第 31 节
作者:恐龙王      更新:2021-03-08 19:21      字数:9322
  conviction that Pickford is wholly utilitarian and unimaginative; I
  proceeded on my way。
  It is a mercy I have not a red and green lamp and a night…bell at
  my door; for in my very young days I was taken to so many lyings…in
  that I wonder I escaped becoming a professional martyr to them in
  after…life。  I suppose I had a very sympathetic nurse; with a large
  circle of married acquaintance。  However that was; as I continued
  my walk through Dullborough; I found many houses to be solely
  associated in my mind with this particular interest。  At one little
  greengrocer's shop; down certain steps from the street; I remember
  to have waited on a lady who had had four children (I am afraid to
  write five; though I fully believe it was five) at a birth。  This
  meritorious woman held quite a reception in her room on the morning
  when I was introduced there; and the sight of the house brought
  vividly to my mind how the four (five) deceased young people lay;
  side by side; on a clean cloth on a chest of drawers; reminding me
  by a homely association; which I suspect their complexion to have
  assisted; of pigs' feet as they are usually displayed at a neat
  tripe…shop。  Hot candle was handed round on the occasion; and I
  further remembered as I stood contemplating the greengrocer's; that
  a subscription was entered into among the company; which became
  extremely alarming to my consciousness of having pocket…money on my
  person。  This fact being known to my conductress; whoever she was;
  I was earnestly exhorted to contribute; but resolutely declined:
  therein disgusting the company; who gave me to understand that I
  must dismiss all expectations of going to Heaven。
  How does it happen that when all else is change wherever one goes;
  there yet seem; in every place; to be some few people who never
  alter?  As the sight of the greengrocer's house recalled these
  trivial incidents of long ago; the identical greengrocer appeared
  on the steps; with his hands in his pockets; and leaning his
  shoulder against the door…post; as my childish eyes had seen him
  many a time; indeed; there was his old mark on the door…post yet;
  as if his shadow had become a fixture there。  It was he himself; he
  might formerly have been an old…looking young man; or he might now
  be a young…looking old man; but there he was。  In walking along the
  street; I had as yet looked in vain for a familiar face; or even a
  transmitted face; here was the very greengrocer who had been
  weighing and handling baskets on the morning of the reception。  As
  he brought with him a dawning remembrance that he had had no
  proprietary interest in those babies; I crossed the road; and
  accosted him on the subject。  He was not in the least excited or
  gratified; or in any way roused; by the accuracy of my
  recollection; but said; Yes; summut out of the common … he didn't
  remember how many it was (as if half…a…dozen babes either way made
  no difference) … had happened to a Mrs。 What's…her…name; as once
  lodged there … but he didn't call it to mind; particular。  Nettled
  by this phlegmatic conduct; I informed him that I had left the town
  when I was a child。  He slowly returned; quite unsoftened; and not
  without a sarcastic kind of complacency; HAD I?  Ah!  And did I
  find it had got on tolerably well without me?  Such is the
  difference (I thought; when I had left him a few hundred yards
  behind; and was by so much in a better temper) between going away
  from a place and remaining in it。  I had no right; I reflected; to
  be angry with the greengrocer for his want of interest; I was
  nothing to him:  whereas he was the town; the cathedral; the
  bridge; the river; my childhood; and a large slice of my life; to
  me。
  Of course the town had shrunk fearfully; since I was a child there。
  I had entertained the impression that the High…street was at least
  as wide as Regent…street; London; or the Italian Boulevard at
  Paris。  I found it little better than a lane。  There was a public
  clock in it; which I had supposed to be the finest clock in the
  world:  whereas it now turned out to be as inexpressive; moon…
  faced; and weak a clock as ever I saw。  It belonged to a Town Hall;
  where I had seen an Indian (who I now suppose wasn't an Indian)
  swallow a sword (which I now suppose he didn't)。  The edifice had
  appeared to me in those days so glorious a structure; that I had
  set it up in my mind as the model on which the Genie of the Lamp
  built the palace for Aladdin。  A mean little brick heap; like a
  demented chapel; with a few yawning persons in leather gaiters; and
  in the last extremity for something to do; lounging at the door
  with their hands in their pockets; and calling themselves a Corn
  Exchange!
