第 31 节
作者:尘小春      更新:2021-03-08 19:23      字数:9322
  Dinah; by consenting to this union; showed a generous mind and the
  power derived from self…respect。 In this absolute intimacy; in which
  both lovers put off their masks; the young woman never abdicated her
  modesty; her masculine rectitude; and the strength peculiar to
  ambitious souls; which formed the basis of her character。 Lousteau
  involuntarily held her in high esteem。 As a Parisian; Dinah was
  superior to the most fascinating courtesan; she could be as amusing
  and as witty as Malaga; but her extensive information; her habits of
  mind; her vast reading enabled her to generalize her wit; while the
  Florines and the Schontzes exerted theirs over a very narrow circle。
  〃There is in Dinah;〃 said Etienne to Bixiou; 〃the stuff to make both a
  Ninon and a De Stael。〃
  〃A woman who combines an encyclopaedia and a seraglio is very
  dangerous;〃 replied the mocking spirit。
  When the expected infant became a visible fact; Madame de la Baudraye
  would be seen no more; but before shutting herself up; never to go out
  unless into the country; she was bent on being present at the first
  performance of a play by Nathan。 This literary solemnity occupied the
  minds of the two thousand persons who regard themselves as
  constituting 〃all Paris。〃 Dinah; who had never been at a first night's
  performance; was very full of natural curiosity。 She had by this time
  arrived at such a pitch of affection for Lousteau that she gloried in
  her misconduct; she exerted a sort of savage strength to defy the
  world; she was determined to look it in the face without turning her
  head aside。
  She dressed herself to perfection; in a style suited to her delicate
  looks and the sickly whiteness of her face。 Her pallid complexion gave
  her an expression of refinement; and her black hair in smooth bands
  enhanced her pallor。 Her brilliant gray eyes looked finer than ever;
  set in dark rings。 But a terribly distressing incident awaited her。 By
  a very simple chance; the box given to the journalist; on the first
  tier; was next to that which Anna Grossetete had taken。 The two
  intimate friends did not even bow; neither chose to acknowledge the
  other。 At the end of the first act Lousteau left his seat; abandoning
  Dinah to the fire of eyes; the glare of opera…glasses; while the
  Baronne de Fontaine and the Comtesse Marie de Vandenesse; who
  accompanied her; received some of the most distinguished men of
  fashion。
  Dinah's solitude was all the more distressing because she had not the
  art of putting a good face to the matter by examining the company
  through her opera…glass。 In vain did she try to assume a dignified and
  thoughtful attitude; and fix her eyes on vacancy; she was
  overpoweringly conscious of being the object of general attention; she
  could not disguise her discomfort; and lapsed a little into
  provincialism; displaying her handkerchief and making involuntary
  movements of which she had almost cured herself。 At last; between the
  second and third acts; a man had himself admitted to Dinah's box! It
  was Monsieur de Clagny。
  〃I am happy to see you; to tell you how much I am pleased by your
  promotion;〃 said she。
  〃Oh! Madame; for whom should I come to Paris?〃
  〃What!〃 said she。 〃Have I anything to do with your appointment?〃
  〃Everything;〃 said he。 〃Since you left Sancerre; it had become
  intolerable to me; I was dying〃
  〃Your sincere friendship does me good;〃 replied she; holding out her
  hand。 〃I am in a position to make much of my true friends; I now know
  their value。I feared I must have lost your esteem; but the proof you
  have given me by this visit touches me more deeply than your ten
  years' attachment。〃
  〃You are an object of curiosity to the whole house;〃 said the lawyer。
  〃Oh! my dear; is this a part for you to be playing? Could you not be
  happy and yet remain honored?I have just heard that you are Monsieur
  Etienne Lousteau's mistress; that you live together as man and wife!
