第 51 节
作者:小秋      更新:2021-03-11 17:56      字数:9321
  him。
  He paused; looking backward and forward between the picture and
  me。
  〃Which of them shall I kill first?〃 he said to himself。 〃The man
  who was my trusted friend? Or the woman whom I believed to be an
  angel on earth?〃 He stopped once more; in a state of fierce
  self…concentration; debating what he should do。 〃The woman;〃 he
  decided。 〃Wretch! Fiend! Harlot! How I loved her!!!〃
  With a yell of fury; he pounced on the pictureripped the canvas
  out of the frameand cut it malignantly into fragments。 As they
  dropped from the razor on the floor; he stamped on them; and
  ground them under his foot。 〃Go; wife of my bosom;〃 he cried;
  with a dreadful mockery of voice and look〃go; and burn
  everlastingly in the place of torment!〃 His eyes glared at me。
  〃Your turn now;〃 he saidand rushed at me with his weapon ready
  in his hand。 I hurled the chair at his right arm。 The razor
  dropped on the floor。 I caught him by the wrist。 Like a wild
  animal he tried to bite me。 With my free handif I had known how
  to defend myself in any other way; I would have taken that
  waywith my free hand I seized him by the throat; forced him
  back; and held him against the wall。 My grasp on his throat kept
  him quiet。 But the dread of seriously injuring him so completely
  overcame me; that I forgot I was a prisoner in the room; and was
  on the point of alarming the household by a cry for help。
  I was still struggling to preserve my self…control; when the
  sound of footsteps broke the silence outside。 I heard the key
  turn in the lock; and saw the doctor at the open door。
  CHAPTER XLVI。
  THE CUMBERSOME LADIES。
  I CANNOT prevail upon myself to dwell at any length on the events
  that followed。
  We secured my unhappy friend; and carried him to his bed。 It was
  necessary to have men in attendance who could perform the duty of
  watching him。 The doctor sent for them; while I went downstairs
  to make the best I could of the miserable news which it was
  impossible entirely to conceal。
  All that I could do to spare Miss Jillgall; I did。 I was obliged
  to acknowledge that there had been an outbreak of violence; and
  that the portrait of the Minister's wife had been destroyed by
  the Minister himself。 Of Helena's revenge on me I said nothing。
  It had led to consequences which even her merciless malice could
  not have contemplated。 There were no obstacles in the way of
  keeping secret the attempt on my life。 But I was compelled to own
  that Mr。 Gracedieu had taken a dislike to me; which rendered it
  necessary that my visit should be brought to an end。 I hastened
  to add that I should go to the hotel; and should wait there until
  the next day; in the hope of hearing better news。
  Of the multitude of questions with which poor Miss Jillgall
  overwhelmed meof the wild words of sorrow and alarm that
  escaped herof the desperate manner in which she held by my arm;
  and implored me not to go away; when I must see for myself that
  〃she was a person entirely destitute of presence of mind〃I
  shall say nothing。 The undeserved suffering that is inflicted on
  innocent persons by the sins of others demands silent sympathy;
  and; to that extent at least; I can say that I honestly felt for
  my quaint and pleasant little friend。
  In the evening the doctor called on me at the hotel。 The medical
  treatment of his patient had succeeded in calming the maddened
  brain under the influence of sleep。 If the night passed quietly;
  better news might be hoped for in the morning。
  On the next day I had arranged to drive to the farm; being
  resolved not to disappoint Eunice。 But I shrank from the prospect
  of having to distress her as I had already distressed Miss
  Jillgall。 The only alternative left was to repeat the sad story
  in writing; subject to the concealments which I had already
  observed。 This I did; and sent the letter by messenger;
  overnight; so that Eunice might know when to expect me。
  The medical report; in the morning; justified some hope。 Mr。
  Gracedieu had slept well; and there had been no reappearance of
  insane violence on his waking。 But the doctor's opinion was far
  from encouraging when we spoke of the future。 He did not
  anticipate the cruel necessity of placing the Minister under
  restraintunless some new provocation led to a new outbreak。 The
  misfortune to be feared was imbecility。
  I was just leaving the hotel to keep my appointment with Eunice;
  when the waiter announced the arrival of a young lady who wished
  to speak with me。 Before I could ask if she had mentioned her
  name; the young lady herself walked inHelena Gracedieu。
