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brother set things right between us。 A worthy good man; he died
not very long agoI forget the date。 Not to detain you any
longer; the rector of Long Lanes baptized our daughter。 That is
how she comes by her un…English name; and so it happens that her
birth is registered in a village which her father has never
inhabited。 I hope; sir; you think a little better of my memory
now?〃
I was afraid to tell him what I really did think。
He was not fifty years old yet; and he had just exhibited one of
the sad symptoms which mark the broken memory of old age。 Lead
him back to the events of many years ago; and (as he had just
proved to me) he could remember well and relate coherently。 But
let him attempt to recall circumstances which had only taken
place a short time since; and forgetfulness and confusion
presented the lamentable result; just as I have related it。
The effort that he had made; the agitation that he had undergone
in talking to me; had confirmed my fears that he would overtask
his wasted strength。 He lay back in his chair。 〃Let us go on with
our conversation;〃 he murmured。 〃We haven't recovered what I had
forgotten; yet。〃 His eyes closed; and opened again languidly。
〃There was something I wanted to recall〃 he resumed; 〃and you
were helping me。〃 His weak voice died away; his weary eyes closed
again。 After waiting until there could be no doubt that he was
resting peacefully in sleep; I left the room。
CHAPTER XXXIV。
THE LIVELY OLD MAID。
A PERFECT stranger to the interior of the house (seeing that my
experience began and ended with the Minister's bedchamber); I
descended the stairs; in the character of a guest in search of
domestic information。
On my way down; I heard the door of a room on the ground floor
opened; and a woman' s voice below; speaking in a hurry: 〃My
dear; I have not a moment to spare; my patients are waiting for
me。〃 This was followed by a confidential communication; judging
by the tone。 〃Mind! not a word about me to that old gentleman!〃
Her patients were waiting for herhad I discovered a female
doctor? And there was some old gentleman whom she was not willing
to trustsurely I was not that much…injured man?
Reaching the hall just as the lady said her last words; I caught
a glimpse of her face; and discovered the middle…aged stranger
who had called on 〃Miss Jillgall;〃 and had promised to repeat her
visit。 A second lady was at the door; with her back to me; taking
leave of her friend。 Having said good…by; she turned roundand
we confronted each other。
I found her to be a little person; wiry and active; past the
prime of life; and ugly enough to encourage prejudice; in persons
who take a superficial view of their fellow…creatures。 Looking
impartially at the little sunken eyes which rested on me with a
comical expression of embarrassment; I saw signs that said: There
is some good here; under a disagreeable surface; if you can only
find it。
She saluted me with a carefully…performed curtsey; and threw open
the door of a room on the ground floor。
〃Pray walk in; sir; and permit me to introduce myself。 I am Mr。
Gracedieu's cousinMiss Jillgall。 Proud indeed to make the
acquaintance of a gentleman distinguished in the service of his
countryor perhaps I ought to say; in the service of the Law。
The Governor offers hospitality to prisoners。 And who introduces
prisoners to board and lodging with the Governor?the Law。
Beautiful weather for the time of year; is it not? May I
askhave you seen your room?〃
The embarrassment which I had already noticed had extended by
this time to her voice and her manner。 She was evidently trying
to talk herself into a state of confidence。 It seemed but too
probable that I was indeed the person mentioned by her prudent
friend at the door。
Having acknowledged that I had not seen my room yet; my
politeness attempted to add that there was no hurry。 The wiry
little lady was of the contrary opinion; she jumped out of her
chair as if she had been shot out of it。 〃Pray let me make myself
useful。 The dream of my life is to make myself useful to others;
and to such a man as youI consider myself honored。 Besides; I
do enjoy running up and down stairs。 This way; dear sir; this way
to your room。〃
She skipped up the stairs; and stopped on the first landing。 〃Do
you know; I am a timid person; though I may not look like it。
Sometimes; curiosity gets the better of meand then I grow bold。
Did you notice a lady who was taking leave of me just now at the
house door?〃
I replied that I had seen the lady for a moment; but not for the
