第 19 节
作者:不是就是      更新:2021-02-27 02:46      字数:9322
  hear no more about his feelings and intentions with regard to
  Lubov Sergievna; but to talk unstintedly about my own love for
  Sonetchka; who seemed to me an object of affection of a far
  higher order。 Yet for some reason or another I could not make up
  my mind to tell him straight out how splendid it would seem when
  I had married Sonetchka and we were living in the countryof how
  we should have little children who would crawl about the floor
  and call me Papa; and of how delighted I should be when he;
  Dimitri; brought his wife; Lubov Sergievna; to see us; wearing an
  expensive gown。 Accordingly; instead of saying all that; I
  pointed to the setting sun; and merely remarked: 〃Look; Dimitri!
  How splendid!〃
  To this; however; Dimitri made no reply; since he was evidently
  dissatisfied at my answering his confession (which it had cost
  him much to make) by directing his attention to natural objects
  (to which he was; in general; indifferent)。 Upon him Nature had
  an effect altogether different to what she had upon myself; for
  she affected him rather by her industry than by her beautyhe
  loved her rather with his intellect than with his senses。
  〃I am absolutely happy;〃 I went on; without noticing that he was
  altogether taken up with his own thoughts and oblivious of
  anything that I might be saying。 〃You will remember how told you
  about a girl with whom I used to be in love when was a little
  boy? Well; I saw her again only this morning; and am now
  infatuated with her。〃 Then I told himdespite his continued
  expression of indifferenceabout my love; and about all my plans
  for my future connubial happiness。 Strangely enough; no sooner
  had I related in detail the whole strength of my feelings than I
  instantly became conscious of its diminution。
  The rain overtook us just as we were turning into the avenue of
  birch…trees which led to the house; but it did not really wet us。
  I only knew that it was raining by the fact that I felt a drop
  fall; first on my nose; and then on my hand; and heard something
  begin to patter upon the young; viscous leaves of the birch…trees
  as; drooping their curly branches overhead; they seemed to imbibe
  the pure; shining drops with an avidity which filled the whole
  avenue with scent。 We descended from the carriage; so as to reach
  the house the quicker through the garden; but found ourselves
  confronted at the entrance…door by four ladies; two of whom were
  knitting; one reading a book; and the fourth walking to and fro
  with a little dog。 Thereupon; Dimitri began to present me to his
  mother; sister; and aunt; as well as to Lubov Sergievna。 For a
  moment they remained where they were; but almost instantly the
  rain became heavier。
  〃Let us go into the verandah; you can present him to us there;〃
  said the lady whom I took to be Dimitri's mother; and we all of
  us ascended the entrance…steps。
  XXIII
  THE NECHLUDOFFS
  From the first; the member of this company who struck me the most
  was Lubov Sergievna; who; holding a lapdog in her arms and
  wearing stout laced boots; was the last of the four ladies to
  ascend the staircase; and twice stopped to gaze at me intently
  and then kiss her little dog。 She was anything but good…looking;
  since she was red…haired; thin; short; and slightly crooked。 What
  made her plain face all the plainer was the queer way in which
  her hair was parted to one side (it looked like the wigs which
  bald women contrive for themselves)。 However much I should have
  liked to applaud my friend; I could not find a single comely
  feature in her。 Even her brown eyes; though expressive of good…
  humour; were small and dullwere; in fact; anything but pretty;
  while her hands (those most characteristic of features); were
  though neither large nor ill…shaped; coarse and red。
  As soon as we reached the verandah; each of the ladies; except
  Dimitri's sister Varenikawho also had been regarding me
  attentively out of her large; dark…grey eyessaid a few words
  to me before resuming her occupation; while Varenika herself began
  to read aloud from a book which she held on her lap and steadied
  with her finger。
  The Princess Maria Ivanovna was a tall; well…built woman of
  forty。 To judge by the curls of half…grey hair which descended
  below her cap one might have taken her for more; but as soon as
  ever one observed the fresh; extraordinarily tender; and almost
  wrinkleless face; as well as; most of all; the lively; cheerful
