though　abashed　and　at　fault　before　us；　so　I　moved　a　little　nearer
  him；　but　Woloda　only　went　on　walking　about　the　room　with　his　head
  down；　and　smoking。
  〃So；　my　children；　that　is　what　your　old　father　has　planned　to
  do；〃　concluded　Papareddening；　coughing；　and　offering　Woloda　and
  myself　his　hands。　Tears　were　in　his　eyes　as　he　said　this；　and　I
  noticed；　too；　that　the　hand　which　he　was　holding　out　to　Woloda
  （who　at　that　moment　chanced　to　be　at　the　other　end　of　the　room）
  was　shaking　slightly。　The　sight　of　that　shaking　hand　gave　me　an
  unpleasant　shock；　for　I　remembered　that　Papa　had　served　in　1812；
  and　had　been；　as　every　one　knew；　a　brave　officer。　Seizing　the
  great　veiny　hand；　I　covered　it　with　kisses；　and　he　squeezed　mine
  hard　in　return。　Then；　with　a　sob　amid　his　tears；　he　suddenly
  threw　his　arms　around　Lubotshka's　dark　head；　and　kissed　her　again
  and　again　on　the　eyes。　Woloda　pretended　that　he　had　dropped　his
  pipe；　and；　bending　down；　wiped　his　eyes　furtively　with　the　back
  of　his　hand。　Then；　endeavouring　to　escape　notice；　he　left　the
  room。
  XXXVI
  THE　UNIVERSITY
  THE　wedding　was　to　take　place　in　two　weeks'　time；　but；　as　our
  lectures　had　begun　already；　Woloda　and　myself　were　forced　to
  return　to　Moscow　at　the　beginning　of　September。　The　Nechludoffs
  had　also　returned　from　the　country；　and　Dimitri　（with　whom；　on
  parting；　I　had　made　an　agreement　that　we　should　correspond
  frequently　with　the　result；　of　course；　that　we　had　never　once
  written　to　one　another）　came　to　see　us　immediately　after　our
  arrival；　and　arranged　to　escort　me　to　my　first　lecture　on　the
  morrow。
  It　was　a　beautiful　sunny　day。　No　sooner　had　I　entered　the
  auditorium　than　I　felt　my　personality　entirely　disappear　amid　the
  swarm　of　light…hearted　youths　who　were　seething　tumultuously
  through　every　doorway　and　corridor　under　the　influence　of　the
  sunlight　pouring　through　the　great　windows。　I　found　the　sense　of
  being　a　member　of　this　huge　community　very　pleasing；　yet　there
  were　few　among　the　throng　whom　I　knew；　and　that　only　on　terms　of
  a　nod　and　a　〃How　do　you　do；　Irtenieff？〃
  All　around　me　men　were　shaking　hands　and　chatting　togetherfrom
  every　side　came　expressions　of　friendship；　laughter；　jests；　and
  badinage。　Everywhere　I　could　feel　the　tie　which　bound　this
  youthful　society　in　one；　and　everywhere；　too；　I　could　feel　that
  it　left　me　out。　Yet　this　impression　lasted　for　a　moment　only；　and
  was　succeeded；　together　with　the　vexation　which　it　had　caused；　by
  the　idea　that　it　was　best　that　I　should　not　belong　to　that
  society；　but　keep　to　my　own　circle　of　gentlemen；　wherefore　I
  proceeded　to　seat　myself　upon　the　third　bench；　with；　as　neigh~
  hours；　Count　B。；　Baron　Z。；　the　Prince　R。；　Iwin；　and　some　other
  young　men　of　the　same　class　with　none　of　whom；　however；　was
  acquainted　save　with　Iwin　and　Count　B。　Yet　the　look　which　these
  young　gentlemen　threw　at　me　at　once　made　me　feel　that　I　was　not
  of　their　set；　and　I　turned　to　observe　what　was　going　on　around
  me。　Semenoff；　with　grey；　matted　hair；　white　teeth；　and　tunic
  flying　open；　was　seated　a　little　distance　off；　and　leaning
  forward　on　his　elbows　as　he　nibbled　a　pen；　while　the　gymnasium
  student　who　had　come　out　first　in　the　examinations　had
  established　himself　on　the　front　bench；　and；　with　a　black　stock
  coming　half…way　up　his　cheek；　was　toying　with　the　silver　watch…
  chain　which　adorned　his　satin　waistcoat。　On　a　bench　in　a　raised
  part　of　the　hall　I　could　descry　Ikonin　（evidently　he　had
  contrived　to　enter　the　University　somehow！）；　and　hear　him　fussily
  proclaiming；　in　all　the　glory　of　blue　piped　trousers　which
  completely　hid　his　boots；　that　he　was　now　seated　on　Parnassus。
  Ilinkawho　had　surprised　me　by　giving　me　a　bow　not　only　cold；
  but　supercilious；　as　though　to　remind　me　that　here　we　were　all
  equalswas　just　in　front　of　me；　with　his　legs　resting　in　free　and
  easy　style　on　another　bench　（a　hit；　somehow　I　thought；　at
  myself）；　and　conversing　with　a　student　as　he　threw　occasional
  glances　in　my　direction。　Iwin's　set　by　my　side　were　talking　in
  French；　yet　every　word　which　I　overheard　of　their　conversation
  seemed　to　me　both　stupid　and　incorrect　（〃Ce　n'est　pas　francais；〃
  I　thought　to　myself）；　while　all　the　attitudes；　utterances；　and
  doings　of　Semenoff；　Ilinka；　and　the　rest　struck　me　as　uniformly
  coarse；　ungentlemanly；　and　〃comme　il　ne　faut　pas。〃
  Thus；　attached　to　no　particular　set；　I　felt　isolated　and　unable
  to　make　friends；　and　so　grew　resentful。　One　of　the　students　on
