are　enemies　for　life。
  I　am　not　suspected；　as　Eunice　is；　of　making　appointments　with　a
  sweetheart。　So　I　am　free　to　go　out　alone；　and　to　go　where　I
  please。　Philip　and　I　were　punctual　to　our　appointment　this
  afternoon。
  Our　place　of　meeting　was　in　a　secluded　corner　of　the　town　park。
  We　found　a　rustic　seat　in　our　retirement；　set　up　（one　would
  suppose）　as　a　concession　to　the　taste　of　visitors　who　are　fond　of
  solitude。　The　view　in　front　of　us　was　bounded　by　the　park　wall
  and　railings；　and　our　seat　was　prettily　approached　on　one　side　by
  a　plantation　of　young　trees。　No　entrance　gate　was　near；　no
  carriage　road　crossed　the　grass。　A　more　safe　and　more　solitary
  nook　for　conversation；　between　two　persons　desiring　to　be　alone；
  it　would　be　hard　to　find　in　most　public　parks。　Lovers　are　said　to
  know　it　well；　and　to　be　especially　fon　d　of　it　toward　evening。　We
  were　there　in　broad　daylight；　and　we　had　the　seat　to　ourselves。
  My　memory　of　what　passed　between　us　is；　in　some　degree；　disturbed
  by　the　formidable　interruption　which　brought　our　talk　to　an　end。
  But　among　other　things；　I　remember　that　I　showed　him　no　mercy　at
  the　outset。　At　one　time　I　was　indignant；　at　another　I　was
  scornful。　I　declared；　in　regard　to　my　object　in　meeting　him；　that
  I　had　changed　my　mind；　And　had　decided　to　shorten　a　disagreeable
  interview　by　waiving　my　right　to　an　explanation；　and　bidding　him
  farewell。　Eunice；　as　I　pointed　out；　had　the　first　claim　to　him；
  Eunice　was　much　more　likely　to　suit　him；　as　a　companion　for　life；
  than　I　was。　〃In　short；〃　I　said；　in　conclusion；　〃my　inclination
  for　once　takes　sides　with　my　duty；　and　leaves　my　sister　in
  undisturbed　possession　of　young　Mr。　Dunboyne。〃　With　this
  satirical　explanation；　I　rose　to　say　good…by。
  I　had　merely　intended　to　irritate　him。　He　showed　a　superiority　to
  anger　for　which　I　was　not　prepared。
  〃Be　so　kind　as　to　sit　down　again；〃　he　said　quietly。
  He　took　my　letter　from　his　pocket；　and　pointed　to　that　part　of　it
  which　alluded　to　his　conduct；　when　we　had　met　in　my　father　's
  study。
  〃You　have　offered　me　the　opportunity　of　saying　a　word　in　my　own
  defense；〃　he　went　on。　〃I　prize　that　privilege　far　too　highly　to
  consent　to　your　withdrawing　it；　merely　because　you　have　changed
  your　mind。　Let　me　at　least　tell　you　what　my　errand　was；　when　I
  called　on　your　father。　Loving　you；　and　you　only；　I　had　forced
  myself　to　make　a　last　effort　to　be　true　to　your　sister。　Remember
  that；　Helena；　and　then　sayis　it　wonderful　if　I　was　beside
  myself；　when　I　found　You　in　the　study？〃
  〃When　you　tell　me　you　were　beside　yourself；〃　I　said；　〃do　you
  mean；　ashamed　of　yourself？〃
  That　touched　him。　〃I　mean　nothing　of　the　kind；〃　he　burst　out。
  〃After　the　hell　on　earth　in　which　I　have　been　living　between　you
  two　sisters；　a　man　hasn't　virtue　enough　left　in　him　to　be
  ashamed。　He's　half　madthat's　what　he　is。　Look　at　my　position！　I
  had　made　up　my　mind　never　to　see　you　again；　I　had　made　up　my　mind
  （if　I　married　Eunice）　to　rid　myself　of　my　own　miserable　life　when
  I　could　endure　it　no　longer。　In　that　state　of　feeling；　when　my
