第 34 节
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尘小春 更新:2021-03-08 19:23 字数:9322
the want of dailyor; if you will; of nightlyintercourse between
her and Adolphe。 Each of the lovers has a separate home; they have
both submitted to the world and saved appearances。 Ellenore;
repeatedly left to herself; is compelled to vast labors of affection
to expel the thoughts of release which captivate Adolphe when absent。
The constant exchange of glances and thoughts in domestic life gives a
woman such power that a man needs stronger reasons for desertion than
she will ever give him so long as she loves him。
This was an entirely new phase both to Etienne and to Dinah。 Dinah
intended to be indispensable; she wanted to infuse fresh energy into
this man; whose weakness smiled upon her; for she thought it a
security。 She found him subjects; sketched the treatment; and at a
pinch; would write whole chapters。 She revived the vitality of this
dying talent by transfusing fresh blood into his veins; she supplied
him with ideas and opinions。 In short; she produced two books which
were a success。 More than once she saved Lousteau's self…esteem by
dictating; correcting; or finishing his articles when he was in
despair at his own lack of ideas。 The secret of this collaboration was
strictly preserved; Madame Piedefer knew nothing of it。
This mental galvanism was rewarded by improved pay; enabling them to
live comfortably till the end of 1838。 Lousteau became used to seeing
Dinah do his work; and he paid heras the French people say in their
vigorous lingoin 〃monkey money;〃 nothing for her pains。 This
expenditure in self…sacrifice becomes a treasure which generous souls
prize; and the more she gave the more she loved Lousteau; the time
soon came when Dinah felt that it would be too bitter a grief ever to
give him up。
But then another child was coming; and this year was a terrible trial。
In spite of the precautions of the two women; Etienne contracted
debts; he worked himself to death to pay them off while Dinah was laid
up; and; knowing him as she did; she thought him heroic。 But after
this effort; appalled at having two women; two children; and two maids
on his hands; he was incapable of the struggle to maintain a family by
his pen when he had failed to maintain even himself。 So he let things
take their chance。 Then the ruthless speculator exaggerated the farce
of love…making at home to secure greater liberty abroad。
Dinah proudly endured the burden of life without support。 The one
idea; 〃He loves me!〃 gave her superhuman strength。 She worked as hard
as the most energetic spirits of our time。 At the risk of her beauty
and health; Didine was to Lousteau what Mademoiselle Delachaux was to
Gardane in Diderot's noble and true tale。 But while sacrificing
herself; she committed the magnanimous blunder of sacrificing dress。
She had her gowns dyed; and wore nothing but black。 She stank of
black; as Malaga said; making fun mercilessly of Lousteau。
By the end of 1839; Etienne; following the example of Louis XV。; had;
by dint of gradual capitulations of conscience; come to the point of
establishing a distinction between his own money and the housekeeping
money; just as Louis XV。 drew the line between his privy purse and the
public moneys。 He deceived Dinah as to his earnings。 On discovering
this baseness; Madame de la Baudraye went through fearful tortures of
jealousy。 She wanted to live two livesthe life of the world and the
life of a literary woman; she accompanied Lousteau to every first…
night performance; and could detect in him many impulses of wounded
vanity; for her black attire rubbed off; as it were; on him; clouding
his brow; and sometimes leading him to be quite brutal。 He was really
the woman of the two; and he had all a woman's exacting perversity; he
would reproach Dinah for the dowdiness of her appearance; even while
benefiting by the sacrifice; which to a mistress is so cruelexactly
like a woman who; after sending a man through a gutter to save her
honor; tells him she 〃cannot bear dirt!〃 when he comes out。
Dinah then found herself obliged to gather up the rather loose reins
of power by which a clever woman drives a man devoid of will。 But in
so doing she could not fail to lose much of her moral lustre。 Such
suspicions as she betrayed drag a woman into quarrels which lead to
disrespect; because she herself comes down from the high level on
which she had at first placed herself。 Next she made some concession;
Lousteau was allowed to entertain several of his friendsNathan;
Bixiou; Blondet; Finot; whose manners; language; and intercourse were