  sparkle of the large eyes; one involuntarily took her for less。
  Her eyes were black and very frank; her lips thin and slightly
  severe; her nose regular and slightly inclined to the left; and
  her hands ringless; large; and almost like those of a man; but
  with finely tapering fingers。 She wore a dark…blue dress fastened
  to the throat and sitting closely to her firm; still youthful
  waista waist which she evidently pinched。 Lastly; she held
  herself very upright; and was knitting a garment of some kind。 As
  soon as I stepped on to the verandah she took me by the hand;
  drew me to her as though wishing to scrutinise me more closely;
  and said; as she gazed at me with the same cold; candid glance as
  her son's; that she had long known me by report from Dimitri; and
  that therefore; in order to make my acquaintance thoroughly; she
  had invited me to stay these twenty…four hours in her house。
  〃Do just as you please here;〃 she said; 〃and stand on no ceremony
  whatever with us; even as we shall stand on none with you。 Pray
  walk; read; listen; or sleep as the mood may take you。〃
  Sophia Ivanovna was an old maid and the Princess's younger
  sister; though she looked the elder of the two。 She had that
  exceedingly overstuffed appearance which old maids always present
  who are short of stature but wear corsets。 It seemed as though
  her healthiness had shifted upwards to the point of choking her;
  her short; fat hands would not meet below her projecting bust;
  and the line of her waist was scarcely visible at all。
  Notwithstanding that the Princess Maria Ivanovna had black hair
  and eyes; while Sophia Ivanovna had white hair and large;
  vivacious; tranquilly blue eyes (a rare combination); there was a
  great likeness between the two sisters; for they had the same
  expression; nose; and lips。 The only difference was that Sophia's
  nose and lips were a trifle coarser than Maria's; and that; when
  she smiled; those features inclined towards the right;
  whereas Maria's inclined towards the left。 Sophia; to judge by
  her dress and coiffure; was still youthful at heart; and would
  never have displayed grey curls; even if she had possessed them。
  Yet at first her glance and bearing towards me seemed very proud;
  and made me nervous; whereas I at once felt at home with the
  Princess。 Perhaps it was only Sophia's stoutness and a certain
  resemblance to portraits of Catherine the Great that gave her; in
  my eyes; a haughty aspect; but at all events I felt quite
  intimidated when she looked at me intently and said; 〃Friends of
  our friends are our friends also。〃 I became reassured and changed
  my opinion about her only when; after saying those words; she
  opened her mouth and sighed deeply。 It may be that she owed her
  habit of sighing after every few wordswith a great distention
  of the mouth and a slight drooping of her large blue eyesto her
  stoutness; yet it was none the less one which expressed so much
  good…humour that I at once lost all fear of her; and found her
  actually attractive。 Her eyes were charming; her voice pleasant
  and musical; and even the flowing lines of her fullness seemed to
  my youthful vision not wholly lacking in beauty。
  I had imagined that Lubov Sergievna; as my friend's friend; would
  at once say something friendly and familiar to me; yet; after
  gazing at me fixedly for a while; as though in doubt whether the
  remark she was about to make to me would not be too friendly; she
  at length asked me what faculty I was in。 After that she stared
  at me as before; in evident hesitation as to whether or not to
  say something civil and familiar; until; remarking her
  perplexity; I besought her with a look to speak freely。 Yet all
  she then said was; 〃They tell me the Universities pay very little
  attention to science now;〃 and turned away to call her little
  dog。
  All that evening she spoke only in disjointed fragments of this
  kindfragments which had no connection either with the point or
  with one another; yet I had such faith in Dimitri; and he so
  often kept looking from her to me with an expression which mutely
  asked me; 〃Now; what do you think of that?〃 that; though I
  entirely failed to persuade myself that in Lubov Sergievna there
  was anything to speak of; I could not bear to express the
  thought; even to myself。
  As for the last member of the family; Varenika; she was a well…
  developed girl of sixteen。 The only good features in her were a
  pair of dark…grey eyes;which; in their expression of gaiety
  mingled with qui