第 23 节
作者:恐龙王      更新:2021-03-08 19:21      字数:9321
  kinswoman with the dread belief that he has made up his mind to
  burst。  Regardless of whispers and shakes; he swells and becomes
  discoloured; and yet again swells and becomes discoloured; until
  the aunt can bear it no longer; but leads him out; with no visible
  neck; and with his eyes going before him like a prawn's。  This
  causes the sniggerers to regard flight as an eligible move; and I
  know which of them will go out first; because of the over…devout
  attention that he suddenly concentrates on the clergyman。  In a
  little while; this hypocrite; with an elaborate demonstration of
  hushing his footsteps; and with a face generally expressive of
  having until now forgotten a religious appointment elsewhere; is
  gone。  Number two gets out in the same way; but rather quicker。
  Number three getting safely to the door; there turns reckless; and
  banging it open; flies forth with a Whoop! that vibrates to the top
  of the tower above us。
  The clergyman; who is of a prandial presence and a muffled voice;
  may be scant of hearing as well as of breath; but he only glances
  up; as having an idea that somebody has said Amen in a wrong place;
  and continues his steady jog…trot; like a farmer's wife going to
  market。  He does all he has to do; in the same easy way; and gives
  us a concise sermon; still like the jog…trot of the farmer's wife
  on a level road。  Its drowsy cadence soon lulls the three old women
  asleep; and the unmarried tradesman sits looking out at window; and
  the married tradesman sits looking at his wife's bonnet; and the
  lovers sit looking at one another; so superlatively happy; that I
  mind when I; turned of eighteen; went with my Angelica to a City
  church on account of a shower (by this special coincidence that it
  was in Huggin…lane); and when I said to my Angelica; 'Let the
  blessed event; Angelica; occur at no altar but this!' and when my
  Angelica consented that it should occur at no other … which it
  certainly never did; for it never occurred anywhere。  And O;
  Angelica; what has become of you; this present Sunday morning when
  I can't attend to the sermon; and; more difficult question than
  that; what has become of Me as I was when I sat by your side!
  But; we receive the signal to make that unanimous dive which surely
  is a little conventional … like the strange rustlings and settlings
  and clearings of throats and noses; which are never dispensed with;
  at certain points of the Church service; and are never held to be
  necessary under any other circumstances。  In a minute more it is
  all over; and the organ expresses itself to be as glad of it as it
  can be of anything in its rheumatic state; and in another minute we
  are all of us out of the church; and Whity…brown has locked it up。
  Another minute or little more; and; in the neighbouring churchyard
  … not the yard of that church; but of another … a churchyard like a
  great shabby old mignonette box; with two trees in it and one tomb
  … I meet Whity…brown; in his private capacity; fetching a pint of
  beer for his dinner from the public…house in the corner; where the
  keys of the rotting fire…ladders are kept and were never asked for;
  and where there is a ragged; white…seamed; out…at…elbowed bagatelle
  board on the first floor。
  In one of these City churches; and only in one; I found an
  individual who might have been claimed as expressly a City
  personage。  I remember the church; by the feature that the
  clergyman couldn't get to his own desk without going through the
  clerk's; or couldn't get to the pulpit without going through the
  reading…desk … I forget which; and it is no matter … and by the
  presence of this personage among the exceedingly sparse
  congregation。  I doubt if we were a dozen; and we had no exhausted
  charity school to help us out。  The personage was dressed in black
  of square cut; and was stricken in years; and wore a black velvet
  cap; and cloth shoes。  He was of a staid; wealthy; and dissatisfied
  aspect。  In his hand; he conducted to church a mysterious child:  a
  child of the feminine gender。  The child had a beaver hat; with a
  stiff drab plume that surely never belonged to any bird of the air。
  The child was further attired in a nankeen frock and spencer; brown
  boxing…gloves; and a veil。  It had a blemish; in the nature of
  currant jelly; on its chin; and was a thirsty child。  Insomuch that
  the personage carried in his pocket a green bottle; from which;
  when the first psalm was given out; the child was openly refreshed。