  sense　of　duty　depended　on　my　speaking　with　Mr。　Gracedieu　alone；
  whose　was　the　first　face　I　saw　when　I　entered　the　room？　If　I　had
  dared　to　look　at　you；　or　to　speak　to　you；　what　do　you　think　would
  have　become　of　my　resolution　to　sacrifice　myself？〃
  〃What　has　become　of　it　now？〃　I　asked。
  〃Tell　me　first　if　I　am　forgiven；〃　he　said　〃and　you　shall　know。〃
  〃Do　you　deserve　to　be　forgiven？〃
  It　has　been　discovered　by　wiser　heads　than　mine　that　weak　people
  are　always　in　extremes。　So　far；　I　had　seen　Philip　in　the　vain　and
  violent　extreme。　He　now　shifted　suddenly　to　the　sad　and
  submissive　extreme。　When　I　asked　him　if　he　deserved　to　be
  forgiven；　he　made　the　humblest　of　all　replieshe　sighed　and　said
  nothing。
  〃If　I　did　my　duty　to　my　sister；〃　I　reminded　him；　〃I　should　refuse
  to　forgive　you；　and　send　you　back　to　Eunice。〃
  〃Your　father's　language　and　your　father's　conduct；〃　he　answered；
  〃have　released　me　from　that　entanglement。　I　can　never　go　back　to
  Eunice。　If　you　refuse　to　forgive　me；　neither　you　nor　she　will　see
  anything　more　of　Philip　Dunboyne；　I　promise　you　that。　Are　you
  satisfied　now？〃
  After　holding　out　against　him　resolutely；　I　felt　myself　beginning
  to　yield。　When　a　man　has　once　taken　their　fancy；　what　helplessly
  weak　creatures　women　are！　I　saw　through　his　vacillating
  weaknessand　yet　I　trusted　him；　with　both　eyes　open。　My
  looking…glass　is　opposite　to　me　while　I　write。　It　shows　me　a
  contemptible　Helena。　I　lied；　and　said　I　was　satisfiedto　please
  _him。_
  〃Am　I　forgiven？〃　he　asked。
  It　is　absurd　to　put　it　on　record。　Of　course；　I　forgave　him。　What
  a　good　Christian　I　am；　after　all！
  He　took　my　willing　hand。　〃My　lovely　darling；〃　he　said；　〃our
  marriage　rests　with　you。　Whether　your　father　approves　of　it　or
  not；　say　the　word；　claim　me；　and　I　am　yours　for　life。〃
  I　must　have　been　infatuated　by　his　voice　and　his　look；　my　heart
  must　have　been　burning　under　the　pressure　of　his　hand　on　mine。
  Was　it　my　modesty　or　my　self…control　that　deserted　me？　I　let　him
  take　me　in　his　arms。　Again；　and　again；　and　again　I　kissed　him。　We
  were　deaf　to　what　we　ought　to　have　heard；　we　were　blind　to　what
  we　ought　to　have　seen。　Before　we　were　conscious　of　a　movement
  among　the　trees；　we　were　discovered。　My　sister　flew　at　me　like　a
  wild　animal。　Her　furious　hands　fastened　themselves　on　my　throat。
  Philip　started　to　his　feet。　When　he　touched　her；　in　the　act　of
  forcing　her　back　from　me；　Eunice's　raging　strength　became　utter
  weakness　in　an　instant。　Her　arms　fell　helpless　at　her　sidesher
  head　droopedshe　looked　at　him　in　silence　which　was　dreadful；　at
  such　a　moment　as　that。　He　shrank　from　the　unendurable　reproach　in
  those　tearless　eyes。　Meanly；　he　turned　away　from　her。　Meanly；　I
  followed　him。　Looking　back　for　an　instant；　I　saw　her　step
  forward；　perhaps　to　stop　him；　perhaps　to　speak　to　him。　The　effort
  was　too　much　for　her　strength；　she　staggered　back　against　the
  trunk　of　a　tree。　Like　strangers；　walking　separate　one　from　the
  other；　we　left　her　to　her　companionthe　hideous　traitress　who
  was　my　enemy　and　her　friend。
  CHAPTER　XXIX。