  The Theatre was in existence; I found; on asking the fishmonger;
  who had a compact show of stock in his window; consisting of a sole
  and a quart of shrimps … and I resolved to comfort my mind by going
  to look at it。  Richard the Third; in a very uncomfortable cloak;
  had first appeared to me there; and had made my heart leap with
  terror by backing up against the stage…box in which I was posted;
  while struggling for life against the virtuous Richmond。  It was
  within those walls that I had learnt as from a page of English
  history; how that wicked King slept in war…time on a sofa much too
  short for him; and how fearfully his conscience troubled his boots。
  There; too; had I first seen the funny countryman; but countryman
  of noble principles; in a flowered waistcoat; crunch up his little
  hat and throw it on the ground; and pull off his coat; saying; 'Dom
  thee; squire; coom on with thy fistes then!'  At which the lovely
  young woman who kept company with him (and who went out gleaning;
  in a narrow white muslin apron with five beautiful bars of five
  different…coloured ribbons across it) was so frightened for his
  sake; that she fainted away。  Many wondrous secrets of Nature had I
  come to the knowledge of in that sanctuary:  of which not the least
  terrific were; that the witches in Macbeth bore an awful
  resemblance to the Thanes and other proper inhabitants of Scotland;
  and that the good King Duncan couldn't rest in his grave; but was
  constantly coming out of it and calling himself somebody else。  To
  the Theatre; therefore; I repaired for consolation。  But I found
  very little; for it was in a bad and declining way。  A dealer in
  wine and bottled beer had already squeezed his trade into the box…
  office; and the theatrical money was taken … when it came … in a
  kind of meat…safe in the passage。  The dealer in wine and bottled
  beer must have insinuated himself under the stage too; for he
  announced that he had various descriptions of alcoholic drinks 'in
  the wood;' and there was no possible stowage for the wood anywhere
  else。  Evidently; he was by degrees eating the establishment away
  to the core; and would soon have sole possession of it。  It was To
  Let; and hopelessly so; for its old purposes; and there had been no
  entertainment within its walls for a long time except a Panorama;
  and even that had been announced as 'pleasingly instructive;' and I
  know too well the fatal meaning and the leaden import of those
  terrible expressions。  No; there was no comfort in the Theatre。  It
  was mysteriously gone; like my own youth。  Unlike my own youth; it
  might be coming back some day; but there was little promise of it。
  As the town was placarded with references to the Dullborough
  Mechanics' Institution; I thought I would go and look at that
  establishment next。  There had been no such thing in the town; in
  my young day; and it occurred to me that its extreme prosperity
  might have brought adversity upon the Drama。  I found the
  Institution with some difficulty; and should scarcely have known
  that I had found it if I had judged from its external appearance
  only; but this was attributable to its never having been finished;
  and having no front:  consequently; it led a modest and retired
  existence up a stable…yard。  It was (as I learnt; on inquiry) a
  most flourishing Institution; and of the highest benefit to the
  town:  two triumphs which I was glad to understand were not at all
  impaired by the seeming drawbacks that no mechanics belonged to it;
  and that it was steeped in debt to the chimney…pots。  It had a
  large room; which was approached by an infirm step…ladder:  the
  builder having declined to construct the intended staircase;
  without a present payment in cash; which Dullborough (though
  profoundly appreciative of the Institution) seemed unaccountably
  bashful about subscribing。  The large room had cost … or would;
  when paid for … five hundred pounds; and it had more mortar in it
  and more echoes; than one might have expected to get for the money。
  It was fitted up with a platform; and the usual lecturing tools;
  including a large black board of a menacing appearance。  On
  referring to lists of the courses of lectures that had been given
  in this thriving Hall; I fancied I detected a shyn