第 5 节
作者:冬恋      更新:2021-03-08 19:33      字数:9286
  The little stars; the lonely stars;
  Stole through the hollow sky;
  And every sucking eddy where
  The waves lapped wharf or rotten stair
  Moaned like some stricken thing hid there
  And strangled with its own despair
  As the shuddering tide crept by。
  I loved her; and I hated her
  Or did I hate myself because;
  Bound by obscure; strong; silken laws;
  I felt myself the worshiper
  Of beauty never wholly mine?
  With lures most apt to snare; entwine;
  With bonds too subtle to define;
  Her lighter nature mastered mine;
  Herself half given; half withheld;
  Her lesser spirit still compelled
  Its tribute from my franker soul:
  Sorebel; slave; and worshiper!
  I loved her and I hated her。
  I gazed upon her; I; her thrall;
  And musing; murmured; What if death
  Were just the answer to it all?
  Suppose some dainty dagger quaffed
  Her life in one deep eager draught?
  Suppose some amorous knife caressed
  The lovely hollow of her breast?〃
  She turned a mocking look to mine:
  She read the thought within my eyne;
  She held me with her lookand laughed!
  Now who may tell what stirs; controls;
  And shapes mad fancies into facts?
  What trivial things may quicken souls
  To irrevocable; swift acts?
  Now who has known; who understood;
  Wherefore some idle thing
  May stab with deadlier sting
  Than well…considered insult could?
  May spur the languor of a mood
  And rouse a tiger in the blood?
  Ah; Christ!had she not laughed just when
  That fancy came! 。 。 。 for then 。 。 。 and then 。 。 。
  A sudden mist dropped from the sky;
  A mist swept in across the sea 。 。 。
  A mist that hid her face from me 。 。 。
  A weeping mist all tinged with red;
  A dripping mist that smelt like blood 。 。 。
  It choked my throat; it burnt my brain 。 。 。
  And through it peered one sallow star;
  And through it rang one shriek of pain 。 。 。
  And when it passed my hands were red;
  My soul was dabbled with her blood;
  And when it passed my love was dead
  And tossed upon the troubled flood。
  III
  MOONSET
  But see! 。 。 。 the body does not sink;
  It rides upon the tide
  (A starbeam on the dagger's haft);
  With staring eyes and wide 。 。 。
  And now; up from the darkling sea;
  Down from the failing moon;
  Are come strange shapes to mock at me 。 。 。
  All pallid from the star…pale sea;
  White from the paling moon 。 。 。
  Or whirling fast or wheeling slow
  Around; around the corpse they go;
  All bloodless o'er the sickened sea
  Beneath the ailing moon!
  And are they only wisps of fog
  That dance along the waves?
  Only shapes of mist the wind
  Drives along the waves?
  Or are they spirits that the sea
  Has cheated of their graves?
  The ghosts of them that died at sea;
  Of murdered men flung in the sea;
  Whose bodies had no graves?
  Lost souls that haunt for evermore
  The sobbing reef and hollowed shore
  And always…murmuring caves?
  Ah; surely something more than fog;
  More than starlit mist!
  For starlight never makes a sound
  And fogs are ever whist
  But hearken; hearken; hearken; now;
  For these sing as they dance!
  As airily; as eerily;
  They wheel about and whirl;
  They jeer at me; they fleer at me;
  They flout me as they swirl!
  As whirling fast or swaying slow;
  Reeling; wheeling; to and fro;
  Around; around the corpse they go;
  They chill me with their chants!
  These be neither men nor mists
  Hearken to their chants:
  Ever; ever; ever;
  Drifting like a blossom
  Seaward; with the starlight
  Wan upon her bosom
  Ever when the quickened
  Heart of night is throbbing;
  Ever when the trembling
  Tide sets seaward; sobbing;
  Shall you see this burden
  Borne upon its ebbing:
  See her drifting seaward
  Like a broken blossom;
  Ever see the starlight
  Kiss her bruised bosom。
  Flight availeth nothing 。 。 。
  Still the subtle beaches
  Draw you back where Horror
  Walks their shingled reaches 。 。 。
  Ever shall your spirit
  Hear the surf resounding;
  Evermore the ocean
  Thwarting you and bounding;
  Vainly struggle inland!
  Lashing you and hounding;
  Still the vision hales you
  From the upland reaches;
  Goading you and gripping;
  Binds you to the beaches!
