第 39 节
作者:尘小春      更新:2021-03-08 19:23      字数:9322
  memory of her wretchedness came to her; mingled with memories of
  consuming joys。 She would hate Lousteau for not taking any pains to
  follow her; she would have liked to get tender or furious letters from
  him。
  Dinah made no reply; so Monsieur de Clagny repeated the question;
  taking the Countess' hand and pressing it between his own with devout
  respect。
  〃Will you have the right hand or the left?〃 said she; smiling。
  〃The left;〃 said he; 〃for I suppose you mean the truth or a fib。〃
  〃Well; then; I saw him;〃 she said; speaking into the lawyer's ear。
  〃And as I saw him looking so sad; so out of heart; I said to myself;
  Has he a cigar? Has he any money?〃
  〃If you wish for the truth; I can tell it you;〃 said the lawyer。 〃He
  is living as a husband with Fanny Beaupre。 You have forced me to tell
  you this secret; I should never have told you; for you might have
  suspected me perhaps of an ungenerous motive。〃
  Madame de la Baudraye grasped his hand。
  〃Your husband;〃 said she to her chaperon; 〃is one of the rarest souls!
  Ah! Why〃
  She shrank into her corner; looking out of the window; but she did not
  finish her sentence; of which the lawyer could guess the end: 〃Why had
  not Lousteau a little of your husband's generosity of heart?〃
  This information served; however; to cure Dinah of her melancholy; she
  threw herself into the whirl of fashion。 She wished for success; and
  she achieved it; still; she did not make much way with women; and
  found it difficult to get introductions。
  In the month of March; Madame Piedefer's friends the priests and
  Monsieur de Clagny made a fine stroke by getting Madame de la Baudraye
  appointed receiver of subscriptions for the great charitable work
  founded by Madame de Carcado。 Then she was commissioned to collect
  from the Royal Family their donations for the benefit of the sufferers
  from the earthquake at Guadeloupe。 The Marquise d'Espard; to whom
  Monsieur de Canalis read the list of ladies thus appointed; one
  evening at the Opera; said; on hearing that of the Countess:
  〃I have lived a long time in the world; and I can remember nothing
  finer than the manoeuvres undertaken for the rehabilitation of Madame
  de la Baudraye。〃
  In the early spring; which; by some whim of our planets; smiled on
  Paris in the first week of March in 1843; making the Champs…Elysees
  green and leafy before Longchamp; Fanny Beaupre's attache had seen
  Madame de la Baudraye several times without being seen by her。 More
  than once he was stung to the heart by one of those promptings of
  jealousy and envy familiar to those who are born and bred provincials;
  when he beheld his former mistress comfortably ensconced in a handsome
  carriage; well dressed; with dreamy eyes; and his two little boys; one
  at each window。 He accused himself with all the more virulence because
  he was waging war with the sharpest poverty of allpoverty
  unconfessed。 Like all essentially light and frivolous natures; he
  cherished the singular point of honor which consists in never
  derogating in the eyes of one's own little public; which makes men on
  the Bourse commit crimes to escape expulsion from the temple of the
  goddess Per…cent; and has given some criminals courage enough to
  perform acts of virtue。
  Lousteau dined and breakfasted and smoked as if he were a rich man。
  Not for an inheritance would he have bought any but the dearest
  cigars; for himself as well as for the playwright or author with whom
  he went into the shop。 The journalist took his walks abroad in patent
  leather boots; but he was constantly afraid of an execution on goods
  which; to use the bailiff's slang; had already received the last
  sacrament。 Fanny Beaupre had nothing left to pawn; and her salary was
  pledged to pay her debts。 After exhausting every possible advance of
  pay from newspapers; magazines; and publishers; Etienne knew not of
  what ink he could churn gold。 Gambling…houses; so ruthlessly
  suppressed; could no longer; as of old; cash I O U's drawn over the
  green table by beggary in despair。 In short; the journalist was
  reduced to such extremity that he had just borrowed a hundred francs
  of the poorest of his friends; Bixiou; from whom he had never yet
  asked for a franc。 What distressed Lousteau was not the fact of owing
  five thousand francs; but seeing himself bereft of his elegance; and
  of the furniture purchased at the cost of so many privations; and
  added to by Madame de la Baudraye。
  On April the 3rd; a yellow poster; torn down by the porter after being
  displayed on the wall; announced the sale of a handsome suite of