depraving。 They tried to convince Madame de la Baudraye that her
principles and aversions were a survival of provincial prudishness;
and they preached the creed of woman's superiority。
Before long; her jealousy put weapons into Lousteau's hands。 During
the carnival of 1840; she disguised herself to go to the balls at the
Opera…house; and to suppers where she met courtesans; in order to keep
an eye on all Etienne's amusements。
On the day of Mid…Lentor rather; at eight on the morning after
Dinah came home from the ball in her fancy dress to go to bed。 She had
gone to spy on Lousteau; who; believing her to be ill; had engaged
himself for that evening to Fanny Beaupre。 The journalist; warned by a
friend; had behaved so as to deceive the poor woman; only too ready to
be deceived。
As she stepped out of the hired cab; Dinah met Monsieur de la
Baudraye; to whom the porter pointed her out。 The little old man took
his wife by the arm; saying; in an icy tone:
〃So this is you; madame!〃
This sudden advent of conjugal authority; before which she felt
herself so small; and; above all; these words; almost froze the heart
of the unhappy woman caught in the costume of a /debardeur/。 To escape
Etienne's eye the more effectually; she had chosen a dress he was not
likely to detect her in。 She took advantage of the mask she still had
on to escape without replying; changed her dress; and went up to her
mother's rooms; where she found her husband waiting for her。 In spite
of her assumed dignity; she blushed in the old man's presence。
〃What do you want of me; monsieur?〃 she asked。 〃Are we not separated
forever?〃
〃Actually; yes;〃 said Monsieur de la Baudraye。 〃Legally; no。〃
Madame Piedefer was telegraphing signals to her daughter; which Dinah
presently observed and understood。
〃Nothing could have brought you here but your own interests;〃 she
said; in a bitter tone。
〃/Our/ interests;〃 said the little man coldly; 〃for we have two
children。Your Uncle Silas Piedefer is dead; at New York; where;
after having made and lost several fortunes in various parts of the
world; he has finally left some seven or eight hundred thousand francs
they say twelvebut there is stock…in…trade to be sold。 I am the
chief in our common interests; and act for you。〃
〃Oh!〃 cried Dinah; 〃in everything that relates to business; I trust no
one but Monsieur de Clagny。 He knows the law; come to terms with him;
what he does; will be done right。〃
〃I have no occasion for Monsieur de Clagny;〃 answered Monsieur de la
Baudraye; 〃to take my children from you〃
〃Your children!〃 exclaimed Dinah。 〃Your children; to whom you have not
sent a sou! /Your/ children!〃 She burst into a loud shout of laughter;
but Monsieur de la Baudraye's unmoved coolness threw ice on the
explosion。
〃Your mother has just brought them to show me;〃 he went on。 〃They are
charming boys。 I do not intend to part from them。 I shall take them to
our house at Anzy; if it were only to save them from seeing their
mother disguised like a〃
〃Silence!〃 said Madame de la Baudraye imperatively。 〃What do you want
of me that brought you here?〃
〃A power of attorney to receive our Uncle Silas' property。〃
Dinah took a pen; wrote two lines to Monsieur de Clagny; and desired
her husband to call again in the afternoon。
At five o'clock; Monsieur de Clagnywho had been promoted to the post
of Attorney…Generalenlightened Madame de la Baudraye as to her
position; still; he undertook to arrange everything by a bargain with
the old fellow; whose visit had been prompted by avarice alone。
Monsieur de la Baudraye; to whom his wife's power of attorney was
indispensable to enable him to deal with the business as he wished;
purchased it by certain concessions。 In the first place; he undertook
to allow her ten thousand francs a year so long as she found it
convenientso the document was wordedto reside in Paris; the
children; each on attaining the age of six; were to be placed in
Monsieur de la Baudraye's keeping。 Finally; the lawyer extracted the
payment of the allowance in advance。
Little La Baudraye; who came jauntily enough to say good…bye to his
wife and /his/ children; appeared in a white india…rubber overcoat。 He
was so firm on his feet; and so exactly like the La Baudraye of 1836;
that Dinah despaired of ever burying the dreadful little dwarf。 From
the garden; where he was smoking a cigar; the journalist could watch
Monsieur de la Baudraye for so long as it took the little reptile to
cross the forecourt; but that was enough for Lousteau; it was plain to
him that the little man had intended to wreck every hope of his dying
that his wife mig