  Ever; ever; ever;
  Ever shall her laughter;
  Hunting you and haunting;
  Mock and follow after;
  Rising where the buoy…bell
  Clangs across the shallows;
  Leaping where the spindrift
  Hurtles o'er the hollows;
  Ringing where the moonlight
  Gleams along the billows;
  Ever; ever; ever;
  Ever shall her laughter;
  Hounding you and haunting;
  Whip and follow after!
  IV
  SUNSET
  I stood among the boats
  The sinking sun; the angry sun;
  Across the sullen wave
  Laid the sudden strength of his red wrath
  Like to a shaken glaive:
  Or did the sun pause in the west
  To lift a sword at me;
  Or was it she; or was it she;
  Rose for an instant on some crest
  And plucked the red blade from her breast
  And brandished it at me?
  THE TAVERN OF DESPAIR
  THE wraiths of murdered hopes and loves
  Come whispering at the door;
  Come creeping through the weeping mist
  That drapes the barren moor;
  But we within have turned the key
  'Gainst Hope and Love and Care;
  Where Wit keeps tryst with Folly; at
  The Tavern of Despair。
  And we have come by divers ways
  To keep this merry tryst;
  But few of us have kept within
  The Narrow Way; I wist;
  For we are those whose ampler wits
  And hearts have proved our curse
  Foredoomed to ken the better things
  And aye to do the worse!
  Long since we learned to mock ourselves;
  And from self…mockery fell
  To heedless laughter in the face
  Of Heaven; Earth; and Hell。
  We quiver 'neath; and mock; God's rod;
  We feel; and mock; His wrath;
  We mock our own blood on the thorns
  That rim the 〃Primrose Path。〃
  We mock the eerie glimmering shapes
  That range the outer wold;
  We mock our own cold hearts because
  They are so dead and cold;
  We flout the things we might have been
  Had self to self proved true;
  We mock the roses flung away;
  We mock the garnered rue;
  The fates that gibe have lessoned us;
  There sups to…night on earth
  No madder crew of wastrels than
  This fellowship of mirth。 。 。 。
  (Of mirth 。 。 。 drink; fools!nor let it flag
  Lest from the outer mist
  Creep in that other company
  Unbidden to the tryst。
  We're grown so fond of paradox
  Perverseness holds us thrall;
  So what each jester loves the best
  He mocks the most of all;
  But as the jest and laugh go round;
  Each in his neighbor's eyes
  Reads; while he flouts his heart's desire;
  The knowledge that he lies。
  Not one of us but had some pearls
  And flung them to the swine;
  Not one of us but had some gift
  Some spark of fire divine
  Each might have been God's minister
  In the temple of some art
  Each feels his gift perverted move
  Wormlike through his dry heart。
  If God called Azrael to Him now
  And bade Death bend the bow
  Against the saddest heart that beats
  Here on this earth below;
  Not any sobbing breast would gain
  The guerdon of that barb
  The saddest ones are those that wear
  The jester's motley garb。
  Whose shout aye loudest rings; and whose
  The maddest cranks and quips
  Who mints his soul to laughter's coin
  And wastes it with his lips
  Has grown too sad for sighs and seeks
  To cheat himself with mirth;
  We fools self…doomed to motley are
  The weariest wights on earth!
  But yet; for us whose brains and hearts
  Strove aye in paths perverse;
  Doomed still to know the better things
  And still to do the worse;
  What else is there remains for us
  But make a jest of care
  And set the rafters ringing; in
  Our Tavern of Despair?
  COLORS AND SURFACES
  A GOLDEN LAD
  (D。 V。 M。)
  〃Golden lads and lasses must
  Like chimney…sweepers come to dust。〃
  SHAKESPEARE。
  So young; but already the splendor
  Of genius robed him about
  Already the dangerous; tender
  Regard of the gods marked him out
  (On whom the burden and duty
  They bind; at his earliest breath;
  Of showing their own grave beauty;
  They love and they crown with death。)
  We were of one blood; but the olden
  Rapt poets spake out in his tone;
  We were of one blood; but the golden
  Rathe promise was his; his alone。
  And ever his great eye glistened
  With visions I could not see;
  Ever he thrilled and listened
  To voices withholden from me。
  Young lord of the realms of fancy;
  The bright dreams flocked to his call
  Like sprites that the necromancy
  Of a Prospero holds in thrall
  Quick visions that served and attended;
  Elusive and hovering things;
  With a quiver of