第 20 节
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but white glass in it); the ruddy glow; which had but so little a while quite
died out in the west; was now beginning to gather in the eastthe new day
was beginning。 I looked at the poppy that I still carried in my hand; and
it seemed to me to have withered and dwindled。 I felt anxious to speak to
my companion and tell him much; and withal I felt that I must hasten; or
for some reason or other I should be too late; so I spoke at last loud and
hurriedly:
〃John Ball; be of good cheer; for once more thou knowest; as I know;
that the Fellowship of Men shall endure; however many tribulations it may
have to wear through。 Look you; a while ago was the light bright about
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us; but it was because of the moon; and the night was deep
notwithstanding; and when the moonlight waned and died; and there was
but a little glimmer in place of the bright light; yet was the world glad
because all things knew that the glimmer was of day and not of night。 Lo
you; an image of the times to betide the hope of the Fellowship of Men。
Yet forsooth; it may well be that this bright day of summer which is now
dawning upon us is no image of the beginning of the day that shall be; but
rather shall that day…dawn be cold and grey and surly; and yet by its light
shall men see things as they verily are; and no longer enchanted by the
gleam of the moon and the glamour of the dream…tide。 By such grey
light shall wise men and valiant souls see the remedy; and deal with it; a
real thing that may be touched and handled; and no glory of the heavens to
be worshipped from afar off。 And what shall it be; as I told thee before;
save that men shall be determined to be free; yea; free as thou wouldst
have them; when thine hope rises the highest; and thou art thinking not of
the king's uncles; and poll…groat bailiffs; and the villeinage of Essex; but of
the end of all; when men shall have the fruits of the earth and the fruits of
their toil thereon; without money and without price。 The time shall come;
John Ball; when that dream of thine that this shall one day be; shall be a
thing that men shall talk of soberly; and as a thing soon to come about; as
even with thee they talk of the villeins becoming tenants paying their lord
quit…rent; therefore; hast thou done well to hope it; and; if thou heedest this
also; as I suppose thou heedest it little; thy name shall abide by thy hope in
those days to come; and thou shalt not be forgotten。〃
I heard his voice come out of the twilight; scarcely seeing him; though
now the light was growing fast; as he said:
〃Brother; thou givest me heart again; yet since now I wot well that
thou art a sending from far…off times and far…off things: tell thou; if thou
mayest; to a man who is going to his death how this shall come about。〃
〃Only this may I tell thee 〃 said I; 〃to thee; when thou didst try to
conceive of them; the ways of the days to come seemed follies scarce to be
thought of; yet shall they come to be familiar things; and an order by
which every man liveth; ill as he liveth; so that men shall deem of them;
that thus it hath been since the beginning of the world; and that thus it
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shall be while the world endureth; and in this wise so shall they be thought
of a long while; and the complaint of the poor the rich man shall heed;
even as much and no more as he who lieth in pleasure under the lime…trees
in the summer heedeth the murmur of his toiling bees。 Yet in time shall
this also grow old; and doubt shall creep in; because men shall scarce be
able to live by that order; and the complaint of the poor shall be hearkened;
no longer as a tale not utterly grievous; but as a threat of ruin; and a fear。
Then shall these things; which to thee seem follies; and to the men
between thee and me mere wisdom and the bond of stability; seem follies
once again; yet; whereas men have so long lived by them; they shall cling
to them yet from blindness and from fear; and those that see; and that have
thus much conquered fear that they are furthering the real time that cometh
and not the dream that faileth; these men shall the blind and the fearful
mock and missay; and torment and murder: and great and grievous shall
be the strife in those days; and many the failures of the wise; and too oft
sore shall be the despair of the valiant; and back…sliding; and doubt; and
contest between friends and fellows lacking time in the hubbub to
understand each other; shall grieve many hearts and hinder the Host of the
Fellowship: yet shall all bring about the end; till thy deeming of folly and
ours shall be one; and thy hope and our hope; and thenthe Day will have
come。〃
Once more I heard the voice of John Ball: 〃Now; brother; I say
farewell; for now verily hath the Day of the Earth come; and thou and I are
lonely of each other again; thou hast been a dream to me as I to thee; and
sorry and glad have we made each other; as tales of old time and the
longing of times to come shall ever make men to be。 I go to life and to
death; and leave thee; and scarce do I know whether to wish thee some
dream of the days beyond thine to tell what shall be; as thou hast told me;
for I know not if that shall help or hinder thee; but since we have been
kind and very friends; I will not leave thee without a wish of good…will; so
at least I wish thee what thou thyself wishest for thyself; and that is
hopeful strife and blameless peace; which is to say in one word; life。
Farewell; friend。〃
For some little time; although I had known that the daylight was
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growing and what was around me; I had scarce seen the things I had
before noted so keenly; but now in a flash I saw allthe east crimson with
sunrise through the white window on my right hand; the richly…carved
stalls and gilded screen work; the pictures on the walls; the loveliness of
the faultless colour of the mosaic window lights; the altar and the red light
over it looking strange in the daylight; and the biers with the hidden dead
men upon them that lay before the high altar。 A great pain filled my heart
at the sight of all that beauty; and withal I heard quick steps coming up the
paved church…path to the porch; and the loud whistle of a sweet old tune
therewith; then the footsteps stopped at the door; I heard the latch rattle;
and knew that Will Green's hand was on the ring of it。
Then I strove to rise up; but fell back again; a white light; empty of all
sights; broke upon me for a moment; and lo I behold; I was lying in my
familiar bed; the south…westerly gale rattling the Venetian blinds and
making their hold…fasts squeak。
I got up presently; and going to the window looked out on the winter
morning; the river was before me broad between outer bank and bank; but
it was nearly dead ebb; and there was a wide space of mud on each side of
the hurrying stream; driven on the faster as it seemed by the push of the
south…west wind。 On the other side of the water the few willow…trees left
us by the Thames Conservancy looked doubtfully alive against the bleak
sky and the row of wretched…looking blue…slated houses; although; by the
way; the latter were the backs of a sort of street of 〃villas〃 and not a slum;
the road in front of the house was sooty and muddy at once; and in the air
was that sense of dirty discomfort which one is never quit of in London。
The morning was harsh; too; and though the wind was from the south…west
it was as cold as a north wind; and yet amidst it all; I thought of the corner
of the next bight of the river which I could not quite see from where I was;
but over which one can see clear of houses and into Richmond Park;
looking like the open country; and dirty as the river was; and harsh as was
the January wind; they seemed to woo me toward the country…side; where