  She explained her object in calling on me; with the exasperating
  composure which was peculiarly her own。 No parallel to it occurs
  to me in my official experience of shameless women。
  〃I don't wish to speak of what happened yesterday; so far as I
  know anything about it;〃 she began。 〃It is quite enough for me
  that you have been obliged to leave the house and to take refuge
  in this hotel。 I have come to say a word about the future。 Are
  you honoring me with your attention?〃
  I signed to her to go on。 If I had answered in words; I should
  have told her to leave the room。
  〃At first;〃 she resumed; 〃I thought of writing; but it occurred
  to me that you might keep my letter; and show it to Philip; by
  way of lowering me in his good opinion; as you have lowered me in
  the good opinion of his father。 My object in coming here is to
  give you a word of warning。 If you attempt to make mischief next
  between Philip and myself; I shall hear of itand you know what
  to expect; when you have Me for an enemy。 It is not worth while
  to say any more。 We understand each other; I hope?〃
  She was determined to have a replyand she got it。
  〃Not quite yet;〃 I said。 〃I have been hitherto; as becomes a
  gentleman; always mindful of a woman's claims to forbearance。 You
  will do well not to tempt me into forgetting that _you_ are a
  woman; by prolonging your visit。 Now; Miss Helena Gracedieu; we
  understand each other。〃 She made me a low curtsey; and answered
  in her finest tone of irony: 〃I only desire to wish you a
  pleasant journey home。〃
  I rang for the waiter。 〃Show this lady out;〃 I said。
  Even this failed to have the slightest effect on her。 She
  sauntered to the door; as perfectly at her ease as if the room
  had been hersnot mine。
  I had thought of driving to the farm。 Shall I confess it? My
  temper was so completely upset that active movement of some kind
  offered the one means of relief in which I could find refuge。 The
  farm was not more than five miles distant; and I had been a good
  walker all my life。 After making the needful inquiries; I set
  forth to visit Eunice on foot。
  My way through the town led me past the; Minister's house。 I had
  left the door some fifty yards behin d me; when I saw two ladies
  approaching。 They were walking; in the friendliest manner; arm in
  arm。 As they came nearer; I discovered Miss Jillgall。 Her
  companion was the middle…aged lady who had declined to give her
  name; when we met accidentally at Mr。 Gracedieu's door。
  Hysterically impulsive; Miss Jillgall seized both my hands; and
  overwhelmed me with entreaties that I would go back with her to
  the house。 I listened rather absently。 The middle…aged lady
  happened to be nearer to me now than on either of the former
  occasions on which I had seen her。 There was something in the
  expression of her eyes which seemed to be familiar to me。 But the
  effort of my memory was not helped by what I observed in the
  other parts of her face。 The iron…gray hair; the baggy lower
  eyelids; the fat cheeks; the coarse complexion; and the double
  chin; were features; and very disagreeable features; too; which I
  had never seen at any former time。
  〃Do pray come back with us;〃 Miss Jillgall pleaded。 〃We were just
  talking of you。 I and my friend〃 There she stopped; evidently
  on the point of blurting out the name which she had been
  forbidden to utter in my hearing。
  The lady smiled; her provokingly familiar eyes rested on me with
  a humorous enjoyment of the scene。
  〃My dear;〃 she said to Miss Jillgall; 〃caution ceases to be a
  virtue when it ceases to be of any use。 The Governor is beginning
  to remember me; and the inevitable recognitionwith _his_
  quickness of perceptionis likely to be a matter of minutes
  now。〃 She turned to me。 〃In more ways than one; sir; women are
  hardly used by Nature。 As they advance in years they lose more in
  personal appearance than the men do。 You are white…haired; and
  (pray excuse me) you are too fat; and (allow me to take another
  liberty) you stoop at the shouldersbut you have not entirely
  lost your good looks。 _I_ am no longer recognizable。 Allow me to
  prompt you; as they say on the stage。 I am Mrs。 Tenbruggen。〃
  As a man of the world; I ought to have been capable of concealing
  my astonishment and dismay。 She struck me dumb。
  Mrs。 Tenbruggen in the town! The one woman whose appearance Mr。
  Gracedieu had dreaded; and justly dreaded; stood before mefree;
  as a friend of his kinswoman; to enter his house; at the very
  time when he was a helpless man; guarded by watchers at his
  bedside。 My first clear idea was to get away from both the women;
  and consider what was to be done next。 I bowedand begged to