  HELENA'S　DIARY。
  ON　reaching　the　street　which　led　to　Philip's　hotel；　we　spoke　to
  each　other　for　the　first　time。
  〃What　are　we　to　do？〃　I　said。
  〃Leave　this　place；〃　he　answered。
  〃Together？〃　I　asked。
  〃Yes。〃
  To　leave　us　（for　a　while）；　after　what　had　happened；　might　be　the
  wisest　thing　which　a　man；　in　Philip's　critical　position；　could
  do。　But　if　I　went　with　himunprovided　as　I　was　with　any　friend
  of　my　own　sex；　whose　character　and　presence　might　sanction　the
  step　I　had　takenI　should　be　lost　beyond　redemption。　Is　any　man
  that　ever　lived　worth　that　sacrifice？　I　thought　of　my　father's
  house　closed　to　me；　and　of　our　friends　ashamed　of　me。　I　have
  owned；　in　some　earlier　part　of　my　Journal；　that　I　am　not　very
  patient　under　domestic　cares。　But　the　possibility　of　Eunice　being
  appointed　housekeeper；　with　my　power；　in　my　place；　was　more　than
  I　could　calmly　contemplate。　〃No；〃　I　said　to　Philip。　〃Your
  absence；　at　such　a　time　as　this；　may　help　us　both；　but；　come　what
  may　of　it；　I　must　remain　at　home。〃
  He　yielded；　without　an　attempt　to　make　me　alter　my　mind。　There
  was　a　sullen　submission　in　his　manner　which　it　was　not　pleasant
  to　see。　Was　he　despairing　already　of　himself　and　of　me？　Had
  Eunice　aroused　the　watchful　demons　of　shame　and　remorse？
  〃Perhaps　you　are　right；〃　he　said；　gloomily。　〃Good…by。〃
  My　anxiety　put　the　all…important　question　to　him　without
  hesitation。
  〃Is　it　good…by　forever；　Philip？〃
  His　reply　instantly　relieved　me：　〃God　forbid！〃
  But　I　wanted　more：　〃You　still　love　me？〃　I　persisted。
  〃More　dearly　than　ever！〃
  〃And　yet　you　leave　me！〃
  He　turned　pale。　〃I　leave　you　because　I　am　afraid。〃
  〃Afraid　of　what？〃
  〃Afraid　to　face　Eunice　again。〃
  The　only　possible　way　out　of　our　difficulty　that　I　could　see；　now
  occurred　to　me。　〃Suppose　my　sister　can　be　prevailed　on　to　give
  you　up？〃　I　suggested。　〃Would　you　come　back　to　us　in　that　case？〃
  〃Certainly！〃
  〃And　you　would　ask　my　father　to　consent　to　our　marriage？〃
  〃On　the　day　of　my　return；　if　you　like。〃
  〃Suppose　obstacles　get　in　our　way；〃　I　said〃suppose　time　passes
  and　tries　your　patiencewill　you　still　consider　yourself　engaged
  to　me？〃
  〃Engaged　to　you；〃　he　answered；　〃in　spite　of　obstacles　and　in
  spite　of　time。〃
  〃And　while　you　are　away　from　me；〃　I　ventured　to　add；　〃we　shall
  write　to　each　other？〃
  〃Go　where　I　may；〃　he　said；　〃you　shall　always　hear　from　me。〃
  I　could　ask　no　more；　and　he　could　concede　no　more。　The　impression
  evidently　left　on　him　by　Eunice's　terrible　outbreak；　was　far　more
  serious　than　I　had　anticipated。　I　was　myself　depressed　and　ill　at
  ease。　No　expressions　of　tenderness　were　exchanged　between　us。
  There　was　something　horrible　in　our　barren　farewell。　We　merely
  clasped　hands；　at　parting。　He　went　his　wayand　I　went　mine。
  There　are　some　occasions　when　women　set　an　example　of　courage　to
  men。　I　was　ready　to　endure　whatever　might　happen　to　me；　when　I
  got　home。　What　a　desperate　wretch！　some　people　might　say；　if　they
  could　look　into　this　di　ary！
  Maria　opened　the　door；　she　told　me　that　my　sister　had　already
  returned；　accompanied　by　Miss　Jil