  You have broken for ever with society; even if you should some day
  marry your lover; the time will come when you will feel the want of
  the respectability you now despise。 Ought you not to be in a home of
  your own with your mother; who loves you well enough to protect you
  with her aegis?Appearances at least would be saved。〃
  〃I am in the wrong to have come here;〃 replied she; 〃that is all。I
  have bid farewell to all the advantages which the world confers on
  women who know how to reconcile happiness and the proprieties。 My
  abnegation is so complete that I only wish I could clear a vast space
  about me to make a desert of my love; full of God; of /him/; and of
  myself。We have made too many sacrifices on both sides not to be
  unitedunited by disgrace if you will; but indissolubly one。 I am
  happy; so happy that I can love freely; my friend; and confide in you
  more than of oldfor I need a friend。〃
  The lawyer was magnanimous; nay; truly great。 To this declaration; in
  which Dinah's soul thrilled; he replied in heartrending tones:
  〃I wanted to go to see you; to be sure that you were loved: I shall
  now be easy and no longer alarmed as to your future。But will your
  lover appreciate the magnitude of your sacrifice; is there any
  gratitude in his affection?〃
  〃Come to the Rue des Martyrs and you will see!〃
  〃Yes; I will call;〃 he replied。 〃I have already passed your door
  without daring to inquire for you。You do not yet know the literary
  world。 There are glorious exceptions; no doubt; but these men of
  letters drag terrible evils in their train; among these I account
  publicity as one of the greatest; for it blights everything。 A woman
  may commit herself with〃
  〃With a Public Prosecutor?〃 the Baronne put in with a smile。
  〃Well!and then after a rupture there is still something to fall back
  on; the world has known nothing。 But with a more or less famous man
  the public is thoroughly informed。 Why look there! What an example you
  have close at hand! You are sitting back to back with the Comtesse
  Marie Vandenesse; who was within an ace of committing the utmost folly
  for a more celebrated man than Lousteaufor Nathanand now they do
  not even recognize each other。 After going to the very edge of the
  precipice; the Countess was saved; no one knows how; she neither left
  her husband nor her house; but as a famous man was scorned; she was
  the talk of the town for a whole winter。 But her husband's great
  fortune; great name; and high position; but for the admirable
  management of that true statesmanwhose conduct to his wife; they
  say; was perfectshe would have been ruined; in her position no other
  woman would have remained respected as she is。〃
  〃And how was Sancerre when you came away?〃 asked Madame de la
  Baudraye; to change the subject。
  〃Monsieur de la Baudraye announced that your expected confinement
  after so many years made it necessary that it should take place in
  Paris; and that he had insisted on your going to be attended by the
  first physicians;〃 replied Monsieur de Clagny; guessing what it was
  that Dinah most wanted to know。 〃And so; in spite of the commotion to
  which your departure gave rise; you still have your legal status。〃
  〃Why!〃 she exclaimed; 〃can Monsieur de la Baudraye still hope〃
  〃Your husband; madame; did what he always doesmade a little
  calculation。〃
  The lawyer left the box when the journalist returned; bowing with
  dignity。
  〃You are a greater hit than the piece;〃 said Etienne to Dinah。
  This brief triumph brought greater happiness to the poor woman than
  she had ever known in the whole of her provincial existence; still; as
  they left the theatre she was very grave。
  〃What ails you; my Didine?〃 asked Lousteau。
  〃I am wondering how a woman succeeds in conquering the world?〃
  〃There are two ways。 One is by being Madame de Stael; the other is by
  having two hundred thousand francs a year。〃
  〃Society;〃 said she; 〃asserts its hold on us by appealing to our
  vanity; our love of appearances。Pooh! We will be philosophers!〃
  That evening was the last gleam of the delusive well…being in which
  Madame de la Baudraye had lived since coming to Paris。 Three days
  later she observed a cloud on Lousteau's brow as he walked round the
  little garden…plot smoking a cigar。 This woman; who had acquired from
  her husband the habit and the pleasure of never owing anybody a sou;
  was informed that the household was penniless; with two quarters' rent
  owing; and on the eve; in fact; of an execution。
  This reality of Paris life pierced Dinah's heart like a thorn; she
  repented of having tempted Etienne into the extravagances of love。 It
  is so difficult to pass from pleasure to work; that happiness has
  wrecked more poems than sorrows ever helped to flow in sparkling jets。
  Dinah; happy in seeing Etienne taking his ease; smoking a cigar after
  breakfast; his face beaming as he basked like a lizard in the
  sunshine; could not summon up courage enough to make herself the bum…
  bailiff of a magazine。
  It struck her that through the worthy Migeon; Pamela's father; she
  might pawn the few jewels she possessed; on which her 〃uncle;〃 for she
  was learning to talk the slang of the town; advanced her nine hundred
  francs。 She kept three hundred for her baby…clothes and the expenses
  of her illness; and joyfully pr