first time。 〃Just as I arrived here from the station;〃 I said; 〃I
found her paying a visit when you were not at home。〃
〃Yesand do tell me one thing more。〃 My readiness in answering
seemed to have inspired Miss Jillgall with confidence。 I heard no
more confessions of overpowering curiosity。 〃Am I right;〃 she
proceeded; 〃in supposing that Miss Helena accompanied you; on
your way here from the station?〃
〃Quite right。〃
〃Did she say anything particular; when she saw the lady asking
for me at the door?〃
〃Miss Helena thought;〃 I said; 〃that the lady recognized me as a
person whom she had seen before。〃
〃And what did you think yourself?〃
〃I thought Miss Helena was wrong。〃
〃Very extraordinary!〃 With that remark; Miss Jillgall dropped the
subject。 The meaning of her reiterated inquiries was now; as it
seemed to me; clear enough。 She was eager to discover how I could
have inspired the distrust of me; expressed in the caution
addressed to her by her friend。
When we reached the upper floor; she paused before the Minister's
room。
〃I believe many years have passed;〃 she said; 〃since you last saw
Mr。 Gracedieu。 I am afraid you have found him a sadly changed
man? You won't be angry with me; I hope; for asking more
questions? I owe Mr。 Gracedieu a debt of gratitude which no
devotion; on my part; can ever repay。 You don't know what a favor
I shall consider it; if you will tell me what you think of him。
Did it seem to you that he was not quite himself? I don't mean in
his looks; poor dearI mean in his mind。〃
There was true sorrow and sympathy in her face。 I believe I
should hardly have thought her ugly; if we had first met at that
moment。 Thus far; she had only amused me。 I began really to like
Miss Jillgall now。
〃I must not conceal from you;〃 I replied; 〃that the state of Mr。
Gracedieu's mind surprised and distressed me。 But I ought also to
tell you that I saw him perhaps at his worst。 The subject on
which he wished to speak with me would have agitated any man; in
his state of health。 He consulted me about his daughter's
marriage。〃
Miss Jillgall suddenly turned pale。
〃His daughter's marriage?〃 she repeated。 〃Oh; you frighten me!〃
〃Why should I frighten you?〃
She seemed to find some difficulty in expressing herself。 〃I
hardly know how to put it; sir。 You will excuse me (won't you?)
if I say what I feel。 You have influencenot the sort of
influence that finds places for people who don't deserve them;
and gets mentioned in the newspapersI only mean influence over
Mr。 Gracedieu。 That's what frightens me。 How do I know? Oh;
dear; I'm asking another question! Allow me; for once; to be
plain and positive。 I'm afraid; sir; you have encouraged the
Minister to consent to Helena's marriage。〃
〃Pardon me;〃 I answered; 〃you mean Eunice's marriage。〃
〃No; sir! Helena。〃
〃No; madam! Eunice。〃
〃What does he mean?〃 said Miss Jillgall to herself。
I heard her。 〃This is what I mean;〃 I asserted; in my most
positive manner。 〃The only subject on which the Minister has
consulted me is Miss Eunice's marriage。〃
My tone left her no alternative but to believe me。 She looked not
only bewildered; but alarmed。 〃Oh; poor man; has he lost himself
in such a dreadful way as that?〃 she said to herself。 〃I daren't
believe it!〃 She turned to me。 〃You have been talking with him
for some time。 Please try to remember。 While Mr。 Gracedieu was
speaking of Euneece; did he say nothing of Helena's infamous
conduct to her sister?〃
Not the slightest hint of any such thing; I assured her; had
reached my ears。
〃Then;〃 she cried; 〃I can tell you what he has forgotten! We kept
as much of that miserable story to ourselves as we could; in
mercy to him。 Besides; he was always fondest of Euneece; she
would live in his memory when he had forgotten the otherthe
wretch; the traitress; the plotter; the fiend!〃 Miss Jillgall's
good manners slipped; as it were; from under her; she clinched
her fists as a final means of expressing her sentiments。 〃The
wretched English language isn't half strong enough for me;〃 she
declared with a look of fury。
I took a liberty。 〃May I ask what Miss Helena has done?〃 I said。
〃_May_ you ask? Oh; Heavens! you must ask; you shall ask。 Mr。
Governor; if your eyes are not opened to Helena's true character;
I can tell you what she will do; she will deceive you into taking
her part。 Do you think she went to the station out of regard for
the great man? Pooh! she went with an eye to her own interests;
and she means to make the great man useful。 Thank God; I can stop
that!〃
She checked herself there; and looked suspiciously a