  furniture on the following Saturday; the day fixed for sales under
  legal authority。 Lousteau was taking a walk; smoking cigars; and
  seeking ideasfor; in Paris; ideas are in the air; they smile on you
  from a street corner; they splash up with a spurt of mud from under
  the wheels of a cab! Thus loafing; he had been seeking ideas for
  articles; and subjects for novels for a month past; and had found
  nothing but friends who carried him off to dinner or to the play; and
  who intoxicated his woes; telling him that champagne would inspire
  him。
  〃Beware;〃 said the virulent Bixiou one night; the man who would at the
  same moment give a comrade a hundred francs and stab him to the heart
  with a sarcasm; 〃if you go to sleep drunk every night; one day you
  will wake up mad。〃
  On the day before; the Friday; the unhappy wretch; although he was
  accustomed to poverty; felt like a man condemned to death。 Of old he
  would have said:
  〃Well; the furniture is very old! I will buy new。〃
  But he was incapable now of literary legerdemain。 Publishers;
  undermined by piracy; paid badly; the newspapers made close bargains
  with hard…driven writers; as the Opera managers did with tenors that
  sang flat。
  He walked on; his eye on the crowd; though seeing nothing; a cigar in
  his mouth; and his hands in his pockets; every feature of his face
  twitching; and an affected smile on his lips。 Then he saw Madame de la
  Baudraye go by in a carriage; she was going to the Boulevard by the
  Rue de la Chaussee d'Antin to drive in the Bois。
  〃There is nothing else left!〃 said he to himself; and he went home to
  smarten himself up。
  That evening; at seven; he arrived in a hackney cab at Madame de la
  Baudraye's door; and begged the porter to send a note up to the
  Countessa few lines; as follows:
  〃Would Madame la Comtesse do Monsieur Lousteau the favor of receiving
  him for a moment; and at once?〃
  This note was sealed with a seal which as lovers they had both used。
  Madame de la Baudraye had had the word /Parce que/ engraved on a
  genuine Oriental carneliana potent worda woman's wordthe word
  that accounts for everything; even for the Creation。
  The Countess had just finished dressing to go to the Opera; Friday was
  her night in turn for her box。 At the sight of this seal she turned
  pale。
  〃I will come;〃 she said; tucking the note into her dress。
  She was firm enough to conceal her agitation; and begged her mother to
  see the children put to bed。 She then sent for Lousteau; and received
  him in a boudoir; next to the great drawing…room; with open doors。 She
  was going to a ball after the Opera; and was wearing a beautiful dress
  of brocade in stripes alternately plain and flowered with pale blue。
  Her gloves; trimmed with tassels; showed off her beautiful white arms。
  She was shimmering with lace and all the dainty trifles required by
  fashion。 Her hair; dressed /a la Sevigne/; gave her a look of
  elegance; a necklace of pearls lay on her bosom like bubbles on snow。
  〃What is the matter; monsieur?〃 said the Countess; putting out her
  foot from below her skirt to rest it on a velvet cushion。 〃I thought;
  I hoped; I was quite forgotten。〃
  〃If I should reply /Never/; you would refuse to believe me;〃 said
  Lousteau; who remained standing; or walked about the room; chewing the
  flowers he plucked from the flower…stands full of plants that scented
  the room。
  For a moment silence reigned。 Madame de la Baudraye; studying
  Lousteau; saw that he was dressed as the most fastidious dandy might
  have been。
  〃You are the only person in the world who can help me; or hold out a
  plank to mefor I am drowning; and have already swallowed more than
  one mouthful〃 said he; standing still in front of Dinah; and
  seeming to yield to an overpowering impulse。 〃Since you see me here;
  it is because my affairs are going to the devil。〃
  〃That is enough;〃 said she; 〃I understand。〃
  There was another pause; during which Lousteau turned away; took out
  his handkerchief; and seemed to wipe away a tear。
  〃How much do you want; Etienne;〃 she went on in motherly tones。 〃We
  are at this moment old comrades; speak to me as you would toto
  Bixiou。〃
  〃To save my furniture from vanishing into thin air to…morrow morning
  at the auction mart; eighteen hundred francs! To repay my friends; as
  much again! Three quarters' rent to the landlord whom you know。My
  'uncle' wants five hundred francs〃
  〃And you!to live on?〃
  〃Oh! I have my pen〃
  〃It is heavier to lift than any one could believe who reads your
  articles;〃 said she; with a subtle smile。〃I have not such a sum as
  you need; but come to…morrow at eight; the bailiff will surely wait
  til