  At all other times throughout the service it was motionless; and
  stood on the seat of the large pew; closely fitted into the corner;
  like a rain…water pipe。
  The personage never opened his book; and never looked at the
  clergyman。  He never sat down either; but stood with his arms
  leaning on the top of the pew; and his forehead sometimes shaded
  with his right hand; always looking at the church door。  It was a
  long church for a church of its size; and he was at the upper end;
  but he always looked at the door。  That he was an old bookkeeper;
  or an old trader who had kept his own books; and that he might be
  seen at the Bank of England about Dividend times; no doubt。  That
  he had lived in the City all his life and was disdainful of other
  localities; no doubt。  Why he looked at the door; I never
  absolutely proved; but it is my belief that he lived in expectation
  of the time when the citizens would come back to live in the City;
  and its ancient glories would be renewed。  He appeared to expect
  that this would occur on a Sunday; and that the wanderers would
  first appear; in the deserted churches; penitent and humbled。
  Hence; he looked at the door which they never darkened。  Whose
  child the child was; whether the child of a disinherited daughter;
  or some parish orphan whom the personage had adopted; there was
  nothing to lead up to。  It never played; or skipped; or smiled。
  Once; the idea occurred to me that it was an automaton; and that
  the personage had made it; but following the strange couple out one
  Sunday; I heard the personage say to it; 'Thirteen thousand
  pounds;' to which it added in a weak human voice; 'Seventeen and
  fourpence。'  Four Sundays I followed them out; and this is all I
  ever heard or saw them say。  One Sunday; I followed them home。
  They lived behind a pump; and the personage opened their abode with
  an exceeding large key。  The one solitary inscription on their
  house related to a fire…plug。  The house was partly undermined by a
  deserted and closed gateway; its windows were blind with dirt; and
  it stood with its face disconsolately turned to a wall。  Five great
  churches and two small ones rang their Sunday bells between this
  house and the church the couple frequented; so they must have had
  some special reason for going a quarter of a mile to it。  The last
  time I saw them; was on this wise。  I had been to explore another
  church at a distance; and happened to pass the church they
  frequented; at about two of the afternoon when that edifice was
  closed。  But; a little side…door; which I had never observed
  before; stood open; and disclosed certain cellarous steps。
  Methought 'They are airing the vaults to…day;' when the personage
  and the child silently arrived at the steps; and silently
  descended。  Of course; I came to the conclusion that the personage
  had at last despaired of the looked…for return of the penitent
  citizens; and that he and the child went down to get themselves
  buried。
  In the course of my pilgrimages I came upon one obscure church
  which had broken out in the melodramatic style; and was got up with
  various tawdry decorations; much after the manner of the extinct
  London may…poles。  These attractions had induced several young
  priests or deacons in black bibs for waistcoats; and several young
  ladies interested in that holy order (the proportion being; as I
  estimated; seventeen young ladies to a deacon); to come into the
  City as a new and odd excitement。  It was wonderful to see how
  these young people played out their little play in the heart of the
  City; all among themselves; without the deserted City's knowing
  anything about it。  It was as if you should take an empty counting…
  house on a Sunday; and act one of the old Mysteries there。  They
  had impressed a small school (from what neighbourhood I don't know)
  to assist in the performances; and it was pleasant to notice
  frantic garlands of inscription on the walls; especially addressing
  those poor innocents in characters impossible for them to decipher。
  There was a remarkably agreeable smell of pomatum in this
  congregation。
  But; in other cases; rot and mildew and dead citizens formed the
  uppermost scent; while; infused into it in a dreamy way not at all
  displeasing; was the staple character of the neighbourhood。  In the
  churches about Mark…lane; for example; there was a dry whiff of
  wheat; and I accidentally struck an airy sample of barley out of an
  aged hassock in one of them。  From Rood…lane