  the　bench　in　front　of　me　kept　biting　his　nails；　which　were　raw　to
  the　quick　already；　and　this　so　disgusted　me　that　I　edged　away
  from　him。　In　short；　I　remember　finding　my　first　day　a　most
  depressing　affair。
  When　the　professor　entered；　and　there　was　a　general　stir　and　a
  cessation　of　chatter；　I　remember　throwing　a　scornful　glance　at
  him；　as　also　that　he　began　his　discourse　with　a　sentence　which　I
  thought　devoid　of　meaning。　I　had　expected　the　lecture　to　be；　from
  first　to　last；　so　clever　that　not　a　word　ought　to　be　taken　from
  or　added　to　it。　Disappointed　in　this；　I　at　once　proceeded　to　draw
  beneath　the　heading　〃First　Lecture〃　with　which　I　had　adorned　my
  beautifully…bound　notebook　no　less　than　eighteen　faces　in
  profile；　joined　together　in　a　sort　of　chaplet；　and　only
  occasionally　moved　my　hand　along　the　page　in　order　to　give　the
  professor　（who；　I　felt　sure；　must　be　greatly　interested　in　me）
  the　impression　that　I　was　writing　something。　In　fact；　at　this
  very　first　lecture　I　came　to　the　decision　which　I　maintained　to
  the　end　of　my　course；　namely；　that　it　was　unnecessary；　and　even
  stupid；　to　take　down　every　word　said　by　every　professor。
  At　subsequent　lectures；　however；　I　did　not　feel　my　isolation　so
  strongly；　since　I　made　several　acquaintances　and　got　into　the　way
  of　shaking　hands　and　entering　into　conversation。　Yet　for　some
  reason　or　another　no　real　intimacy　ever　sprang　up　between　us；　and
  I　often　found　myself　depressed　and　only　feigning　cheerfulness。
  With　the　set　which　comprised　Iwin　and　〃the　aristocrats；〃　as　they
  were　generally　known；　I　could　not　make　any　headway　at　all；　for；
  as　I　now　remember；　I　was　always　shy　and　churlish　to　them；　and
  nodded　to　them　only　when　they　nodded　to　me；　so　that　they　had
  little　inducement　to　desire　my　acquaintance。　With　most　of　the
  other　students；　however；　this　arose　from　quite　a　different　cause。
  As　soon　as　ever　I　discerned　friendliness　on　the　part　of　a
  comrade；　I　at　once　gave　him　to　understand　that　I　went　to　luncheon
  with　Prince　Ivan　Ivanovitch　and　kept　my　own　drozhki。　All　this　I
  said　merely　to　show　myself　in　the　most　favourable　light　in　his
  eyes；　and　to　induce　him　to　like　me　all　the　more；　yet　almost
  invariably　the　only　result　of　my　communicating　to　him　the
  intelligence　concerning　the　drozhki　and　my　relationship　to　Prince
  Ivan　Ivanovitch　was　that；　to　my　astonishment；　he　at　once　adopted
  a　cold　and　haughty　bearing　towards　me。
  Among　us　we　had　a　Crown　student　named　Operoffa　very　modest；
  industrious；　and　clever　young　fellow；　who　always　offered　one　his
  hand　like　a　slab　of　wood　（that　is　to　say；　without　closing　his
  fingers　or　making　the　slightest　movement　with　them）；　with　the
  result　that　his　comrades　often　did　the　same　to　him　in　jest；　and
  called　it　the　〃deal　board〃　way　of　shaking　hands。　He　and　I　nearly
  always　sat　next　to　one　another；　and　discussed　matters　generally。
  In　particular　he　pleased　me　with　the　freedom　with　which　he　would
  criticise　the　professors　as　he　pointed　out　to　me　with　great
  clearness　and　acumen　the　merits　or　demerits　of　their　respective
  ways　of　teaching　and　made　occasional　fun　of　them。　Such　remarks　I
  found　exceedingly　striking　and　diverting　when　uttered　in　his
  quiet；　mincing　voice。　Nevertheless　he　never　let　a　lecture　pass
  without　taking　careful　notes　of　it　in　his　fine　handwriting；　and
  eventually　we　decided　to　join　forces；　and　to　do　our　preparation
  together。　Things　had　progressed　to　the　point　of　his　always
  looking　pleased　when　I　took　my　usual　seat　beside　him　when；
  unfortunately；　I　one　day　found　it　necessary　to　inform　him　that；
  before　her　death；　my　mother　had　besought　my　father　never　to　allow
  us　to　enter　for　a　government　scholarship；　as　well　as　that　I
  myself　considered　Crown　students；　no　matter　how　clever；　to　be…
  〃well；　they　are　not　GENTLEMEN；〃　I　concluded；　though　beginning　to
  flounder　a　little　and　grow　red。　At　the　moment　Operoff　said
  nothing；　but　at　subsequent　lectures　he　ceased　to　greet　me　or　to
  offer　me　his　board…like　hand；　and　never　attempted　to　talk　to　me；
  but；　as　soon　as　ever　I　sat　down；　he　would　lean　his　head　upon　his
  arm；　and　purport　to　be　absorbed　in　his　notebooks。　I　was　surprised
  at　this　sudden　coolness；　but　looked　upon　it　as　infra　dig；　〃pour
  un　jeune　homme　de　bonne　maison〃　to　curry　favour　with　a　mere　Crown
  student　of　an　Operoff；　and　so　left　him　severely　alonethough　I
  confess　that　his　aloofness　hurt　my　feelings。　On　one　occasion　I
  arrived　before　him；　and；　since　the　lecture　was　to　be　delivered　by
  a　popular　professo