I should have jumped
  for joy when I saw him at the door; and I should have run down to
  let him inand perhaps been sorry for it afterward。 If you
  really wish to forget him; my dear; I will do all I can to help
  you。'
  〃These are trifling things to mention; but I am afraid you may
  think I am unhappyand I want to prevent that。
  〃I have so much to be thankful for; and the children are so fond
  of me。 Whether I teach them as well as I might have done; if I
  had been a more learned girl; may perhaps be doubtful。 They do
  more for their governess; I am afraid; than th